THE GREATEST LOVE

today went to ah ma's place
coz her birthday celebration
though not on her actual day, but we acted according to her wish, "can celebrate but not on her actual day" so hor... we did it today lor

the next few para which I gg to pen down is not for those weak heart like me
so if u r weak hearted then better dun read on

frankly, I got to admit
I only go to ah ma's place twice a year
cny and her birthday
though she always tell me "come come, come see ah ma when u r free"
I always just smiled and go "okok"
but I never do it

why?
coz I think I took things for granted
I thought ah ma will always be there
and mum's duty is to make ah ma happy
and mine, is to make mum happy

but today I realized I am so damn wrong
when I saw ah ma today
I was SHOCKED to see how she had aged
she is still very clear minded, knows what is happening and all but she seemed to be in a dazed or just walked slowly
it just broke my heart lor

very sorry
sorry tt I took my ah ma for granted
I thought she would always be there
strong and fit
and cooked my fav soup and food
but I was so so wrong
It just suddenly scare me so much tt I might just lose her anytime
now I understand how ping or zhuang felt tt very nite when we were talking abt ping's little girl asking her not to grow old or zhuang remembering when the good old days with her mama.
tt time, I also felt sad but then I thought tts how life is rite? a cycle
cannot help it de
all will grow old all will die one day
sooner or later
tts why must live each day to the fullest with no regrets

but today, I suddenly feel like hugging my ah ma and telling her not to grow old any more
I dun want to lose her
or rather I cannot bear to lose her
it just hurt so badly to even have tt thought

whenever she sees me, she will go "getting prettier each time I see u"
steady rite
*clap hands*
think only ah ma can see the beauty in me and appreciate my prettiness
=D
hahaha (dun u all go vomit lor)
then when its time to go home she will goes "I know u r working. busy. no time to come see ah ma. but come see ah ma when u r free la. come come"
all I can do is "OKOK" but NATO

I am just so sorry tt I did not visit her when I have all the time I have
reason tt I am just plain lazy to travel all the way to the north to see her
but when I was young, I remembered she came all the way to the east with my auntie just to see us
I can now understand better why my mama will make a trip up to north to visit her mama when she has the time or rather when time permits
even if she needs to squeeze her schedule just to make it to visit her
if now dun do it, then when?
there will never be a good time, except NOW
tio bo??

frankly, she saved me from many canings from my dad.. hahaha
oh... how much I love her.. she is my shield leh
haha
mama will call her, and she will call papa
thank god! I have both ah ma and mama....
LOVE U

opps!
I need to end my post here though I have many thoughts which I want to pen down
but I am seriously sobbing away le
please pardon me


the one person whom I am waiting for will come looking for me one day
I will be in good hands, have my own happy family too
so dun worry for me
I will be good!!!
不要为我担心
我一定要开心，幸福的
我一定会开心，幸福的
 for ah ma and those who loved me

all I want to say is :-
I LOVE U AH MA!!
I know what u did for me....and will always put them in my heart
WISHING U GOOD HEALTH AND ABUNDANCE HAPPINESS

and what I wanted to tell u all is:-
love the ppl ard u
dun take them for granted
do what u want to do, say what u want to say
dun later regret not being to do it in future