FAKIE

dun know why
when I see her "act" sad in office then when she was busy typing away she damn happy then after tt "act" emo again.. then after work can see her go out with her so called "friend"
I felt tt all the things she kept telling me abt "I dun know leh. the ex  might be the one..blah blah blah"  I felt al so bluff and so disgusted abt it

recently told me
"who knows 2016 u may received my wedding card with him"
dun know why I wanted to reply its ok dun need to give me coz I wont give u two my blessings
but then very bad rite.... if I said like tt

but I just felt tt she is so bluff now
=(
sigh

I think hor
I need to stay away from negative ppl le

seriously
making me so tired
PUI

GREEN GREEN GRASS

erm.. I am not an athlete person
but hor... can win or cannot win
the grass matter meh???

just like if the shoes no good, the runner cannot run well and cannot come in first??
or the swimsuit bo ho.. then the swimmer come in 1st??

erm...I dun know leh
*scratch head*

I still upset over the cancelled concert
BLAH!!!

EMO BABIES

frankly was a mistake to sign up with SDN
got to know a grp of friendly ppl
end up wakao!!
all the emo babies
okie not all.. but two is enough lor
WTF!!!

this tt bo giam
then dun want to talk to each other
then we need to form clique
seriously, how old le
I dun fit in lor

all 30 over and some before 30
but its ok
I dun get involved mah
coz I smart
I just join the events lor
go and pass some time
but then hor
WTF

really leh
this is getting out of hand

I made a few good ppl
but I think we can always maintain our own grp
dun need to be in the big grp all the time

waste of time and energy
totally drained

and also my positive ions!!!
damn it

think I better go find more things to do......
stay away from them?? or rather maintain a safe distance

ON THE WAY....

here we come....
BANDUNG!!
hahaha

thanks ping for organizing and booking
now all I need to do is to apply for my leave and then jio jio ivan to come along to bunk with me

actually 1st choice was yuchong.. but dun know why the WA lost his contact le...(how like tt de meh??)  2nd choice was weeley.. but her mama tio stomach cancer.. in and out of hospital her mama went
so I dun want to disturb her
then I thought of neighbhour.....end up she dun have much leave left
last resort...ivan lor
haha
dun let him know ok
if not I think he sure damn upset de

so many ppl yet so little choices.....
guess as I aged hor..friends also getting lesser
all have own commitment
so hor..my soul mate please gambade and come find me

HUAT AH

FINDING TRUE LOVE

when she told me tt she told him tt she wants to call off the wedding
I applaused
frankly, I thought tts what she should do
at least for him
since he so loves her, the least she would do is to let him go and find his one true love
since she cannot truly loves him

I am just so proud of her until she said "but I dun know whether I did the right thing or not? maybe he is the one then I let him go. maybe I will call him back. I dun know"

I told her not to do it
let him go
if he is so so good then let him go coz she not good for him
she then asked me "u mean I am not good enough?"
the thing here is not abt good enough or not
its abt not loving the person enough so let him go bah

why hold on to him and keep cheating on him??!?!?
it just showed tt she dun loves him anymore
"no ah. maybe I do love him. just tt the sparks no more. I may find it back" she went
"oh come on, if u really can find it back, in the first place u wont have off track and then u asked for the cooling period and then did u find it back? nopie.. u went back to the other guy"

sigh the conversation came to this pt
I got fed up le
she dun see where the problem is

anyway its ok
its her life
then she said she very sad and all
but I tell u, I still sees her eat her lunch and all... despite she said no appetite.... but I remembered tt time when she "broke off" with the 3rd party... tt one then is called very sad cannot eat lor

and then half way thru the lunch, she was busy messaging then I saw her "Steal laugh"  u called this sad
to me all acting
to make ppl pity her if one day she announced tt they have gone their separate ways

anyway all these are I said de

I truly hope tt she wont call him le
afterall, YES, afterall there is now another guy
this is the 2nd 3rd party

I think she knew tt I would be upset
so she did not tell me abt this new guy
but then U THINK I STUPIAK OR WHAT
I have eyes to see for myself
and yes, the guy is from office AGAIN

anyway, I am not gg to comment much abt it this time
coz I realized she shared it with the others but not with me this time
so I guessed the rest would have agreed with her doings and ways that's why she chose not to share with me this time

which is totally fine with me
after all its her life
as long as she happy

letting go of my marriage and the guy I love, letting them go find their true happiness....and also giving myself a chance to find mine.......
and now both of them r happily married
as long as they happy, I will be happy too

one day, one day I will also find my true happiness
HUAT AH

WHOSE MONEY?

was having my late lunch just now
then saw this family of 5 sitting at next table
wife proceeded to take the bill, hubby gestured her to give it to him, she signaled back its ok, hubby gave her a "its ok passed me the bill" look and she gave the hubby a disgusted "I am paying" look

all I wanted to say is
the man really did not get it
"his money is her money, her money is her money. her money is never his money"

so hor, to him, he wants to pay but to the wife, "even if its me paying but it is still ur money, honey"
kekeke
so does not matter who pays... coz its hubby's money

FELL HARD

I fell down again
at the staircase
=(

now left leg got blue black
and body aching
also dun know why
I managed to break the fall with my left hand
and then knock the leg on the step
I thought one blue black tts all mah

today bodyache
dun know why
think I old le bah
=(

I normally dun take the stairs de
coz I have this eerie feeling abt it
but fri hor
dun know it was like calling me to take the stairs
and then ho say leh
just one step and I fell
DUH

RING RING RING

one month de bah
hdp no ring
=(

sad
*speechless*

POSTPONEMENT

abit piss off
or rather very piss off tt the 8 nov concert is postpone due to the fucking stupid grass
=(

postpone to dec 27
so those who did not manage to get the tickets the other time due to the schedule bo tio
can now consider getting the tic
=D

still
I am piss off
was looking so forward to it
but... now this....
=(
then nov do what?
whats there to look forward to?

BANDUNG!!
kekekeke
*beam beam*

I AM BACK

just got back from my one week of niece sitting

sis went to cheng du with bil if u r interested to know where did she go this time
=D

It has been a tiring week
coz every day slept at 11 plus and woke up at 630
=(

and I thought I can sleep late today end up woke up at 8am and sat there watched the k drama
=(
need to catch back some sleep bah

I guess no need to niece sit for the rest of the yr le
cox nov.. sis bringing them to HK
dec gg Beijing but the little one can come over so no need to niece sit
=D

HUAT AH

so in case u r missing me, well, I am back
=D