AM I A JINX?

sigh
when she came back from her trip, she told me she just broke up with her bf
i was shocked!!
frankly, the 1st thing tt came into my mind, would they still be an item if she did not share the good and happy news with me in the first place (tt they were now officially an item)
sigh
i felt so bad

then another coll told me tt it has nothing to do with me and i am not a jinx

i managed to convince myself tt "ya i am not. just coincidence. nothing is my fault"

today, at work, someone came to me and said "i think hor, i am becoming more like u the more i stick to u. remember u told me tt if u eat too hot and spicy food, u will have gastric....well, now my tummy like washing machine. we ate the korean food for lunch yesterday and then dinner i ate the chilli fish, this morning, my tummy is washing leh"
i looked at her, feeling apologestic and said "huh? like tt also my fault?"

believe it or not??!!?
jinx rite?
better stay away from me...........sigh

*ponder* should consider getting fortune told
kekeke

BRING IT ON

today someone suggested to loan the kinect from office and bring along to the kukup trip
then me being very auntie went
"u can bring what u want. but the problem is we are gg overseas, if the thing spoil or lost, stolen, who wants to be responsible for it?"
then the someone said "yayaya u r rite. then better not bring"

frankly, i am not stopping anyone from bringing anything
but then, this is on loan leh, anything happened to it, i tell u, responsibility is one thing
it will spoil the whole trip mood lor
so what for?
just go there and use whatever facilities available there rite?
afterall, its a fishing town
ulu ulu place
u go there to R&R then go there and nua and rot in their style.....

called me Kia Si, Kia Su or whatever.....
but i am definitely not gg to risk it .........
maybe they will find me very "sweep star" but then i never stop them from bringing......hehehe

WALK OUT FROM THE DARKNESS INTO THE BRIGHTNESS

we were talking abt my neighbour and when is he gg to find a gf to settle down
he then looked at me and said
"dun say me u leh? everyday after work go home. weekend also stay at home. how to find a bf?"
hm.....
"well. everything fated de mah. will come means will come. no come everyday cheong also no come"
"stay home will come meh? what fated? u go out more often la"

frankly, who does not want to go out
but with who?
sigh
=(
every day got ppl to go out with meh?
nothing to do also go out meh?
waste time waste money
might as well stay home and nua to death......

hm....who does not want to go for holiday
but with who??
sigh
=((
must find the right ppl to go with
if not the trip not enjoyable, then really waste time and money lor
might as well stay home and collect leave.....
imagine u go with someone who whine whine whine or complain abt this and tt
i tell u, i will go crazy.....

FORTUNE TELLING THE IN THING???

should i
should i not
hm.....
to get my fortune told...

just like last weekend papers reported
lots of youngsters are turning to fortune telling
"is this job suitable for me?"
"is this person the one?"
"what kind of job is suitable for me?"
"should i continue this rs?"
101 things can be told.....

hm..... then a coll told me this when i sought her opinion
"i think what u need is a ATM teller lah not a fortune teller. crazy"
hm......

crazy meh?
just want to find some hope in life mah....

should i
should i not
*in deep thoughts*

BELIEVE ME...... 习惯就好

why is it tt nobody believes me when i said "we've broke up"????!!?
is it tt very unbelievable??
hm.....

why majority likes to tell me "its only temporary. will get back together. only matter of time"
hm.....

is it becoz i go ard telling ppl tt i am finally getting marry this yr???!! and next moment this and thus nobody believes
is it becoz i also happy happy smile smile when talking abt us
is it becoz i looked so "in love"
is it becoz....so many "is it becoz..."

i also wished tt it is, but this time, i think i also no strength to continue on le
not tt i dun love him anymore, not tt i dun want to put up a fight
BUT to always harp on a topic, i also very sian
no matter how i explained or tried to explain, also no used
then what can i do???
but i took a gamble and tt's it
i got to accept the ending

if he does not see a future in us, then whats there to continue on
if he decided tt he dun want to settle down with me, then whats there to continue on
if he....there is 101 "if he"..... but i no longer wants to know....last time, i could have asked until i got the reason, this time.....i am letting it go....

he has to go think what he wants......if he dun want le, then so be it.....i just have to move on...which i am trying and am doing now..... takes time, how long? i dun know...but on surface, i think i am doing well..inside, still getting used to it...hehehehe....

if u love the person, no need to explain coz the person will know
if u no longer love the person, explain until the pigs fly home also no use, coz the person no longer wants to know...

why should i allow the person who hurts me contolled my emo, mood, actions and everything!!
i should be strong and take back the control!!!

last nite i was watching this talk show
and they will saying "when u love the person, even when he farts, u think its perfume but when u dun loves the person, when he farts, u so afraid tt the fart will brings virus....wahahahaha
i almost laff until i peng sanz.....
virus!!??!?!!
cmi
virus.....hahahaha

but the main thing is, PLEASE BELIEVE ME
dun ask me "REALLY? HOW COME? WHY LIKE THIS?"
just believe me...
*wink*

你的手机又收不到
我像疯子在街上绕
努力跑你的温度
雨淋过几条街都散不掉
你面无表情的嘴角
像在嘲笑我的胡闹
回头看突然明了
爱过了使用期效你就想逃
我想维持礼貌忘记骄傲
继续做你唯一的城堡
习惯就好习惯就好
是我选择看不到分手预兆
没有一丝睡意的困扰无法治疗
习惯就好习惯就好
我承认我的伪装是真的不够好
请给我多一秒
习惯就好习惯就好
一个人在夜里继续的奔跑
却发现再也听不到自己的心跳
习惯就好习惯就好
我承认我的伪装是真的不够好
请给我多一秒一秒

HO SAY!!!

woohoo
just came back from the open house
hehehe
everything "HO SAY"
*arm chio*

quite disappointing actually
coz not many visitors!!!
hm....coz the invitation were to family and friends only.......

but then again, if we gg to have another one, what r we gg to present next??
*ponder*

CAN"T WAIT

parents gg to hokkaido tomolo
sigh
home alone.....
actually not exactly home alone lah...coz the little one will be ard.......

seriously can't wait to turn the house upside down!!
kekeke
*evil*