HERE WE COME!!

Planned a few stuff for the following months.........

3rd aug ... short getaway to batam...
(yet to book)
keke
coz the price list not out yet wor........

25th Aug... gg for a xinyao concert at indoor stadium....

woohoo!! *clap clap*
read tt the 2 day concert tickets were sold out!!!
and another 2 days were added
am glad tt we managed to get the tickets
though was told its restricted view

well, its okie bah
not there to see him, but to hear him sing
so =D
really thank god!!
but i really think he levelled up leh
never before wor, his concerts, tickets price levelled up and add 2 more days
19th Aug.........here we come!!!!!

also booked a short trip to BKK
25th Sept to 29th Sept
HERE WE COME!!!

if all goes will will have a longhaul trip sometime in oct/nov
see hor bah
gg to meet up this coming sat for discussion coz of the NATAS fair
but we sort of know which agency we will go to....
so its only a matter of deciding on the date

whatever it is.. at least got something to look forward to
HUAT AH!!

nothing gg to stop us now!!!
CHARGE!!

GOOD JOB! but thankless

almost one month 10 days since mama left us
how r u mama?  doing great? enjoying urself??
=D
i missed u

and what have i done?
i packed the house lor
i tell u
spend so much $$ on body massage and foot reflex after each packing and throwing sessions

results?

i told ppl i levelled a mountain
lolz
i finally gotten the study room back
back to a proper room
*clap hands*

disposed all unwanted stuff
unwanted = kept for years, either in boxes and inside another box and inside another box.. or in plastic bag which is also inside another bag and then another
and then stack one on top of another kind
so i throw throw throw
and of course kept some which i thought quite useful la

and then wanted to pack papa stuff too
and gave him a space of his own so tt he can keep his own stuff and then have some ownership of his own things
and not keep relying on others to keep or find his things
but he told me "dun touch my things, PLEASE"
FINE!!!

so i packed other areas lor
i packed my room too
=D
and also the area under the sink

i wanted to do the store room and the kitchen cabinets/drawers too
but frankly i really body ache and hands screaming and feet unhappy
just by packing and clearing stuff in the rooms and also the area under the kitchen sink
and since papa said want to do reno to the house, replace the carpet to something else... i think think think.. maybe wait till got workers then just tell them to dump for us instead

its really easy to take out the stuff and but it the throwing
to bring downstairs and not just dump it at the void deck leh
i brought it to the mobile bin located at the opp block
and u imagine the number of trips i make
no trolley to lessen the load leh
hand carry boxes and plastic bags
really omg

so now u know why i need to go for body massage and foot reflex
really cmi

then why bother to pack??
so tt we can take stock of our stuff
and also know what stuff are hidden in the house mah
end up, really nothing much
if they can be hidden for years, i am very sure, all will agreed tt u wont use them at all
so throw lor
imagine we have 5 boxes of recycled bags
4 bags of plastic and paper bags
1 box of towel
and so many boxes of i dun know what rubbish
haha
closed eyes.. all throw....
and i tell u hor
recycled bags may be good to have
but certain material hor, really cannot keep long de
one touch and cui lor

and then the paper or plastic bags hor
i tell u
u keep so long liao lor
the quality also cmi
i tell u, maybe haven reached bus stop, the bag already gave way lor

so anyway somebody cannot find certain things
and then said i throw away!!'
really tmd
dun want to lift a single finger to help out... dun even bother to find.....just want to open mouth
so easy to say
really the pack and throw is really a thankless job
tsk tsk

anyway i am glad
i packed and threw the stuff away
coz if i do it later, i might not have the strength to pack, throw and carry all the stuff downstairs to throw
so better do it now
while i still can..........
and now we can take stock of our daily necessities stuff
really give a pat to myself on my back

so now tt i have completed what i set out to do
i will hibernate and rest my body well
the rest of the house, well...wait till we reno the house then continue the pack and throw session bah

in the meantime, shall pamper myself first
=D

感恩

一路好走,  my dearest mama
as much as i 舍不得, but knowing tt u left without any pain or suffering and with us by your side
i very 感恩

u have been the best mum i ever wanted
no matter wat i did, how badly i fare, whether its right or wrong step decision, u are always there to support me and give me a helping hand or a little push even a little hug to keep me gg

thanks mama
thanks for everything

thanks for never giving up on us or ur battle with the cancer cells
u were strong... u fought hard for the past 2 years

time to rest... i know... so rest well......take care of urself too....
we shall all meet one day again....
till then

know tt i will always love u just like how u loved us...
i know tt although u no longer with us, but u will be up there looking after us.. making sure we are all doing fine

i will take good care of myself so dun u worry okie
as for papa, well, i will also try to take care of him a little la..
coz he big boy liao.. he should take care of me right

i will be strong.. just like u.... =)
so dun u worry okie.. nothing to worry
we will all take good care of ourselves.....

considered it as a 解脱 for u and us......
pain me to see u not eating and growing thinner and weaker each day
while u r still fighting the battle fiercely with ur might
很舍不的, but i know this is the best for u .....
有舍就有得

妈妈我爱你

BECAME A PANDA =(

took leave on fri
went on a 2D1N staycation with PS and WL in KSL

watched avengers over there
hehe
luckily they want to watch leh
if not who to watch with me
is it good
well, at least to me it is....
cant wait for part 4.. next year MAY.....

we encountered a pickpocket when we were on our way back to city square at the escalator
and i tell u
he was so quick
but coz the zipper on WL's backpack got the "zip" sound
she quickly turned ard and grab her backpack
staring at the man and went "HEY"
but the man hor, wasnt even looking at us or at her
pretending to be doing whatever he was doing gg up the escalator
really tmd

luckily nothing was stolen
but hor can u believed it
she put her pp and her hdps in the small pouch on her backpack
sigh
so PS was like telling her dun do tt in future
put some tissue or whatever not inside tt pocket is okie but not our pp or hdp or impt stuff
WL's heart went thump thump thump
and i told her its okie nothing stolen then never mind its okie
just calm down first.....

end up, i fell sick
=(
think i kam tio....be hero cold dun want to wear sweater end up now a panda
running a fever now
throat not feeling good
and coughing until i want to die
*sob sob*
is there a clinic open tomolo besides the 24hrs kind.........

so unwell now
duhz
need to monitor and pop panadol every 4 hour hope can bring it down and suppress until i see a doc

FIGHT ON

mama is getting thinner by the day
losing appetite but can see she is trying hard to eat too
too oily, veg, spicy, fried, ALL SHE DUN WANT
coz she said difficult to digest
but really see she is trying her best to eat something every day
be it cereal, milo or biscuit

i see le also heart pain
but what else can i do?
every night cry lor

can also see tt she struggling herself
but the day she stopped the chemo
we all knows well, does not mean the cancer cells will stay still and not move
sigh

so yes, they have spread
like wild fire
tts why mama legs now swollen
yes, not just the feet, the legs now.. all the way to the knee kind

"raise high 90 degrees"
who dun know
but its not easy
who dun know must walk, exercise
but do they know its very difficult and painful
sigh

only know how to make noise, complain, grumble
"listen to me, no wrong one"
FUCK U lor
tmd
really leh
u r no doc... but mama being mama, she just want to please all
and yeah, tts where i got my character from...
the soft one
who dun know tt u wont do things to harm her, but frankly, please la, u no doc, so dun pretend to be one or thinks u r one

"how many table spoon u took? got take one big scoop bo? listen to me, its for ur own good'
LISTEN MY FOOT LOR!!!
food already cannot go down.. u think only certain food have good appetite meh???

"i was just aways for 2 weeks and nobody do anything about the swollen feet.. sigh"
KNN
the feet was already swollen before u went for ur family trip okie
dun come and act like only u concern lor
and we r all blind
legs to raise up, who dun know... already done mah
but it wont means by doing tt the legs will become slim slim again....
so dun come and cry father cry mother with me

"mama goes toilet so long. got monitor or not? can monitor or no?  why go so long?"
HELLO!!!
how i know why so long
she got to wait for the poo poo to come out lor
duhz
monitor what?
monitor and then what?
what can u do? what can doc do?
NOTHING lor
just trying to pick a fight with me right

i seriously dun get it
if tomolo mama dun wake up from her sleep, does it matter any more about how many tablespoon she took, big scoop or small scoop? does it matter how long she stayed in the toilet? does it matter legs must raise 90 degrees and not 89.9 degrees??????!!!!??

i simply dun get it

we all love mama
this is a fact
but this is really too much for me
cant u guys just leave her alone and let her do what she wants as long as she happy

sigh

do u know for the past 2 weekends
she always say the sad sad things
things tt we no say before when she first went for the ops, or her second ops
she said about when she passed away she wants to have a niche (her ashes to put in the columbarium)
its okie if we dun go "visit" her as long as she knows tt she has a house.
alive got house, die also got house
hear like my heart so pain

she even said coz papa dun know how to use atm, so if he needs money, asked me to like give him the monthly allowance which she will transferred to me. last time she will say too.... but this time no matter how difficult it was for her to walk, how breathless it made her to walk tt few steps, she still make her way to the bank.  for someone who will walk instead of taking bus to the interchange and someone who wants save money dun take cab, she took a cab with the help of my niece and went to the bank and did the transfer.

i actually wanted to joke, if papa dun know then too bad no money for him lor
but then again, no la, not gg to make her worry

tts why i also wished tt i can also find my significant other half asap
to let her put heart tt someone is taking good care of her youngest daughter so dun worry
but i also know this thing cannot be forced de la
the two previous events which i joined also cancelled.... then what can i do right?
join again lor
hahaha
okie, so anyway all i wanted to say is, if i cannot find NOW, then remained single NOW not a bad decision until the good and reliable one comes along, right?

i can still be happy being single and also can take care of myself
so mama also can put heart
rather than b in a rs where i no happy at all, will make mama more worries right

i just wished tt mama will be happy and "healthy"
no pain no nothing
just no pain no nothing, i think u all should know what i mean ya

IS IT A SIGN??

i joined two events this month
but both events were cancelled due to unbalance gender ratio
=(

is it a sign??
>.<

sianzz

CONFIRMED

chop, stamp, confirmed, double confirmed!!!

HUAT AH!!

i recieved the confirmation letter today!!!

thanks everybody for your support and encouragement!!!

i will strive to do my best!!!

gam xia ha mi gua

>.<