DISAPPOINTED AND DISHEARTENED

why such a title for this entry?

fri I went to join this speed date event
I have not tried this organiser before
but since it was in the papers recently and the organiser was interviewed for a few times, I thought why not?
so I went
whats there to lose rite?
only money and time wat

anyway before I went, I knew tt the outcome would be disappointed and disheartening
why?
coz of this:

mid day, I received a sms from the organiser
tt I am requested to forward my judgement papers to her by end of the day (as SDN had given them  authority to check all the status of the participates as they had to do it to prove tt they r doing their job as instructed) if not she would informed the rest of the ladies participants tt she is unable to verify my current S status
and I was like WTF!!!
not for asking me to send in the papers but is there a need to inform the rest of the ladies participates?  I mean DUH!!
seriously!!!
so anyway I happened to capture a few photo shots the papers before and kept them in my phone.. so I forwarded to her and also "kindly" informed her tt I am currently a member of the SDN and thus SDN themselves have already "certified" me

I was there early
sat in the hotel lobby and waited
my heart went thump thump thump
dun know why
like I first time joined event like tt... and I was alone while others have friends

so when the participates started to stroll in
I saw new faces and some existing faces
happy like shit lor
hahaha

so anyway end of the event, I was feeling okie lor
got a few guy I dun mind to know more..  but none of the guys I interested in asked for exchange of numbers.. so I okie bah (afterall I also no have high hopes)

and the way this thing works for this organiser is
end of the day u will have to write down 3 names of the opp sex for her to do the mutual match
which means if A choose B and B choose A. then BINGO.. its a mutual match...=D
and organiser will give A and B a sms and then the two will continue from there
was told tt previously got one participant indicated tt he interested in ALL the ladies... haha.. casting net... but would be sad if he no mutual match even after indicating tt he interested in ALL
kua kua kua

those with no mutual match no despair... coz not always join once and u will meet THE ONE ah
and since we have a list of the email address of all the participants... so u can also start to email to each other (even if no mutual match, u can still email)

so anyway, though I know will not have any match since of the mid day incident
I told myself not to give up.... be positive... who knows rite?? *wink wink*

who knows......waited till 10pm last nite...... no sms from organiser
POOF!!!!

=(

NOTHING TO LOSE

I forgot to share this pc of happy news
okie, maybe to u no big deal but to me YES
hahaha

okie, tt night I got nothing to do
so I went to surf surf see got what event to join
(yayaya, u must be wondering U STILL DARE TO GO??!!!??)
but if I dun go, the prince wont come falling onto my lap rite?
>.<

anyway then I chanced upon this event
*shy shy*
I rubbed my eyes, thinking I saw wrongly
then I shut it down and reopen it
and hey presto!
I read correctly

there is this event in jul for singles age 37 to 40
I was like OMG OMG!!!!
frankly, this is the age grp kind of made for me???
hehehe

if not the previous events are like for 30 and above...
never a for 35 and above
even if there is a for 35 and above its for the guys only
and I am like hanging in mid air neither here nor there

but this time, this one between 37 to 40!!
omg omg!!
where to find

without wasting a second, I registered myself
*cross my fingers and hope for the best*
dun know who will I meet, but just go lor
whats there to lose right?

seldom got such event for this age grp de
so just go lor
HUAT AH

I told my neighbor abt it
and she also felt its GOOD!! ZHAN!!
encouraged me to go for it
I told her I so excited until I cannot sleep
coz I was asking myself, what if I saw no one in particular in this event... then is it tts it?
like alamak!! the same gr of guys I saw all the time!!!
kua kua kua
neighbor was positive though, she told me, well if u really do see them, then this organsier u can dun join le...
hahaha

good one, neighbor

thanks for the positive thinking!!

and I am sure the rest of u will also wish me luck!!
though maybe some of u out there would be slapping ur forehead and asking "when will she just give up?"

haha.. no put up a fight no can say die!!

die die also must try mah
=D
tio bo?

HUAT AH!!

god bless

WHY NOT??

took leave today and cheong for the last lap
as I was lazing ard the house and doing my last min revision
I suddenly realized tt I am all burn out and I really needed a break
a really long break

I recalled the days I was at home for like 3 months or rather 6 months.... *shy shy*
everyday i will wake up like 9 plus, read papers, surf net, watch tv.
the little one will come back from school and I will go take a nap
she will do her homework then I wake up watch tv. and we talked
wa!! those were the days

and I seriously asked myself, can I???

my answer is WHY NOT??

just tt everything just had to reschedule lor
no exp holidays, no buying of stuff on impulse, no eating ho liao all the time, spend only when necessarily... WHY NOT???

and so I asked myself if I go back to do what I love to do and had a very huge pay cut, can I??

my answer is WHY NOT??
but I guessed it would be very tough on myself... coz who's gg to pay for my housing loan??!!!??

kua kua kua

but then again WHY NOT??

OVER LE

finally!!!!

after 6 weeks of studying... 2 weeks of revision
TONIGHT is the night
everything which the lecturer taught, within 2 hrs I returned all

wahhahahahahaha
*clap hands*

hope can pass la
not asking for too much
a pass will do
=D
*pray hard. cross fingers*

1st qn I saw and I went "WTF"
2nd qn I saw and I went "phew"
3rd qn I saw and I went "better do this one first.  save the best for last which is qn1"

its not as if I am gg to another degree or a master
its just a certificate lor
but hor, I tell u, old le is old le
cant study is cant study

it was an open book exam
and so the 2 weeks of revision was copying all the shit from the notes out
and tonight I just copied all the shit which I copied out onto the exam answer script

wrote non stop for 2 hrs
hope my hard work of 2 weeks would pay off
cut off from the outside world
come back from work study, weekends no go out study
everything no do just study

yayaya, I know open book study what right
but hor, tts the power of open book... dun know what to study
so at least must be familiar with the points mah
so tt can just flow when u write and only refer to the notes as and when required

anyway, its over le
HIP HIP HURRAY!!!

HUAT AH!!

SAWADEEKA

last sat after the bowling, we went to porn's
they are having the dinner buffet
and 13 pax of us decided to give it a try

seating arrangement was 5, 4, 4
and I was very lucky to be at the 5 pax table
coz I dun take spicy food but the rest does
and so I get to eat a bit of everything
*WISE CHOICE*

I got to say its good
though I find it a bit exp
end up $35 per pax
oh ya, forgot to add 4 pax entitled to 1 fish
=D

anyway food review, u can always google abt it
I wanted to share abt this female staff, cant remember her name
dun know got Xiao? mao? or siao? or whatever de
anyway her name not impt too
its her service attitude
I think she has the we owe her a million dollars buck

she first came and explained abt the paper cups
one cup for water, one cup for ice cream
pls do not any how use the cups coz we don't give u additional one
okie fine....

next coz our food came and then buffet mah... needs plates rite
so I requested for plates
and she went "how many u want?"
and then I stared at her... erm.. dun need me to count for u bah
so anyway she KL I also KL lor
I started to count " erm... lets see... 1, 2, 3, " and she went away
back with 5 plates
*clap hands* so she knows how to count =D

then our table number was 33, the one next door was 3
our food went to tt table 3, and table 3 said did not order
she went u 33 rite?
and we were like how would we know ???
then she went back to check and came back and said oh u r table 3, the table next door is 33 (which is us)
so hor, we concluded many of our food went to table 3.. and they just eat lor.. coz buffet mah...

okie this one still never mind....

finale....she brought our fish over....
she went can u pls stand up to my friend.. so okie lor.. my friend stood up.. and then she went can u move away
and we all stunned to the max
I mean.........hello!! u should see her face and attitude.. really pissed us off....
so anyway my friend moved away la

I mean I know she want to hurt anyone in the process of bringing our food to us
but hor... not with this kind of attitude
and why the other 2 tables of ours.. the servers also never asked any of our friends to stand up or move away
they successfully served the fish onto their tables.....service with a smile
=D

anyway, end of the day we all enjoyed the food and company
just tt she sort of just piss us off.........

and best part was, the guy asked us got qoo10 coupon bo
and we said no but we can purchase now
and he said well we can purchase now but subject to reservation mah
but we were thinking also no crowd mah... they will still take us in right?
and I pushed my luck a bit and asked "can u assumed we have the coupon then?"
and of course the reply is NO
so when one of us went to make payment..... the guy said the coupon only save us the GST
*clap hands*
but the very next day... some one went to check.. its not just GST wor... its cheaper than the 29.90++

anyway to give porn's the benefit of doubts.... the coupon friend saw was just uploaded.... and the night before we went..the coupon was only the "savings of the GST"

end of the day u asked me worth to try and go
I tell u yes... but ONCE only.....
and then two days after.. I was on mc.........hahaha.. did not go to work on Monday... doc said the reaction took awhile for my tummy to show....keke

hot and spicy not my cup of tea
but I tell u
when I ate the food, its not too spicy ...I can tolerate the spiciness lor.... end up.. I guess like what the doc said a bit a bit of everything.. just add up to one big wind in my tummy
kekeke

ALL THE BEST

weekend coming to an end le

to click or not to click
I haven decide yet
coz dun feel like doing the same thing again
but to do others I will have to take quite a substantial pay cut

I know I just want to take a break... mai work
even if I go for a holiday... come back.. feel recharge le.. will I still feel like working??


sigh when can I dun work
looking forward to the PH, 1st Jun......
think take baby step bah

who knows tomolo meet a billionaire and huat ah!!
hahaha
really dun need to work le
*heartz*


anyway tomolo is my exam le

HUAT AH!!

all the best ah!!

GOD BLESS!!

YOU CAN HEAR MEH?

just now so funny
coz if u remember I was complaining to mama abt papa doing it again
shouting from the living room to her in the kitchen and waking me up

so mama said u know de, he said he is deaf mah
and I said ya, I know, but the thing is, he is deaf, he comes to u and talk and not shout
so what he shouts? and u replied, he also cannot hear

then mama said he only knows how to call u to go to him and then tell u a few sentences
and sometime u r busy to go to him just to hear him said a few sentences tt are not impt at all

and I told mama
its not abt him asking u to go to him and talk
its abt he know he is deaf and still want to shout to u in the kitchen and when u reply he also cannot hear
then he will shout again "WHAT U SAY"
and u repeat and then he will shout again "U KNOW I CANNOT HEAR AND U STILL SAY SO SOFTLY"
but mama is already screaming le lor
and end up both angry with each other

anyway if I can hear it from the bedroom , u said soft bo
told mama he should not inconvenience others, instead he should go to u lor

so just now he was in the kitchen doing his qi gong
and mama as usual switch on the radio when she is in the kitchen mah
and papa went ur radio so loud can softer or not
and mama barked back "ai yo! u deaf u can hear meh?"

kua kua kua

hahaha
good one lor mama

give u 1 like
>.<

NOT AGAIN

sigh
dun know what happened b/w papa and sis this time
I just heard him telling mama in future unless its for occasions dinner outings.. if not he wont join ... and what strike off this daughter

kua kua kua

dun know what happened

anyway I also cant be bother la
I long ago tio strike off le
kekeke

he just dun learn his lessons
always wants to be right though explained to him many many times

just take the most recent dinner outing....Mother's Day
after dinner, he just suddenly brought up AGAIN (yes again.. coz he said it many times) abt his god son not paying him money which he borrowed from him
though the papa had returned the monies to him, he said he wants to see whether the god son will mentioned abt it and said sorry abt the incident

and then sis told him "papa why u always want to say this? over le. just let it go. always put in the heart. why stress urself"
then papa went "he no stress himself. he never put it to heart. he just saying nia"
and sis went "If u no put it to heart, u wont keep repeating it. this is the dun know X times u r saying this.  u not tired of saying. we also tired of hearing"
hahaha
now then she knows
she only comes over on sun night lor... I hear it almost every day .. not just this story.. but many many of his nonsense stories

so anyway papa insisted tt he let it go le. just want to see whether the god son will apologise and pay him back the monies or not
but sis said what if his papa already talked to him tt he will helped him repay the money back to u (which he did le) and the godson already apologized to the papa... so to the family case is closed.. why papa still want to harp over it?
and then papa got mad and just said tt sis dun understand what he meant
and sis said what dun understand


anyway me and mama just allow him to rattle on and on
not tt we did not say him before
but always will end up "I have my rights to say lor"
and I will go "I have my rights to not listen"
and he will goes "then dun listen"
and I said "u dun say and then I wont get to listen lor"
but then again, so what if I win or he wins the argument.. mama is always the one tio sandwich lor
I also dun want mama to always tio sandwich.. for what
why want to make mama stress leh

sometimes hor
I really think papa very lucky to have mama as his wife leh
though he always said mama is so stubborn and she is lucky tt he is her hubby if not long ago the hubby would have divorced her
which I ownself want to laugh at a corner lor
he really think he damn big gem meh

whose house tap leak or lights not working or tv not working is mama fixed de
I tell u.. ME lor
my house.. mama is the handy man.... papa is the one always talking nia
I see already also shake head lor

though mama will always complain.. but I told her tts becoz u have spoilt him since day 1
and if now u dun want to do it..... he will "scold" u and nag at u to quickly fix it
sigh
tts why lor... I tell u.....he lucky man lor... any women in their right frame of mind would have left him long ago....
and any men in their right frame of mind would have lock mama up and throw away the key......

tts why mama is the best!!


anyway whatever the issue between papa and sis also not my problem le
*wash hands*
end up she will go buy another gadget and made him happy again
and waste time lor
coz as usual, he wont know how to use and inconvenience the whole family again, esp the neice or even the bil
then sis will sometimes offered to teach him.. end up no more than 5 mins screaming away... and sis will go "sy why u never teach him? its easy right?"
then I will go"  easy u do lor. dun push it to me. told u dun buy for him. u insisted u want. I told u the problems way before u buy it. u said its okie. easy de. then u go teach him lor"
anyway I as usual the hot temper de, wont teach him
coz he never made an effort to remember, and will rely on others

and papa always thinks sis is the gem, the precious
then let her teach lor
always think she is the best
then let her do it
I will always just be the "stupid" one
life is so much better
hehe

talking abt that
today I was taking my after noon nap (as usual)
then he suddenly was "screaming" at mama why his wechat cannot use and why no wifi
I woke up
and was very angry
told him many times dun shout when he is in the living room and mama is in the kitchen...
he can jolly well go to the kitchen and talk to her
since he always said he is DEAF!!

ya, he said he is deaf on one ear
but hor, I tell u lor
also dun know he bluff or wat
coz sometimes when he asked me things and I am in the kitchen.. and he is in the living room, he can hears me so clearly
or when mama and I were whispering in the kitchen...when mama came out from the kitchen.. he will scold mama for spreading rumours abt him to me and thought he cant hear is it

u say la
hahahha
funny bo

anyway got once, he was shouting to mama from the living room
and I shouted from the bed room tt I am still sleeping why he needs to talk so loud. just go to the kitchen and talk to mama softly
then he very upset and told mama "why I cannot even talk at my own house"
hehehe

so anyway whats wrong with his wechat
how the fuck I know
coz I dun use mah
so after I woke up, I went to bath...and he told mama to ask me to check for him "WHY NO WIFI"
I told mama to tell him I DUN KNOW
coz I when I am home, I am using wifi for the phones or the comp mah
and he had always been on wifi too when he on his phone at home.. coz he bo data plan
and nothing happened so whats wrong with the fucking wechat today how I know

and to think he was screaming at mama coz he wechat cannot use
and how the hell would mama knows esp mama is still using the dumb dumb phone model lor
sigh
*slap forehead*

then he insisted its the wifi which inside my heart I know its not coz I can still WA with my friends mah
anyway I am still mad at being woken up from my usual afternoon nap
should have gone over to my own place in the morning
just tt I thought ai ya mai leave the 2 old folks at home since sis not coming over tonight

okie
so after I came out from the toilet, papa was sleeping le
I took his phone, swipe the wifi icon.. HEY PRESTO!! wifi working
so I told mama "whats his problem? wifi working fine lor"
and mama said he said his wechat cannot work
and I went "no. I dun care his wechat can work or not. I never use tt app. I dun know how to operate it. and all I heard was he kept saying its the wifi. so now I tell u wifi working well"
and then mama just diam diam lor

after he woke up, he quickly asked mama whether the phone can work or not
then mama said I said got wifi ah
then he said why cannot use wechat then
so mama said "she dun know. never use before"
so papa said "but it kept saying network unavailable"

but then frankly, I really dun know lor
I was not the one who install the wechat for him
coz I dun use I wont know how to operate it
u can tell me its like WA but sorry lor.. he wants to use, he learn how to fix it dun always rely on others lor
he just dun want to remember it

just like last week
he came and told me he cannot switch on his tablet
I looked at him and said "how I know? I also never touch ur tablet. never use before. I dun know how to operate it"
I just dun want to take the tablet over from him lor
u can say why I so "cruel to him" or why I so lazy to do it for him
but if u r me, u would know, he will never learn and will always rely on others which I thought, as a man of the house, he should not be like this
acting like a baby or a child now..

once or twice, I dun mind to help
but we had numerous argument before tt lead to our rs today...
coz when he realized tt he has no grounds to argue with me le he will always goes "I give u money to study until so much. u go ask urself is this the way to treat me like this"
and so he wins liao lor.... not tt I lose or what.... but I thought okie la.. give in to u.. u elder.....
until when I just got so fed up of his nonsense coz he just dun learn and always use this 101 excuse tt one fine day I went "u dun put these two things together and say. so unrelated"
and he went "u want to help or not?"
and I went "no"
and he will go "okie, then next time I wont ask u to help me"
and I said "fine"
hahahahaha.. he damn LL

seriously, he is really getting on my nerves
acting so childishly
so anyway he always will come back and ask me.... but I wont be too bother.. coz hor... end up will argue de.. for what
just like tt maintain "good" rs is better rite?

so back to the story
then he said "I always press this button de"
and I just looked at him and said "then u press lor"
then he said but nothing leh
and I said nothing then how I know? u just press until have lor
and he said I pressed le. nothing happened leh. I thought u know.
I just stared into my lappy's screen and totally ignoring him
then he said "press longer ah"
and I just diam diam
and next moment, the screen light up and he was so happy "oh have le. can le. just now cannot"
and walked out of the room

he hor
I really want to shake head
dun know what to say

anyway
whatever happened between him and sis
I hope they will be back on good terms bah
think the HK trip and before tt the BKK trip really strained the rs

I think sis had a part to play bah
but papa.. he definitely plays a very big part
coz how can it be tt everytime everybody is at fault and he is always the one right

LAST 2 PACKETS

你家人的大便好不好?
hahaha

this was what the V lady asked my mum when she was trying to sell her V
of course mama replied very good dun need to worry
then v lady told my mum tt it was her last 2 packets and asked my mama to help. will have a little bag if she buys 2 packets

mama saw the brochure and asked for the tumberware instead
V lady told my mum... u need to buy three packets for tt, u want?
then mum said no la just want to help V lady so just buy her last 2 packets

but anyway the jing dian was asking abt the conditions of our poo
duhz

STAY AWAY FROM LONG KANG

to click or not to click
think I was thinking abt it so much last nite
tt I had a dream...........

ARRRGGGGGHHHHHH

woke up and my heart went thumping so fast
wth

the story went like this

went for lunch with a grp of coll at the hawker centre
jiak bao liao decided to go for a walk
dun know what happened we came to a big long kang
then out of no where, qi was standing inside the long kang and asking us to go in with her
I told her no I dun want and the rest of us just continue to walk on
then I told her to be careful

then next scene I was at a higher level inside a building
and top down view I saw a creature swimming towards qi
and shouted at her to be careful
the creature turned out to be a crocodile and SNAPPPED
down went qi
I was so scared and started to scream for help

luckily got some guys from the hawker centre and went immediately to the long kang
some jumped in without realizing anything
and was just swimming out to qi

then next moment, I saw another creature in the water
it looked like a stingray shaped
and its black and with red polka dots
ya, like in some cartoon like tt
it was screaming towards the crocodile and qi

next moment the crocodile released qi
and she quickly stood up and walked towards the land
but the stupid crocodile snapped at her again
and then released her again and tt black with red polka dots creature took her

by this time the guys all got shocked
like wtf did they see

and next scene I was back at the long kang
and tt black with red polka dot creature just took qi away
and I cry and cry
wtf

and then I told someone.. dun know who... standing beside me "give me kelmen's number....."
but then again.. so funny hor.. I doubt we have kelmen's number....
hehehe

anyway hor
I woke up
woke up to the sound of "pitter patter"
was raining so heavily
and my heartz just went thump thump thump

so PLEASE
dun play in long kang
for whatever shit reason.........

ZZZZZZZZZZZzzzzTIME

was on mc yesterday
went to see the doc for the tummy ache
concurrently I asked her for ZZZZpills

managed to sleep well yesterday
=D
FINALLY!!

I am gg to have a good good sleep from now onwards!!
*clap hands*

4 dosage she said... and my sleep would be regulated back to my norm way

HUAT AH!!

just one and I am already zzzzzzzzzz soundly

MORE GOOD SLEEP TO COME!!

ONLY GOOD THINGS WILL COME MY WAY

HUAT AH

I WANT M

office giving us each a ndp shirt
=D
so we were asked to provide the size to the pic

no samples only measurement
I decided to go for M coz I rather it to be loose then tight fitting

then all hell broke loose

"WHAT? M? u sure or not? I am taking S leh... xxx is taking XS and yyy is taking XXS"
"u sure u want M?"
and I went "yayayaya, I want M, M is good. If not too tight cannot eat too full"
blah blah blah
and then all ended and quieten down

next moment, Y came with a measuring type
"SY, u sure u want M? they told me u took M I also taking M leh. come measure for u"
*FUME*
"I know I know. but I want M. "
" no la. measure again."
"dun need. E already did it for me... but I WANT M"
"no la. u dun need M, u take S"
"ai ya! I wear or u wear? I said M then M la"

OPPS!!
I felt bad for raising my voice at her
but which part of I want M tt ppl cannot understand

anyway its only once a yr thing.... so whats the issue
not tt I dun have tops to wear
but I just want a comfy one rather than a tight fitting one and end up my tummy is so obvious
=(

for goodness sake
JUST LEAVE ME ALONE

PORRIDGE BOY

I haven shared abt the porridge buffet event, tio bo?
hehe

so I suddenly remember
actually I dun want to remember leh
hahaha

okie okie
the story goes like this:-

1st may attended the porridge buffet event
met up with one of the participant for dinner after the event
anyway one look, I knew he was younger than me
and so upfront I told him I wont go for younger guys and we can only be friends

he said age is not an issue, blah blah blah and he thinks we will be sweet together
but not at issue to U is an issue to ME!!!!
so not my problem tt is not an issue to U!!

so anyway I kept asking him for his age coz maybe 1 or 2 yrs difference I can consider mah
but okie.. anyway he is not 1 or 2 yrs younger la.... he is much younger
so anyway, we met for dinner
and then after dinner... night mare starts

he asked me where we should go
but becoz during dinner, he kept refuse to tell me his age and kept saying if he tells me I must agreed to go on a holiday with him
WTF right!!
so I told him its okie la, dun need to tell me le, coz I am not interested to know or go anywhere with someone I dun even know
he replied "when we get married, u will know"
fucking pig rite

okie, never mind
so I told him we are gg home
then he said still early, "lets go to the park"
WTF!!
park!!!
anyway I told him NO
and he said what abt a movie"
which I also said NO.. imagine he already said go PARK!!!  what can he do in a cinema mah

so I insisted we not gg anywhere and I want to go home watch the last ep of tiger mum
and then I just walked towards the mrt station
along the way, I tell u
blood boils
hands all over
he grabbed my hands, put his arm ard me, put his hand on my back and ON MY BUTT
WTF!!!
still can said "wa so soft!!
frankly...arrggghhhhh

anyway I scolded him and beat his hand
telling him dun touch me or do it again and he do such things to friends rite
and he said we r not friends, we are more than friends
and he can see our sweet future together
PUI!!
*vomit*

okie
so on train le
he said he will send me to bugis and he will alight (send halfway)
and yes, he stayed in the west
but I told him not to bother but he insisted
so okie la what can he do in the train rite

nitemare 2 started
he brought me stand at the corner....
and then his hands were all over me and then he just lean himself on me
luckily I placed my handbag infront of me....and I just told him off to stand properly and not lean on me as I cannot carry his weight too
cant remember what crappy reasons he gave me
but I was like fuming le

so station after station he did not alight
I got mad and told him paya lebar he shall alight
and then I alighted with him.. brought him to the other platform
and he tried to grab my hands again
I was so mad and he asked me when can meet again
I said NO MORE MEETING
and then his train came... and he said "let's meet on sat? or sun?"
and I told him "see how la"
and he went into the train

I turned and walked to my own platform
feeling so relieved tt I send off a "wen sheng"

anyway he did messaged me asking me am I watching my final ep
I did not reply
then he send a 2nd message asking me not to ignore him
and I still no reply
then I blocked him
hahaha

next morning he smsed me. I also ignore
and the day after another sms and still tio ignore

he better get out of my life FOREVER
damn pervert de lor
even asked me do I wear PJ to sleep and how many pillows I have
told him why so pervert qn, he replied not pervert ah...jus a qn
seriously!!
DUH!!!

please dun ever ask me to "give ppl a chance la... blah blah blah... must go out then u know.. blah blah blah"
u not me, u not in the event, u dun know who these ppl are...
I know wat I want, wat I dun want, I know myself best........
dun want to waste time... and of course meet such pervert or irritating ppl
not tt I dun want to give ppl a chance... but I think their "performance" during the event cmi
eg.  I dun like ppl saying "joining events very exp"  THEN WHAT THE FUCK R U DOING HERE!!!!!  or "paying $XX for this event not worth it leh".. THEN WHY THE FUCK YOU JOIN!!!
hahaha
or maybe commenting on who and who..... and this and tt
all these are taboos....at least when u are still in the event la
not good to say abt other participants mah
this one just show how "good" ur mouth and heart is.....
or those who just irritates u thru out the event kind.. like "u and I are the same era de right? tts why I dun think the rest will know'
FUCKING HELL!!!
trying to prove what!!!

oh, talking abt tt
the security guy...if u still remember
is still calling me
!!!!!

luckily WA blocked... phone also blocked
hahaha
too bad he dun know can sms.....
but I think too much le
whether can ask Telco to block him.........
ARRGGGGHHHHHH

TO A BETTER TOMORROW

I am just wondering

if you r not very wealthy but u can still survive
then one find day u met a wealthy person, okie, not very wealthy but better than urself person

and the qn is
would u or would u not then "stick" to the person for life

????????????

when I first met her
she is a very simple person
will tell us not to eat too exp coz this month budget tight
blah blah bah

and then now it evolved to
eat this, eat tt
do this, do tt
go here go there

I started thinking tt perhaps the guy really touched her with his true love
but now............
I dun know
seemed like he became the one who can give her a better life

I dun know
nothing wrong
coz both gotten what they wanted
a partner for life... a partner for a life of better life
=)

I dun know
I guess I have no rights to say anything
its all just my humble opinion

I just want everybody to be happy
but must be for the correct reason

jus like last time,
XX will never cook for me
XX will never bring me on a holiday
XX will never buy me any pressie
XX will never take photos with me

BUT NOW
all these stuff were being done with their current partners
sigh
whatever bah
not meant to be
not meant to be mine

maybe master is right
"no more le"
then why bother to do so many and end up with nothing in the end but heart break

old ones, young ones, same age ones
all also tried
"just enjoy the process bah' I was told
"dun go think so much. can work out then work out. no work out. then no work out lor" I was also told
so okie lor
just do it
none turned out well
so maybe "really no more le"

maybe really too used to being alone le
dun know how to give in to ppl and I want means I want
=D
or is it becoz I just want to be myself.... like or dun like.. all show.. u want, u accept, u cant, then bye bye
as simple as tt

sigh
sorry guys
not tt I want to be difficult or I dun want to find someone whom I can settle down with
but I think I am at the stage when I know what I want and what I dun want what I can accept and what I cant
so no force ah
force no happiness
if I ended with someone like dad... I think I rather not lor... dun want to think abt it too...
girls want guys who can lead and at times let us lead bah.. correct me if I am wrong bah

ANYWAY
just enjoy the process bah
=D

I CAN SLEEP

i was advised to google and looked for food tt aids sleeping
and hey presto!
whatever I am eating now.. all aids in sleeping wor
rice, potatoes, veg, blah blah blah

drink hot milk with honey before sleep...hm.. something which I did not try before.. coz I dun want to wake up in the middle of the night to go pee pee
whats the point right? I want to sleep thru out the night mah why disrupt my sleep just to go pee pee
tts why before sleep I dun drink water. I also dun wan to wake up the next day with swollen eyes.. u know swollen eyes

anyway
what actually caught my attention was this:-

dun keep saying tt u cant sleep and kept waking at what time what time and then can't sleep back
coz it will send a neg signal to the body to "cant sleep. to wake up. cant sleep back"

BINGO
*clap hands*
I think its very true leh

just like ppl keep saying "be positive. breathe positive. stay positive"
HUAT AH!!
dun attract the neg ions to urself
keep  and only attract the positive ones... and repel away all the neg one
*clap hands*

so hor
I am gg to think POSITIVELY!!!
=D
I CAN SLEEP!!

HUAT AH!!!

sleep tight baby
=D
*yawn*

OVER DRINK

wonder what was gg thru her mind when she down 29 glasses of hard liquor

to earn more monies? or its part of her job to drink so much? or she is very thirsty tt day?

so young.. less than 30 nia
and "gao teng kee"
sigh

life is precious.... do treasure it
once gone... never come back...

Bless U

I WANT TO ZZZ

really
seriously
frankly
I also dun know what to do le

1 month plus le bah
I still cannot sleep

and this AM I woke up at 130am and owl all the way
=(

WTF
seriously!!

what happened!!!!??!!??

ORH BAK KAR PRINCESS

I went down to temple to pray the 2nd time
hm.. ya, u r rite
I still cant sleep

though she said will take out one project from me if need be
I still wake up in the middle of the night leh
=(
I guess to me, I told u thrice le
u did not do anything abt it
just smiled at me
so now tt u decided if need be, u will remove 1 from me, to me, its too late de
it does not help me any more
all the more I am more determine to leave....

coz to me, if u really mean it, u would have told me to pass the project out to someone
and not "if need be"

anyway can sleep or cannot sleep
I just take it bah...what can I do rite
take it as go to work on time lor
then sleep early in the evening
till I get another job.. if not.. hang in there
but I think sooner or later... if I am so deprive of sleep.. then I will have to go
with or without a job
coz health to me more impt

though I woke up and be owl and I still try my best to sleep again
but nothing seemed to work leh
I just cant get back to sleep
but I am not thinking of anything
or stress abt anything

tt day was the worst, I slept abt 1130pm.. woke up at 115am.. and then ho say... all the way.. owl
and when I got to work, I was very alert
the moment I knock off... omg!!
I almost want to sleep on my way home from work

this month gg to be a busy month for me
coz the exam is on 25th may....need to study
I looked at the notes.. all the words.. sianz
and just close the file
hehe
>.<
jia you!!

hope I pass
its just a cert
but its BOSS de KPI
so must give it my best shot

YOU AGAIN?

I stopped gg for events for a long time
decided to pick it up again after I remember one of the male participant told me "go for the porridge buffet. can meet many ppl"
and so when I saw it, I decided to sign up for it

I thought I should not be meeting so many "familiar" faces rite
afterall I have not been joining events for a very long time
but then.. sigh

almost half were familiar faces lor
until got one even asked me "long time never join le?"
steady rite

I met the ah tiong who refused to admit he is one, and now he has an ang mo name "鸟伸"
and this "uncle" who I met when I first joined events many many donkey years again
I think I know why he still here

our conversation went like this
"u still joining events?"
"yes"
"u still looking for ur mr right?"
"u mean u r not looking for ur ms right?"
"no. I m not looking.  my age now. I stopped looking le. for what.. blah blah blah"
*auto shut down*
"oh, so u mean, today u come here to eat de huh?"
*stunned* "erm.. no la. come make friends lor. u know la, ur criteria must changed le. must lower. blah blah blah"
*auto shut down*  I think he is telling himself lor
"oh yes, of course, when u r younger, and now tt u r older, the things u want and u see are different le, of course will change la. must know what u know"
totally cant be bothered to talk to him
if he only want to come and eat, then stay home, go down stairs ta bao and eat in the comfort of ur home bah

and then I tell u I almost fainted then he drank his coffee
whats wrong with picking up ur cup and sip leh?
he took the teaspoon and *slurp slurp slurp*
damn fucking bloody loud!!!
I mean okie, ur call, if u want to drink it tt way, but this is a dating event lor
I just stared at him with eyes big big
speechless

up to the ppl la
I mean... sigh... if u want to "complain" tt u cannot find then u first look at urself and do some reflection bah
why always say others here no right, there no right, when the problem lies in ur
SO OBVIOUS!!

anyway the way he sits hor, I tell u
u also faint
I think he thinks he is at home, so comfy
and just ...hm.. dun know how to say, like the chair is the couch like tt...
sigh
whatever
I still will wish him all the best la

I also met the "smelly down there" guy
we smiled at each other
but when it comes to rotation, I did not speak to him
I mean, for wat
HE IS HISTORY

sigh
think really cannot keep gg to events
coz will meet same face and weird ppl too

and I seemed to always attract the younger guys
why huh?
where are my age grp de?
all taken??

think must seriously consider younger guys bah
got this one
refused to tell me his age
but I told him tt he is too young for me
so mai waste time
think he really dun know what is a NO  and wont give up
said we are meant to be together and one day I will accept him
I told him to stop dreaming and mai waste time le

tts the thing abt events hor
u never know who u will meet
anyway two more events for this month....
one more is makan de and the other is bake a cake
=D

think better find something I like to do, make friends with same interests
rather then go with a mindset to find a hubby better
coz I think no new blood
keep seeing same faces

CALL ME DETECTIVE CHAN

I dreamt tt when I grew old.. I stayed in a one room one hall flat
=(

was I happy?
hm...
cant really tell in the dreams
but at least I had friends with me... not lonely

anyway the dream is not abt me staying in a one room one hall flat, but rather I was like a detective and a grp of us were investigating

duhz

ya, tell me abt it
DUH