Sunday, March 18, 2018

REVEAL OF THE P

the P listing is out
of course i dun have la
i am not the pet... just a worker ant

dun have the app in my phone
so tomolo go back office then see bah

no hurry
as what the other coll said the other day in the pantry "what difference does it make? the money is in the bank liao. does not mean u got more $$"

sure got ppl happy and sure got ppl sad
but then i dun really care
never in the rat race before
JUST SHOW ME THE MONEY!!
but will have stories to hear bah
so *take out popcorn* and watch show

thats why the saying " no expectation, no disappointment"
but how many can really truly understand leh
i, me, myself also cannot lor

A DATE TO WHERE??

supposed to go HK with family
end up sis bringing the small one to UK
so the HK trip got to be push back

but apparently mama not the least interested to go
coz now not only she poo-ed into the bag, the poo poo also come out from 屁股

told her to wear the adult diapers
but she said very warm
i said its just for precaution in case it poo out when she is outside but at least its inside the diapers and then though the feeling no good, then at least u can put heart tt "it" is securely contained in
and then when u reached home u can wash up...or can always go to the public toilet to wash up
afterall its not the LS kind....still solid so should be easy to clean
i mean why confined urself at home.. go out walk walk is good for u mah
no meh??

anyway i dun want to say much la
must be some pride or what
but then isnt this a life cycle

baby u wear pampers then u slowly grow up and u ditched the pampers.. then as  grow u older become a kid again so wear pampers again lor


so okie lor
dun want to go then dun want to go
but papa wants to go badly
kept saying coz promised the little one to bring her
but then again, the little one also not keen to go lor, she is more interested to go UK
haha

anyway see how bah
if no HK, then i will go shanghai with my travel kakis
yayaya
i know CHINA leh
but then, one of them wants to go there, coz the sis is shifting over to work
i think she very brave leh
tio retrenched, then this offer came along but need to go overseas
and she just grab and go........
*clap hands*
if its me, i wonder.....will i also just pack up and go?
i mean nothing to lose anyway, right

*ponder*


anyway i did ask, "only shanghai? can go elsewhere?"
and the reply is SHANGHAI

okie, haha
got it loud and clear
so either HK or SHANGHAI

ACHE LIKE MAD

dun know what is happening to me
usually after a massage i should be in tip top condition....
but this time, its taking a longer time to "heal"

not so sure is it the sitting position? the bed? the sleeping position? or the bra??
i have already changed to a smaller bag.... do i still need to go smaller??? hm..........
but u know la, girls' bags.... surely have 101 stuff tt we think very impt and must bring with us every day every min every sec de

hm.....still thinking should i go bra less on some days.....???


the lady told me 阻塞
but then cannot be everywhere of my body 阻塞 right?
so okie, need to massage a few times
but then too many times bah

i guess when we r getting older, body will have 101 problems bah
coz we no take are when we r young, so now is pay back time?

like the other time, the heart keeps having this jab jab jab pain
i was so scare leh
then decided to take overnight oats..... looked up for yum yum receipe in the net
and was like having overnight oats for a few weeks
and then finally when i finished one packet...i just stopped
did it help?
i got to say maybe a little. as the jab jab jab was like lesser....but since it did not stop i just stopped eating it lor
and now, for whatever reason, after i did one massage, the pain no come disturb me le
so i presumed and assumed tt the back ache some how was linked to the heart jab jab pain occasionally

two weeks ago the tummy pain pain pain
so finally decided to go see doc coz i almost saw the stars again on way to work (TWICE!!!!)
then doc said the big intestines is so calm and not active at all...
and i said well, its resting
and she looked at me and said our big intestines never rest
so i said when i just had my dinner, so its resting lor
and she said tts worst lor, after dinner and not active
kua kua kua

so i ponder whats so impt tt it has to be active at all times
and then realised we need it to helped POO
so hor, does it mean, body aching all over, coz too much poo inside me
=(

anyway becoz goldfish was on leave whole of this week
i managed to go for 2 classes of zumba
of course, whole body was screaming like mad
but i just got t hang in there, and soon will be fine..........
better keep the exercise reigm...
its good for me too..........

hm... maybe i should stop drama-ing.... instead of sitting in front of lappy every day.. from AM to PM till i sleep........maybe need to spend time to go out, walk walk....look look see see
not only for the shoulder and back... but also for the mind........

不强求 不任命

i guess humans are like this
when u dun have, u die die also want to have
but once u have it, u just no longer want it
not sure if u feel the same way, but i do

i dun know why
i am always forever alone in my dreams
everybody sure have somebody but i am always alone

remembered, i used to have a dream, tt i am a runaway bride???  or the groom is getting marry but i am not the bride?? or the one i dreamt tt the no. 3 is actually staying in the same block as us?? or the time i dreamt tt everybody knows about the no. 3 except me???
sigh

is this my life?
forever alone no matter how badly i want to find my significant other half??
this AM, again, dreamt........everybody so happy ....and i went back to a big hotel room.......ALONE....

guess some things cannot be 强求 but i just dun want to 任命, i just take it easy lor.......