GROWING UP

i am upset again!!
sigh

yesterday was like....erm....horrible sunday....
seriously, i think, hm.....dun know how to tell u

anyway, it started in the afternoon during fishing
first old man said he wants the hook with float de...i looked for awhile then
told him this one dun have hook for the float de...then he said "we got
gap
leh. always come fishing with me, still dun know??" then i explained
yesterday
i only kept 2 hooks...and this is one of them....then he looked at it carefully
and said ok, then we use this one....(no sorry....fine)

heard the time wrongly...4pm i heard as 12pm...

then 3rd time, he told me to hold on to the rod for him to release the
string...coz he wants to cut away some as he felt tt the string abt to
break...so i held on to it...then he said "go go go" and i walked away
lor
then he shouted "GO" then i turned and looked at him
he said why i play play...he already said "go" (as in enough)
then i looked at him and said "but i heard as "GO" mah
he said something wrong with my hearing and i got a lashing...coz i think i
hurt
his hands....
then i bad mood le

during dinner time
the mama steamed the crabs
and we were asked to eat the crabs first before the dinner starts
then hor
i waiting for the bf to bath mah, then we can eat together with the sister and
bil mah
who knows, the bf came out from bathroom and proceed to go eat the crab without
me
fine!! then i go joined him few mins later lah

and hor, when i saw the crabs
i decided not to eat
coz hor, u know, ur friend me only like to eat the claws...but this one is u
have to eat the whole crab
coz its the say small no say say big not big type
so i dun want to eat
coz even if someone offered me the claws...it is not worth the effort for me to
eat mah
so i went back to room to watch the show

then the mama saw me no go to eat the crabs
so she said "come and eat the crab"
then i said dun want
then the son said "she only wants the claw la"
then the mama exclaimed loudly "huh? DUN KNOW HOW TO EAT CRAB"
then she laffed
then i TL
come on lor
its not tt i dun know how to eat...its not worth my effort to go eat 2 small
claws, and i dun eat the whole crab de lor

anyway when the actual dinner starts
i went out and eat
i ate almost everything on the table, except for the leftovers from lunch which
is the fish cake ONLY
i took the veg with the beef, drank the soup but no eat the fish
u know, ur friend me, dun fancy fish
but i took the tomatoe in the fish lah
hahaha

then when i was abt to leave the table
the mama said "hey. u no eat fish hor"
then i just shook my head
then the mama said "the fish very nice. u dun want? DUN KNOW HOW TO
EAT"
and then the bf softly said to me "u wat also dun want to eat hor"
then i said "but i got eat the veg and the soup. i just did not eat the
fish
lor"
i tell u lor, i was abt to cry le
seriously, the bf should know lor
i mean he was sitting there....he did not see me eat meh???
but....ok...why should i assumed tt he knows....but then again, i seldom eat
fish de lor, and really i only eat claws.......
whatever

then i left the table
totally face black...
i think the bil noticed coz i was sitting in front of him
and then everybody sitting at the table no talk...all silence

mood very upset and depressing le
want to cry le
dun know what to say....

then the ultimum was when old man said he dun want to talk to me coz i got bad
breath.......

seriously, i know its small matter
and he might not meant it
coz tts him
but he just so so so remind me of someone....
erm...i know tt someone is history
but, so many things happend on tt sunday and they are so alike
hot and quick tempered.....

just this yr
the mac was giving out the little blue mouse with no ears... it has all the
animals except for the oink oink
anyway, we bought one rabbit and ox.. we hang it in the car
everything was ok until one day he went for his co's bonding day
came back with a big head monkey and he put it in his car
to me, tts THIRD PARTY......
hahaha

many many donkey yrs ago, i also bought a pair of bears and put it in the car
few weeks later a third party appeared.....he claimed it was given by someone
in
the office....and he thinks its cute so he hang it in the car
then i found out got abt the third party.....
so to me, tt big head monkey, cute or no cute....its a third party
not tt i want to link the things together
but things just fall into place......
sigh

am i thinking too much???!?!!??

frankly, i suddenly think i have matured le...
or perhaps all matured ppl does such thing
last time, wjen we are still 1X or 2X, if such thing happened, we will go
"LET'
BREAK" or go into cold war.....but now......now tt we are more matured...i
think we handled things differently le.....

of course i am not saying tt old man and i will be together forever...
maybe one day, he finds me too blur...too deaf..too fat.or can't stand my bad
breath..found someone more suitable..he will also leave me......

or i cannot stand his temper, his insensitiveness, his fart, ???!?? hahaha..his
fart...hm.....i will also choose to leave him

what i wanna say is we now handle such situation differently......I HAVE GROWN
UP........

but then am still very upset and depressed.......wanna cry......sigh