REALLY SO UNPRO

this AM for whatever reason, bi ba boomz on me
just when i was saying she suddenly like changed for the better... but end up ... no leh

and anyway i also no save any oil
it happened when she asked me why i went to clarify with the tenderer
i said coz  1 x 2 = 2 and not 2.5
so must asked
"no need to ask. just take it as it is"
"how can? its so obvious when u PRESS the calculator right?"
'no. its not obvious. why u need to press for them?"
"but its a norm thing to do. need to check all add up and tallies"
"NO, who said so?  just take it tt its all correct"
" cannot la. not supposed to be like this one"

then she wanted to see the doc said inside got one clause we can use.
and HO SAY LIAO.. the clause not there
"i would not have instructed any clauses from this doc to be deleted" she said
" i would not have deleted any clauses if nobody agreed" i shot back
kua kua kua

and it just started her bad mood and mine too
so unprofessional lor just becoz now the thing does not go her way
what wrong did i do?

she just whack whack whack
so shiong lor
and i just let her do it
cant be bother le

then she made a statement tt someone told her tt ABS and I did not advise him correctly tt even after clarification, the final decision lies with the chairman
i was so STUNNED!
please!!!!
we have always been consistent in the advice
and she chose to belive this person
duhz!!
and best she said "i dun know what u two went to advise ppl' and gave me the damn tl look

and i also flared up and went tt guy only asked me "when do amendment?"
and then she looked at me.. silence.......
true wat
he did not asked me how to go about doing it.. his qn poised to me was "when do amendment?"
so my answer to him of course does not have the final decision lie with chairman lor
really leh

really TMD
KNN
NBCB

if buay zhai then say so la
take it out on ur own staff for what
and still tell me this is CASE BY CASE basis!!
oh.. come on!!!
where is the consistency

anyway if its like this then sorry lor
in future if this guy come and ask qn, i will redirect it to her
he can said i what also dun know
but too bad
u made it so urself..............

so back to my story....after whacking me and felt tt i did so WRONG
we went to see big boss
and before tt along the corridor, we met A
so she consulted A
and A said its obvious and since  1 x 2 is not 2.5 so need to clarify
and then she blah blah blah said no need and its not obvious
but A said no leh. 1 x 2 = 2.5 is very obvious its a mistake but end of the day chairman can decide which one to follow, 2 or 2.5 lor

and then we went to see big boss
and suddenly she changed her song
sang the same song as me
and i *rolled eyes*

then surprisingly, big boss said the same thing as she said to me
duhz
and she explained but 1 x 2 =2  very obvious
no. big boss replied
*well done*

and next moment it became "SY. WHY U SO KAPO AND GO CLARIFY"
SWEE!
*clap hands*
nothing to say le

and i just so pissed off lor

anyway then i left at 545pm today
and ho say
was telling K, goldfish saw me leaving so tomolo sure find trouble with me
K said no la. she wont for what?  my working hours is till 530pm
i said based on past exp, she will whack me die

so true enough
dun need to wait till tomolo
she WA me
and asked and asked and asked
of course i replied lor
and then finally she asked "did u check with B on this this this"
and i immediately one fire up
she did not asked me to check lor
so never mind, i replied with not yet afterall i really did not check as i was amending the papers mah

so anyway whatever, AM pissed
PM also piss
and then i just shut down my phone

tts it
like what K said she siao or what
i will just shut down my phone when i pk everyday
nothing more to say
she just get used to it
530 i go.. nothing better to say then dun say...tomolo then say

frankly
i got a life if u dun have
i need the time to go find my life partner
whether u happy or not....
i live my own life and not live my life for u

so wake up ur idea

and nobody likes to be whack
whether will i be happy tomolo
i dun know
but i know i was really upset today tt i dun want to stay another second in office
and i ate two bars of choco
when the ndp rally said to cut down on sugar!!!!

anyway cant wait to get out of here one fine day
and she can do all she wants
i dun really care
since she can do so much better

i am sure she can la
coz i know she has the calibre
and she could have amended it herself but she chose not to
so be it
wait lor

i am just upset she so unpro this AM and just whack me for no reason
really
to me its unreasonable
usually i will just diam
but today, i guessed its monday.. engine not started yet
just not shiong to be whack for no good reason

U R FINE

first time
i went to see a doc
and i was told " u r fine"
*clap hands*

i was breathing out hot air, when i swallow saliva i can feel tt my throat is painful, and then tummy was in pain.. "jab jab jab"

i was popping panadols in office and drinking plenty of fluid
and just dun feel well

when i go see the doc
he told me " u dun have fever, nothing wrong with ur throat.  ur tummy is fine"
really well done!!!

total damage 55.70!!!!!!!!!!!!
DANG!!!


this is not my usual doc
coz the clinic was closed
so i went to the other nearby clinic
and the relieved doc after asking whats wrong with me and checking the temp, blood pressure and hear dun know what told me i am fine.. no fever, throat is fine, tummy would be virus

sigh
whatever

if i dun get worst tomolo AM
i go bang table!!!

and best he even give me some flu medicine for JUST IN CASE!!!
duhz

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

HUAT AH!!

HAPPY 52nd BIRTHDAY, SINGAPORE!!!!


MANY HAPPY RETURNS!!!

FINALLY HERE

the day has finally arrived
the doc broke the news
all treatment tt can be administrated to mama has been do did done

final last 3 methods
to do or not to do????

sis said to try
papa said forget it
i said mama u decide

i very sad now
even though i had a feeling this day would arrive one fine day....
but i have no idea is today
sigh

i have been telling myself
dun expect any cure le, advanced stage liao.... but still must try to prolong the life
every brand new day is a blessing
some how or rather i am like prepared mentally but when the reality sets in, its just so painful............

i just want mama to be happy and do what she wants
why is there suddenly one "doc chan" around her
"listen to me.... listen to me no wrong... u eat this la.... blah blah blah"
then why dun he go be doctor last time..
duhz

just leave my poor mama alone

INNER PEACE

M: so r u gg to do the cashflow for ABC
S: if I do will have to stay another 2 hours
M: so will u be doing?
S: I can do, but Monday and Tuesday I wont be around, I am on course
M: hm... so by Monday will the cashflow for ABC be out?
S: like I said if I do will have to stay another 2 hours. and I wont b ard on Monday or Tuesday to amend
M:  so u wont be doing?
S: I did not say I don't want to do.  just tt monday and Tuesday I wont be ard
M: I am not saying tt u dun want do, I am just asking whether will u be doing
S: I can do. but I wont be around
M: okie. so by Monday, will I get to see the cashflow for ABC done by u?
S: No.
M: okie. then I do. never mind.
S: u can asked DB to do.
M: no la.its okie. I just asking whether u will do if not then I do lor.  and I am not saying tt u don't want to do okie.
*vomit*

can u imagine u having the same conversation with ur coll
will u still be like me so calmly and nicely talk to ur coll
bring me around the world and all I just wan to know is R U FUCKING HELL GG TO DO OR NOT
a simple reply " YES" or " NO" would have suffice right?
why made it like can die like tt
and whoever to do is not my call.........I am not boss
boss instructed if she no do, I got to do, so how can I go ask DB do??
seriously leh...

or my ang mo not tok gong enough for ppl to understand

and tts how the two of them (snake and DB) communicate one
walk one round and the other act he knows everything
then tell u , u dun understand what she is trying to say or  she had already answered
I was like "huh? which part has she answered me?"
*shake head*
and the other one after asking u the qn and u replied he will say " I know I know.  but tts not what I am asking u:
and I would be like " huh? then what were u asking me then? not this meh?"
so end up I also smart after he asked me, I will asked him back " sorry. so what is it tt u r asking me? I dun get u"

all I can say is some ppl inflexible
only want their own way
and cannot hear anything else

just like db
the other day, meeting
I was explaining something
as usual he "cut in"
he said "in summary, yada yada yada"
and I said " in short just use 5%"  (very obvious he dun know what I was trying to explain and I dun want to waste time with him)
and he went " ya. I know I know.." but before he can continued, I also "cut in" and said " I know everything u also know, but in short just use 5%"
and he still want to have his way and said " ya la. so  yada yada yada yada..."
and I just repeated " in short just use 5%"
and he continued with his 'yada yada yada ..."
and this time goldfish "NO. u r wrong. its blah blah blah"
and he this time just kept quiet..........

frankly, to me, if u dun know or understand just LISTEN and absorb ...dun act smart
for what???
sigh
always want to "cut in" ppl's explanation, thinking tt he knows.....but in fact know nothing

so I concluded, he not only dun understand Chinese.. his ang mo also cmi
so in what language to communicate in???
I think just *zip zip*
not same frequency

tts why the snake and the db should be very good friends
one "chui Xiao" and the other dances

DON'T NEED A USELESS PERSON

one of the tap in the house is giving trouble
"woo woo woo" the whole house would go......
told mama one of the tap is spoil so to go get the plumber to come fix it if not get the man in the house to fix it

drag for ages, just like the water heater issue
until I got to go get the replacement done
and the man asked mama "heater spoil meh?"

then as we were waiting for something to be done, the kitchen sink started to leak
no choice, coz leak was bad, mama got the uncle from downstairs one of the shop to come look and help us fixed the kitchen sink leak

$30 he charged us for the leaking kitchen sink
which both mama and I thought it was dirt cheap leh
to change the pipe and all

and when mama asked him abt the "woo woo woo" sound, the uncle seemed reluntant to help us fix that and told mama to consider and give him a call if really want to fix it
I told mama why not? fix it la. wait for what consider what?
the "woo woo woo" sound is so loud tt whole block can hear lor
then she told me papa said the $30 very exp
and I really * rolled eyes* leh
she said he claimed tt the material if we go buy less than $10 only when the uncle charge us $30
I told her to go tell him, "since he dun want to to do, then what to do? we got to pay for other service lor"

frankly
made me so mad leh
how many weeks have passed since we replaced the water heater but nothing has been done to the "woo woo woo' sound
and all the man of the house can made such ridiculous remark tt $30 is too much!!!
duhz

I rather he keep his mouth shut if he is not contributing anything constructive

what made me even madder was he claimed tt the "woo woo woo" sound comes from the replace heater and insisted tt I get the guys back to fix it
I told him the sound came way before the heater is replaced so nothing to do with the heater
then he pointed to the pipe and said "see its leaking here"
and I told him " the leak here has nothing to do with the sound, if u want u go fix the tap."
then he said I want to argue with him
I wanted to just ask him to fuck up!!!
really boils leh
dun want to solve the problem but go find other problem to busy everybody with

and what made matter worst, he went to attend his friend's bro wake
and insisted tt mama gave him $50 for the pek kim
mama told him since he not working, and he also dun know the bro
need not give so much
but u know his style, he insisted his own way and said mama dun know
and tts what pissed me off
$30 to fix the kitchen sink leak is exp but he can give $50 pek kim to someone he dun even know!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

got money but dun want to spend the money on the house or on the family
but spend it on someone unrelated... like the wake and even bought 2 air tickets for that two Malaysian guys to go Vietnam!!!!!!!!!!!!
really wtf
the mention of it made my blood boils

to me hor, he is saying even if house no money, he would rather spend the whatever little money on his whatever and whoever and not on the house or on us

and so anyway the "woo woo woo" sound is solved, I got the plumber down to fix and realized the  cause was from the leaking tap in master bedroom
so problem solved *clap hands* all happy right
afterall mama and I waited for so long to see what he is gg to do about it, but I think nothing is gg to be done at all

and guess what
he scolded mama said how come the leak from the pipe to the replaced heater is not fixed
!!!
I told mama to tell him " u stupid is it? we solved the problem of the woo woo woo sound. that is the critical thing. the leak from the heater pipe, if he sees liao, he buay ta han, then he goes and buy the pipe and replace it himself. since he is the one being troubled by it and not us.  dun ask us to go get the pipe and end up the pipe sit there collect dust and nothing is done."


I am really very upset leh
mama is the one doing all these
change light, fix this and fix that
only coz now tt she is sick, she has no choice but to get papa to do it
and papa always like made a big fuss out of it tt he is doing this and tt
and so far he only mop the floor and he made it such a fucking big issue
come on lor!! mama has been mopping and cleaning and doing so much stuff for the past few years have she ever broadcast it ??!!?
duhz

really stupiak man!!
I told mama I am not gg to any more, he jolly well go do what he needs to do...if he only has $50 and he rather spend it on the wake.. then let the house just go on in such condition lor...until all topple down
all I can say is "he wants it this way"

sorry mama, sad to say it
but frankly, this kind of man, dun have also no love lost
maybe tts why I think I am doing well independently though sometimes I really want to have someone beside me......to tell me "dun worry, I have it all covered."

until one day that someone comes along and let me feel tt his shoulder is broad and strong enough for me to lean on......

CHURNING AND BLOATED... PARTY TIME

for the past few days
the tummy was gving me intermediate pain
but as usual if nothing BIG happen, i wont be too bother about it

last fri, it decided to give me a "gao gao" one
i wanted to call in sick
but as we were rushing for some piece of shit
i decided to bear with it since the next day is saturday

i also dun know is it becoz too engrossed in the work, that i forgot about the tummy pain or what and when i finally got a few mins of spare time in the pm, i started to feel the pain
BOY!! i tell u
immediately i knew i had to go to the toilet le
coz its at checkpoint

and then expected, LS, but not those piak one dump kind, its just soft stool
i thought its okie after tt, coz i only feel pain but pain the buttock
haha
so back to work i went
and then nothing much happened to the tummy
and work finished, i went home

who knows on the way home, the attack came again
and i was like oh dear!! in the middle of neither here nor there
can i make it home or i need to do it in the public toilet again???!!??

heng lor
think upstairs looking after me, and i managed to go home and did the same soft stool
okie well, then its a decision to see or not to see the doc
and i decided not to see coz after tt one time, nothing much happened
just for the intermediate pain
though i had the checkpoint feeling, but when i went to squat, nothing wor

luckily i would sleep well at night. was not awaken by any sudden pain
but coz in the AM, i did it again, so i decided must go see doc liao


went to the doc told her my past week diet
and we cannot find whats wrong
no coke, no beans, no corn, not much veg
then what caused the many air in the tummy (tummy bloated up) and why is the air in the tummy having a party leh??
sigh
then doc asked " did u exercise?"
and i went "yes. try to go twice a week now. since u said i need to exercise to poot poot (aka let the air out)"
"how much water do u drink?" she then asked
" i now drink plain water or one glass of milk tea in office every day.  then at home i also drink ribena liao since u said actually green tea or tea if possible also to avoid if not reduce."
and she was like " then okie leh. dun know what caused it? u have been controlling your diet very well. seemed like the cause of the air and also the churing has now gone to another level"

she gave me some medication for the pain and also to stabilise the tummy so no more soft stools
and advise me to drink a bottle of yakult after dinner every day after i finish my medication

well, we shall see, how it goes bah

actually i feel could it be the job? could it be goldfish??
need to look out for another job then??
coz i really felt no point in talking to her or even the mgt.. coz the reply i would get is " urgent work. no choice"
i also know its urgent, i also dun mind if i have to do it, but ALWAYS ME??

well, suan le
dun want to talk about it or speculate about it
would be my own body breaking down....
like doc said before, old liao, the spare parts just not working too well like it used to be
so better take good care of them