LET GO

dun know why the shows which i am watching now seemed to suit me so well
sigh

does not mean tt u love the person, u got to stay by his/her side
as long as he/she is happy, u will too be happy
so u let him/her go to find his/her own "xing fu" and u will be happy too!!

ta da!!
要是我挽回你 你一定更伤心
爱一个人不一定要永远在一起


well said
so easy to say
but difficult to do it

coz u will ask urself then why u cannot be the "xing fu" leh???

i also dun know dun ask me
but as long as he "xing fu" i think i will also find mine!!

jia you!!!

GOOD JOB

i think i am doing a great job
*pat on back*
i did not cry or even feel abt crying on way to work or on way home
=))

i did not even feel like breaking down any moment at work today
*beam beam*
i can even talk abt it(not in details though..hehehe....just "dun wanna talk abt it") and not even choke on my own tears!

i think i am really doing a great job!!
not sure is it too early to say
or perhaps the sensitive topic was not touched on.......

whatever it is, good job!!
not sure is this the "before the big storm, the calmy weather"
hm........

one coll even got me a cheer up pressie
its a wound up rabbit toy tt hop like a chick
hehehe
when she passed me the gift, i almost wanted to cry
she patted me on my back and went "dun cry dun cry ok"
and a look at the gift, wa kao!! so cute
it brought a smile onto my face instead
hehehe

so u guys know what to do rite?
give me cheer up pressies...but i preferred $$$$$ hahaha
*evil*

BROKEN RECORD

do i sound like one?
sigh
all my recent entries are on the same topic
nothing new,nothing special
tts why i told u guys not to follow
read a few more times also sian

but i think i got to talk abt it and face it then i will get over it faster
=))

seriously, i thought i was fine
then hor, a sms came in from coll and i broke down again
its an encouragement sms but i just broke down
sigh

but i will pull this thru
coz u guys want me to and i also want to
like i said, i dun want to let my loved ones be worry for me
i will be fine!!!

just bear with this broken record for a while more!!!
i hoping to settle this by end of this month and locked this episode up somewhere deep inside me, throw away the key and one day, it will just fade away.....
just like the previous one...

frankly, i hate to see myself as a weakling...... from young, i always tell myself, since nobody loves me, i will have to love myself more!!!
ta da!!
i am a strong person....just tt i am weak now....hehehe but tt does not mean i will be a weakling forever

GET USED TO

wow!!!
i managed to finish the gambling show in 1 day
shag lor
watched until i peng san leh

why dun stop rite?
coz i want to know what is gg to happen next and i just cannot stop
hehehe
i think this avivd viewers will know wat i mean

anyway, there was this scene, i particular wanted to mention here
coz it suits me so well
the leading actress wants to leave the leading actor....coz she felt tt she is hindering his future (actually no lor, its the bad man who claimed so and she soft hearted lor)
anyway, so she wrote him a farewell note
in it, she mentioned tt (cut long story short) "20 yrs of rs is not easy to put down but i will try to get used to not loving u"
wa kao!!
damn touching lor!!
anyway, u might not understand why i said its touching lor
unless u r in my shoes now...anyway...TOUCH WOOD!!!
will not happened on u guys ok!!
=))

i will also do just tt..."TRY TO GET USED TO NOT LOVING U"
swee, steady pom pi pi!!!

anyway, the final ending, the leading actress got come back and end up marrying the leading actor
dun worry, i know its only a show..so i won't have hopes
coz i learnt from my friend, "no high hopes, u won;t fall and hurt urself badly"
i got listen ok....hehehe

i will be able to make it!!!

CRY CRY CRY

someone suggested to me to go shopping
buy things tt i like and i will be happy end of the day
i know i will be happy but the stuff which i eventually bought home, is it what i want?

many yrs ago, i think just tt
spend $300 over and end up with many bags of clothings which i dun need
sigh
and worst, the colour is in BROWN!!!
ya, the clothings which i bought are all in the shades of brown
faint can
i am not at tt age to wear brown yet lor
and then i decided no more shopping when i am not in good mood except to eat
and eat i did
and put on the pounds and then sianz.........
decided no more eating when in no good mood

so now tt i am in no good mood again what should i do??
watch tv?
sleep?
listen to songs?
sing songs?
shopping?
go out and walk walk?

i did just all tt.......hehehe....
watch tv will cry
sleep also will cry
listen to songs also will cry
bath also cry
wash face also cry
do what also will cry
so would u suggest to go out??
better not

so did u guess correctly??? now all i do is cry
sigh
so useless rite?
not the usual me
disappointed in me???

i really need to find some activites to keep myself occupy so tt the mind won't run wild
frankly, i got to count my blessings tt i can still work, eat, sleep, drink, poo and shit...wahahahaha
Y still joked with me "as long as no constipation u will be fine" *faint can*
at least, weekdays, during the day time, i am occupied...i just need to handle when night comes....nothing to keep myself occupy

but hor, if really analysed the whole thing
weekdays i also dun meet or talk to him de, so nothing new...can still make it
its the weekends, tt i need to find things to do........sigh
but hor, frankly, weekends were spent for fishing and movie.....so also no do much ah
sigh....need to find something to replace fishing and movie....

its not tt i have no interests, ok la, i really have not much interests....hehehe
i just want to do whatever my loved one want to do...to be part of his life mah....

but hor, its not the activities la, its the person tt i am missing.....
not easy to say put down then put down de....take time....
if no love le, then easier to put down....tt shows tt i love him more than he loves me
wahahahha *arm chio*

anyway, once the well is dried up i will be just fine....i hope
then i can go shopping le....change my wardrobe....to BRIGHTER COLOURS FOR A BRIGHTER FUTURE!!!

GAMBANTE!!!!

WAKEY WAKEY

i wanna cry but cannot cry
i wanna laff but cannot laff
i feel so suffocated.....blah blah blah

i heard this korean song on TV while watching the 7pm show
just feel tt it suits me so well now....
though i dun understand the song as it was sang in korean, i know how to read the subtitles....
hehehe

wonder when can i have a song tt will goes something like
my life is full of laffer
laff laff laff everyday
my life is full of love
love love love everyday
so sweet so sweet so wonderfully sweet
everything so perfect, what's more can i ask for....blah blah blah....

actually i did have tt song...but i think i must have misplaced it somewhere and lost it some how
well, no choice bah, got to wait for the lost song to come back or wait for the next better song

hehehe...i must be dreaming rite??.faint..but have faith will happen ...

HEAD PAIN

went for a site walk yesterday
actually wanted to open my umbrella
but then i dun want ppl to say me leh
so i just walked in the hot srorching sun
damn it
after the whole walk, i came back...head throb throb throb
head pain lor......
took a panadol and went to bed
even lying on the bed, head also thumping away lor

and yes, i just let the pipe burst last nite
but i think i was also tired and head pain
after awhile, i fell alseep
hahaha
too tired to cry

anyway, woke up with swollen eyes
sigh
so be it la, anyway, not gg out rite?
so i apply ice to the swollen eyes and then did a whitening mask!
hahaha
to prevent more pigmentations from popping up on my face and reduce the spots!!!

can be lazy cannot be ugly...
wahahahaha