STRIKE OFF

today I heard a pc of saddening shit
S told me she felt tt she needs to tell me coz she felt very bad tt I treated the grp as friends, but they treat me like shit
S said tt they were spreading some rumours abt me after the HK trip we went together

what happened
if u all can recalled
I wanted to get a little something for my neighbor
but coz they have no intention to get gifts for individual, they told me not to get
I argued tt why I cannot get. its my own business who I wanna buy for
but they said it does not reflect good on them

end up, I gave in, why?
coz we were on a trip
I dun want to dampen the happy mood
but becoz they pissed me off, I did not chip in to buy  food stuff for the office coll

so when they came back they spread the rumour tt I WAS STINGY

WTF!!!
they twisted the facts
they told them tt I did not share the foodstuff coz I was stingy but did they share tt I wanted to get for my neighbor and they did not allowed me to do so and then a mini saga took place???!!?? and end up coz I was pissed, I decided not to chip in
coz afterall never my style to buy for them
and I even challenged them tt since I not buying for the office staff, then they dun buy too, coz if not reflect badly on me too
but they said office coll goes on trip will also buy food stuff for the rest
and I said well office coll also will buy some special stuff for the certain ppl so why can't I? 


anyway the story turned out tt I was stingy
and I was very hurt
why colls will go on tour together, coz we can click mah.... end up, they see me like this
I am very sad.......

and the best thing was, they also said tt I was very calculative with them
count to the last cent
coz I said I did not eat exp de so why must be split the bill equally into 4
which when I heard this, I was so shocked till my heart breaks

I mean, I will never count to the last cent like this de lor
never my style
I will just divide by the number of pax
why go into so much hassle
never never my style

but they said me until like this
I think, I can just strike them off my list le
I mean, I really treat them like good pals
but end up, to them I am just dirt
I mean it is so hurting to hear such thing which are all so untrue

or am I really like this???
just tt I did not realize?

maybe I should ask Ping, since she was the only one who went on a trip with me.
twice to be exact... kluang and bandung
am I so stingy and calculative?
is this also how my friends see me??

anyway, like I said, 2014 will be over soon
all the bad stuff will also go along with it
and so will this grp of friends

STRIKE OFF

not happy come tell me
dun spread bad things abt me
esp so untrue
and to think.. till this AM, I was still feeling so blessed to have such friends ard me.. but now.. I think....office colls will always only be colls.....