BLACK DAY

the HR finally action!!!

and I also dun know why I am unhappy and disappointed and upset and devastated

sigh

maybe I think too much

maybe I should be positive abt it like what my ex coll, L told me..." maybe she is right. she meant that here no space for us to grow so its good that we have the opportunity then just go"

when I heard he said this, I seemed to have let it go a little bit more

coz in the AM I was like SHIT!!
ya, SHIT!!

I really have to thank u ladies for supporting me whether am I right or wrong...
*beam beam*

so maybe she really meant well when she said she personally felt tt if I got the opprt then go elsewhere to develop my potentials....

I probably just think too much le
sigh

means I very narrow minded
tsk tsk

she asked me for the motivation to want to leave the community
I told her I there was no push or pull factor
I just saw what I like in the job description and I applied lor.. then the rest is history

and I was being polite and tried to be diplomatic that when she asked me "is it the workload?"
and I went "not the workload. I know everybody is busy and I know u all are helping me"
and she went *smiling* "u know we are helping u. but u know, we also expect tt u push urself to the limits"
wa kao!!!  means what
sigh
I dun want to say le.. damn sad, damn upsetting, damn disappointing.

then her final statement to me is she personally felt that she supports my decision for whatever hidden agenda I have but she hopes that I can reconsider

she then asked me whether do I need to give a reply to the other side
I told her no coz no offer nothing and she "oh"
I told her I will seriously re consider but I really want to go and try.....

I asked her should I go see BOSS
she said no need coz BOSS will come look for me
anyway.. I think BOSS will be upset tt I did not tell her anything bah or discuss with her
but then again.. nothing was confirmed.. nothing was offered... say what???
said le, then how? never get then how?
why want to disturb the grass and wake up the snakes

anyway like I said on road of no return
get or dun get the job
I will still go....
no point staying on le

why am I still upset when I just said tt I want to think positively about it

anyway.... looking forward to a brand new start and the day I can use camera phone during work and not just weekend only
no more estimate
no more payment
no more tender
no more contract
no more FY closing
no more FA
and BEST of the lot nearer to my gym place... lolz.. can go gym classes le!!
woohoo *clap hands*

HUAT AH!!
*cross fingers*