BOO HOO

i received a message from debt collector this am ( i think)
i switched on the hdp when walking towards the kitchen
and when i reached the kitchen, the hdp vibrated

can u believe it!!!
what a way to start off my blue monday.........
i thought i was ok, i knew this day would come, but i did not know tt i will react in such a way

few donkey yrs back, same thing happened
but as i was still angry, i did not react the way i reacted today

well, i guessed u guys could have guess it
yes, i started my day tearing away
tear rolled down left eye, then right eye
cleaned already, then rolled down again
sigh
i think the passengers on the bus must be wondering wat is wrong with this woman!!
luckily it stopped when i reached the interchange
it was like the longest feeder bus trip taken in my entire life

i know some of u will say "hey girl be strong. u can make it!!" or "hey! wake up ur idea. move on!!" or "dun worry. this kind of thing takes time to heal" or 1o1 things to say
BUT I REALLY THOUGHT I WOULD /SHOULD BE FINE BY NOW

i felt so lousy
so lousy until today was like the longest and most painful day of my life....of course beside the D period
little bit of things i got agitated
i sat in the office like a zombie
though i am working, but i can feel tt i am just lousy
for a spilt second, i almost want to break down and have a good cry

boo hoo!!
anyway, the message from him is tt he wants to return the stuff i left at his place
but frankly, if i wanted them, i would have asked for them few months back.........
and my reply to him is i dun need them so its ok (basically fishing clothings and shoe)
imagine if he had dated me out instead.........hm...........hahaha... >.<
ok ok
see, i can still joke, means i am fine =))

so in case, u all r worrying......dun worry ok.......
but since i am still unstable (emotionally)
lets not mention abt debt collector for the time being