EITHER BITTER OR SALTY

is it me or what?
why do I feel tt mama is getting weaker?
sigh

sunday afternoon, I just raised my voice at her
she was telling papa she dun want to eat.. nothing she feels like eating
so papa said u dun want to eat then I go nap le. I also not eating
and then off he went
and mama ended up snacking on tidbits
which is actually a NO NO NO
cause no. 1 is deep deep deep fried.. and no. 2 is processed food
still argue with where got processed.  I told her okie even no processed, u also not supposed to be eating deep deep deep fried tidbits.....
but since she was only eating a little bit.. I let her be
but frankly speaking is of no nutritious to her de

back to the story, and since I was planning to go out to collect the CH's passes, I quickly went downstairs to tabao lunch back.. thinking to share with her
so I got the shuang yu soup with rice

I just scooped two spoon of rice for her and then give her soup and then some slices of fishes...
she saw the bowl and went so much how to eat? u take some. if not wasted
I told her u just eat. cant finish then throw away
she just kept saying dun want cant finish. dun want to eat. and insist tt I take some
but HELLO!!! she only two less than table spoon of rice lor
how much can it be... so I got fed up and told her " u just eat. dun want then throw away"
she took a spoon of soup and went " bitter dun want" and then pushed the bowl away

that's it!!
haha
same theory

complained this no good tt no good then u go do urself
told her many times le
just simply dun get it
so I told her, next time u want eat what u go buy bah....

when papa woke up, saw the tabao on kitchen table, said oh u bought for mama
and I told him but she no eat
then he just looked at me
I told him okie la dun want eat then let her die lor.. hungry until can die tt time she will find food to eat...
sigh.. but frankly.... when I was very very very sick... I really wat also dun want to eat.. just want to die........* sob sob*

I know the food is bitter.. but already said its due to the medication of chemo
will get back her taste bud after treatment is over
so she just got to bear with it for awhile but definitely she has to eat something.... if not prolongation of gg without food and water... her body will just reject all food in future and worst right?
sigh
simply cant get into her brain

anyway her taste bud now is back to only very salty or very bitter
nothing else....
she almost wanted to throw away the potato chips which I bought the other day, she claimed the whole can is full of salt.. asked me dun eat
kua kua kua

simply ridiculous!!
hahaha
then why not I just buy a packet of salt to eat leh?
so I told her dun eat if its too salty for her
said I anyhow buy
I told her I buy for myself to eat, she wants to eat she eat, she dun want then so be it
where got anyhow buy
anyhow buy is buy le and nobody wants to eat lor

every day is a blessing to see the sun rise and sun set.... we should cherish every moment
I dun want to say her anymore
she has to wake up her idea to save herself
sigh
dinner time just had a good one by papa
poor mama
but she really need to buck up la
she is seriously getting weaker


just hope she will get well soon....

Jia you mama!!!