AND ITS ALL YOUR FAULT

last night I did not sleep well
dun asked me why
I also dun know
the heart like lor lor lun

although I finally did sleep. but I woke up and slept and woke up and slept
so I also no idea why
not tt I was worrying about anything leh
tts weird right?

so anyway then this AM just before I woke up and refused to go back to sleeo
I had this dreamt

somehow I was packing my room
specifically packing my drawers and inside got many earrings
so I was transferring them into an earring container

then next scene I was in the airport with sis!!!
and ya, why with sis, thought mai go holiday with her le right

so anyway, in the airport we already like checked in
and at the waiting area, I took out the earring box and was re packing them again then sis came and asked me to go with her to the counter
then I went
then the counter said passport
so I went back to take, and was like telling sis 'u har, asked me to bring pp mah. then dun need to walk up  and down again"
then after dun know checking what (and oh ya, we gg to the US..haha)
then we went back to the place where I was re packing the earrings
and sis went " show me ur money"
and I said her my wallet pouch, and then she said " u har!! next time, change so much money tell me mah, then I dun need to bring my cc"
and then I was like (OMG) " SHIT LA!!! I forgot to bring my cc. its all ur fault!! keep rushing me. see la!!!"
and I was so super duper upset leh
also dun know why
and the finale was me breaking down in tears and sobbing away "if I cannot buy anything, its all ur fault!!"
and I cried like so poor thing leh..  although I told myself dun cry coz it is in public area and ppl will see
and then sis was like laughing and trying to comfort me " okie la okie la. I got enough cc la"

then I woke up

tmd!!
lolz
is it when I get older, I loves shopping??
hm...……..

anyway so weird right

and then ya, I would not get back to sleep
zzzzzzzz

so I woke up and get ready for work lor
and slowly eat my overnight oats and sip my milk tea...………

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHhhhhhhhh…...

CB OVER.....SLOWLY BUT SURELY....

maybe CB too long le
so when they lifted it on 2nd Jun and we on our way to Phase 2 from Phase 1
also dun know Phase 2 when will be in place

but ya, we are still working from home...….
asked me whether I missed working in office
yes and no

can sleep later, no need to travel to and fro
but coz not in office, no human touch and also no proper lunch, break time and knock off time
seriously my weekday, weekends, ph all mixed up
every day is working day regardless of the timing...…..
sigh


Anyway I had a dream
a weird one though

somehow
after an outing
I went back
ALONE again
forever alone in my dream
perhaps a sign telling me that ….. well, whatever, leave it to fate bah


so anyway this room I went into was not my room (as in not my current room)
its very exclusive one
looked very atas de
like hotel room but the décor looked very exp kind

as it was my first time in the room
I was playing with all the buttons I saw at the dressing table

and then I wouldn't find the buttons to on the lights
but the room somehow was dimly lit
ya, seriously TOO MANY BUTTONS liao

then I saw this bed or toilet or a shower facility thingy
I opened it up and wakao a bath tub and a wc
opened further and the wc disappeared dun asked me where it went coz I dun know wor
haha
then I somehow also dun know why
i went to put a chair into the bath tub
wore my rain coat
ya, lolz, dun know where popped up a raincoat
and then I sat on the chair, turned on the shower tap
and VIOLA!!!!
ya
water splashing on me

SHIOK!!!
like some therapy leh

and then I woke up lolz

weird right

so what is the dream trying to tell me about this CB period??

slowly and surely, we will all make it.... hang in there for a "little more'
we have all come so far together, dun give up now and our little efforts will be go went gone...wasted
JIAYOU!!
 I really want to go gia gia...lolz... blow air con..... looking forwards to the "new norms"

of course, bound to be have changes
like what PM lee said last night ' retrenchment, unemployment, re-training" sigh.... the scariest words to hear for ppl my age and above?

but we just got to adjust and adapt and make good out of it
the saying goes "when life gives u lemon, made lemonade"
CHEERS!!

TWO YEARS...

today marked the day mama left us for 2 years
i still missed her badly
and ya i am tearing up when typing this post
the thought and memories of her always bring tears to my eyes and always break my heart

there's nothing much i can do
except to take care of papa as i promised her although if given a choice i dun want to
coz ya, we clashed, mama knows, but she told me to take care of papa
but coz i promised so i will try to control my temper with him. so whenever i scold him or shout at him, i will feel bad about it after tt

but ya mama
i love u and miss u very much
u take care ya
happy mothers' day
(i really miss u)

1 MONTH CB

wa!!!
realised I did not log in for a very long time leh
and I almost forgot my log in name
lolz

this one month of wfh
I tell u
sibei cham leh
worst than working in office

coz the pc with u
so hor u just work work work work
no day no night one

my coll asked me "u mean u sit in front of the laptop the whole day?
and I said " ya? u mean u did not? u went to do ur own things?

OMG!!
I tell u
I must be the stupiak-est person in the world leh
duhz

tmd

but then well
must work la and also have life
balance
 even if work from home

I really no life
luckily I am not the " pa pa  run" kind of person
usually is work home and work home
so wfh is okie to me
except tt sometimes I really feel like gg out
but lucky the lazy me always cannot bring myself out of the house
haha

if u ask me whether I like to work in office or home
I can say both got pro and con la
I no need to travel, I keep myself warm and dry when it is raining in the am.
i have no one to PHYSICALLY talk to, no proper break, work like no day no night, no lunch (sometimes) coz lazy, no tea break (tsk tsk)
need to cook dinner (just ding the food hot, coz we ordered tingkat) but then the thing is if i have conference call at 5 to 530 there goes dinner
as in papa will have to be hungry until i am done with work to ding the food

ya, i know u guys have kids to manage
i have an old man to take care of
he became reliance and dun do much things

so ya, gg back to work is not just for me
but also for him
for him to be a BETTER man
be independent

well, since CB extended
so lets wait and see... JUNE
even if can go back to work, i think still work as split team
no full force in office bah

sigh
well
we have come so far!!!
so come on !
FIGHTING
slowly but surely

we can make it!!!

SIBEI WAYANG

yesterday in the train
tututututu back home

these young couple parked themselves infront of me
so I can HEAR their conversation loud and clear
unless of course when they speaks in their language I totally am lost

and so ya
they were talking about anything and everything under the sun
and then the guy told the girl to go get a seat coz long journey back home
we were already like at kallang, they boarded at bugis
and the girl said no need. used to it le. nothing. also like tt stand all the way to school or back home
then the guy maybe also want show off abit also claimed tt he also used to standing thru long journey last time from pasir ris to paya lebar and the bus all the way back

steady right
so hero and heroine

then right after they said this, there were 2 seats available coz got 2 ppl alighted
and them they quickly went sit down lor
at first I still can hear them talking after they sat down
then just seconds later total silence, I turned and saw ZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz (haahaa)
and I was like erm. not used to long distance meh
every day also like tis
suddenly just KO

steady pom pi pi

well
I guess I was like them when I was younger too
but now, sorry lor, I will definitely sit down the second got seat leh
auntie me old le
cannot stand too long
just now, now older, I also cannot squat too long in the toilet
tts why really thank god we changed it to sitting wc….

AMEN!!

another there was another scene I saw when the train was about to leave paya lebar station
this lady was actually charging straight for the train but the service officer on the platform went " train door closing" and she step on her brakes
but coz others still want to cheong into the train and there she was standing right in the middle and "blocking" the way, tis uncle who was also charging, perhaps not enough time to step on his brake or instead he was stepping more on the accelator and then he pushes the lady away and ran straight into the train car

I mean u got to see for urself
I find it so comical
laughing inside leh
tio internal injuires
and the lady just glared at him lor
but uncle also no saved oil lamp la
he also stared back
coz to him, u r blocking the passage way if u not entering the train. but to her is, why do u have to push me

anyway, now hor
covid 19.. better dun any how touch la
keep ur hands to urself

SEPARATED... FINALLY??

its announced
we will split from goldfish
she is gg to head another unit as DD
and we will be reporting directly to BH, which is now vacant

so rumours flying who will the BH be
and since MC rejected the AD post, I was told then our unit no AD

I dun know is it good or what
splitting from goldfish well, should be good bah
I mean, there must be a reason why we are separated from her
would be they intend to close down this unit in the near future
well, then so be it
right?
I mean what can we do about it?

or if the unit is not to be closed, then there would be other plans for it
so just wait for it

why I no sound happy, if u r wondering
coz WE STILL GG TO REPORT HER TILL THE BH comes in
hahahaha
coz the covering said he busy wor so delegated the role to her
and I was like U WANT TO BE COVERING U BLOODY HELL DO UR PART...lolz
well, okie, I cannot be rude
but dun u think so
 I mean logically, she no longer heads us
so hor, which means to say we also no head coz no AD mah
so we will have to report to the BH in future or in this case the covering lor
I mean she cannot be still doing our unit job or task
coz then when the new BH comes in, she will also no longer be in the picture
so they should pass over the jobs or tasks she is doing currently for our unit back to us
if not how do we know whether can we cope or manage on our own when the new BH comes in
and when the new BH comes in, she also wont be in the picture tio bo, our work dun go to her by right... then why still want her to cover? should just let us "swim" on our own... I feel la

if its not like this, then please go change the org chart.. put her name above all of us...…
and dun put her in the right column and all others in the left
tio bo

anyway, 1st apr we will see whether is it an april fool joke!!
lolz

HUAT AH

LIFE GOES ON

2020 really started off with a BANG!!

sigh
covid 19
steady pom pi pi

each time is really getting like.... dun know how to say
and I cannot even pronounce it
unlikes SARS.. HAZE...MAD COW.... BIRD FLU.... sigh

just hope tt everything would be under control soon
and smooth recovery for those patients
and seriously stop putting "funny or weird" stuff into ur fucking mouth!!!!!!!!!

duhz

in the mean time, hang in there
wash hands wash hands and wash hands
dun touch here dun touch there, even if want to touch WASH UR HANDS before u touch ur FACE or hair or anywhere on urself la

be responsible not only to yourself, ur loved ones and also to the nation and WORLD too!!!

come on!!
we can too do a little part, play a little part....

although I also just back from tw like almost 2 weeks ago liao
guess the situation then was still UNDER CONTROL
washed hands, disinfect, wet wipes and face mask
I tell u, dun play play
want to go out and have fun... but still must remember to stay safe and most impt
BE RESPONSIBLE

well can only pray hard
cross fingers
hope all will be well soon

in the meantime, life still goes on..