RIGHT OR WRONG

remember the earlier entry when I said I cried

well, I did something which I thought was very bad the following day

after the meeting tt day, I dig back the past minutes and forwarded it to K to "SHOW" her tt she was the one who presented the issue during one of the meeting
she replied me with a "ha ha... thanks"
and stopped there, she did not forward it out subsequently and the thing just die there
which to me, at tt pt of time, is ok, coz it shows tt I have proved myself and also I dun need a notebook
but then again, of course, not everytime I can remember la

so what happened next was, u know la, I cried at nite
cried le, I thought I would be feeling GREAT
like I let it all out, but I couldn't sleep
so what I did the next day?

I printed out the minutes and showed it to Z
and she was like "hey! thanks huh. ok. I will forward it out to the others and let BOSS know"
then I told her "no. dun want la. u just go use it but dun say its me. just said it was someone else"
then she asked me "why? u remember mah. so its good. showed tt u pay attention during meeting"
and then I said "its ok la. I dun remember all the time and anyway yesterday nobody believes me"
and she looked and me and said "but I believe ah"
and I went "u did not lor" (inside my heart la)..... I just smiled and told her "its ok la. dun say its me. this one for u" and I passed her the printed minutes

after tt, I felt GREAT
SUPER DUPER GREAT!!
=)
*beam beam*

but few hours later, I felt guilty
WHAT HAVE I DONE!!!
how can I do such thing!!??
its like back stabbing...but I was told tt its ok, coz I did give tt person a chance to admit her wrong but nothing happened after I send out tt email...so I just did what I need to do.... tts all. so I dun need to feel guilty abt it

then I said but maybe to tt someone, this is a very small matter, and did not put it to heart
and tt person told me then she better learn coz its not a small matter and only to shows tt she has low EQ or no no EQ at all
she said its nice of her to give u credit but the thing is, I dun need tt credit as I am not the one who presented...
and wrong means wrong, just admit, cannot meh?
and no bring note book or got bring notebook into meeting also does not matter.... so what if u jot down the impt stuff, u dun remember means u dun remember, and u seldom flip back to see what u jotted down lor
and this time, I proved tt I remembered even without jotting down
and since its impt stuff then why nobody jotted down except me??!!?

frankly, she so supportive of me...
hehehe
well, sets me thinking
am I being too small gas le
maybe its becoz of ppl like me, tts why got office politics...