RIGHT OR WRONG

remember the earlier entry when I said I cried

well, I did something which I thought was very bad the following day

after the meeting tt day, I dig back the past minutes and forwarded it to K to "SHOW" her tt she was the one who presented the issue during one of the meeting
she replied me with a "ha ha... thanks"
and stopped there, she did not forward it out subsequently and the thing just die there
which to me, at tt pt of time, is ok, coz it shows tt I have proved myself and also I dun need a notebook
but then again, of course, not everytime I can remember la

so what happened next was, u know la, I cried at nite
cried le, I thought I would be feeling GREAT
like I let it all out, but I couldn't sleep
so what I did the next day?

I printed out the minutes and showed it to Z
and she was like "hey! thanks huh. ok. I will forward it out to the others and let BOSS know"
then I told her "no. dun want la. u just go use it but dun say its me. just said it was someone else"
then she asked me "why? u remember mah. so its good. showed tt u pay attention during meeting"
and then I said "its ok la. I dun remember all the time and anyway yesterday nobody believes me"
and she looked and me and said "but I believe ah"
and I went "u did not lor" (inside my heart la)..... I just smiled and told her "its ok la. dun say its me. this one for u" and I passed her the printed minutes

after tt, I felt GREAT
SUPER DUPER GREAT!!
=)
*beam beam*

but few hours later, I felt guilty
WHAT HAVE I DONE!!!
how can I do such thing!!??
its like back stabbing...but I was told tt its ok, coz I did give tt person a chance to admit her wrong but nothing happened after I send out tt email...so I just did what I need to do.... tts all. so I dun need to feel guilty abt it

then I said but maybe to tt someone, this is a very small matter, and did not put it to heart
and tt person told me then she better learn coz its not a small matter and only to shows tt she has low EQ or no no EQ at all
she said its nice of her to give u credit but the thing is, I dun need tt credit as I am not the one who presented...
and wrong means wrong, just admit, cannot meh?
and no bring note book or got bring notebook into meeting also does not matter.... so what if u jot down the impt stuff, u dun remember means u dun remember, and u seldom flip back to see what u jotted down lor
and this time, I proved tt I remembered even without jotting down
and since its impt stuff then why nobody jotted down except me??!!?

frankly, she so supportive of me...
hehehe
well, sets me thinking
am I being too small gas le
maybe its becoz of ppl like me, tts why got office politics...

ONE CHOICE = NO CHOICE

frankly, this is my humble opinion
u dun take meat
but u should not "banned" others from taking or deprive others of taking
then end up, u complained tt ppl like this or like tt, or u disappointed with this and tt

sigh
we know u dun take meat only chicken, and we also tried to accommodate tt
tts why we always go for hawker where there is variety of food....u can order what pleases u and we can all eat what we  want to eat.... MEAT!!
but when we arranged to go eat pork/beef/fish... u dun come and say u want to join... coz end up we all cannot eat coz of u...and end up with chicken again....
and u know de, we cant possibly tell u right in the face tt u cannot join, of course we also want u to join la, but u deprive us of eating other stuff....u can maybe said join us for dessert or join us for drinks or ask whether the place got sell other stuff which u can order and eat instead

seriously, u dun make ppl go eat what u can only eat... tts very bad....
after some times, ppl will just shun u, as in, dun want to go out eat with u....coz the choice is either full veg or chicken only
and the best thing is, there is another person in the grp who does not like to eat veg!!
kua kua kua

hahaha
okok
honestly I can eat veg ONCE IN A BLUE MOON but I dislike ppl to DICTATE what I can eat when what I really want to eat is not u want me to eat
tts why I seldom join their outings when she is gg, coz I dun want to end up eating ONLY one kind of food
which is good rite, coz u can enjoy the day with ppl who does not mind and I can too (coz I mind..so I decided not to go and make myself unhappy)
=)

tts why today I can follow the flow
but someone cannot
hahaha
she sibei tl
coz there are so many goodies ard tt area end up can only eat CHICKEN
haha
of course she did say "its ok then I order other food there lor"
and I went "but tt shop only sell one kind of food"
and she went "orh"
and did not offer further solution, so end up, we all ate chicken rice....

really reminded me of Q
tts why, better to leave her alone, she can have her own grp of friends and without me, no love lost
once in awhile, IF we go out, then I eat veg lor
ONCE IN AWHILE.. and to say tt, I think very long time le
kekeke
also dun know wat happened to her

anyway, just my humble opinion
no offence la
if she continues to be so "stubborn" either she has no friends left, or she has only friends who also share the same taste bud as her, or she has those long long time go out once friends who dun mind eating chicken or veg with her

ppl's diet, I have no say
but when u go out as a grp, u have to accommodate at times and not ppl accommodate u all the time
not just on food, it applies to other things as well

cannot be a grp of u, then only 1 or 2 very ONz de
the rest ai mai ai mai like tt
one day, u either lose the 1 or 2 friend... or the rs of the friendship will be ruined
tts why I always say must make effort despite of how much commitment or how busy one can be....
anyway just my humble opinion

MAMA DOWN

mama is sick
and I am worried
never before she sick until like this
giddy and vomit
WA KAO!!
was it me who passed the virus to her?
cannot be leh, mine was gastric
hers is not lor
I did not get giddy though I vomited
sigh

and she is SLEEPING the whole day
no food into her stomach leh, if I am not wrong

and the best joke was dad was telling me "hey! mama still not feeling well, dun go disturb her"
and next moment, he went into the room, wake her up and said "U SLEEP OK"
wa kao!!
sibei TL lor, if I were her
I already sleeping and u wake me up for WHAT THE FUCK!!

or take example for today
I just came back and then he stood outside his room and "shouted" to me, as I was standing at the entrance door
"I gg down to buy dinner le, do u want anything?  mama is still not good. dun disturb her"
and I went "wa lao eh! then u still talk so loud for what????"
DUH

he hor
always said I talk very loud, he also lor
when I was sick the other day and was sleeping at home, wa lao!
he just talk and talk and talk to mama and I was trying to sleep in the room lor
I wanted to shout to him tt I dun bother or care abt who or where tt XYZ gg to bring his family or how exp is the trip gg to be lor. WHO ARE THEY, I ALSO DUN CARE AND I DUN GIVE A DAMN... so dun need him to report and I am sure mama also dun want to know lor"
end up I just shouted " can u stop talking? u have been talking since u came back from downstairs. talk non stop"
and then he diam diam after asking mama what did I say.. coz mama told him tt I told him to "keep quiet"

now I only hope mama will get well soon....she seemed worst than yesterday lor
dun know whats wrong with her....
duh

LOVE IS SELFISH

simple story
and its goes like this

A likes B, B likes C and C likes B
so there is a match rite!!!
but then A unhappy lor.. TL.. upset... whatever.....

sigh
why wanna make life so complicated
just give them ur blessings lor
act BIG HEART mah

I also nobody loves or loves somebody
but then life still go on rite
cannot blame anyone
its ur destiny lor

nobody owes anybody anything
love is selfish de
u slow then too bad
not fated also too bad

no love loss anyway
why so hatred leh???
unhealthy

UNAPPRECIATED

i cried last nite
I thought after crying I would be fine
but end up I still cant sleep

never before becoz of being unhappy at work, I cry
=(

I guess my limits have been stretch to the max?
but I dun want to give up
but then again giving up does not means I am a loser, just tt its no longer worth fighting on
tio bo?

I think I just felt so wei qu
i told them tt K presented before in previous meeting, nobody believes me
and when K said she remembered i presented it instead and all believes her
next moment i received an email from X to say tt she "expects you to bring a note book to future meetings to jot down impt notes.. blah blah blah..." for my stay here

wakao!
i dun see my future here lor, esp with ppl like them
i just proved tt without notebook i can remember stuff tt was briefed in previous meetings
so what if u bring in the bloody notebook, DID U REMEMBER?
duh


if they dun appreciate me, then hor, someone out there will
just like if jerk dun appreciate me, I am sure, someone out there will...
just tt he has not turn up
one day, one day he will come....

I think I must really buck up le
buck in finding a new job
no pt working hard to prove myself, coz someone just dun seem to see it

YES SIR

overheard this conversation b/w papa and son

S: papa are we gg to have war?
P: no why u ask?
S: coz why then we have so many air planes and weapons?
P: son, we need to be every ready in case there is a war. we can even send our troops to help others when in need too.
S: oic

wow!!
son so young and know so much le
think he is gg to be a remarkable soldier in times to come

BATTERY DOWN

ya
I am sick
on mc today
sigh

gastric leh
wth
did not skip meals or have irregular meals
but dun know why sick leh

sigh
anyway flu and sore throat also on their way
sigh sigh sigh

open party leh

I am gg to eat my breakfast now... mama is back from market
=)
then I will take medicine le

DO NOT DISTURB
=)