100 DAYS

its mama's 100th day
so fast hor
7th may ..........

thought all moved on... i mean slowly bah
can't be overnight

BUT today at mandai i realised
yuan lai, i have yet to move anywhere
sigh
yeah
i cried

actually already low but then i did not want to cry
it was when dad said " dar, i missed u very much"
i broke down
i think it must have been difficult for him
for me, i still can focus on other stuff only when i am back home then i cry lor
for dad, he is home everyday, what can he do....

then he continued " dont worry about me. i will be better. slowly"
and tts it, i got to walk away.........

the little one cried too
but i guess she just sad bah
afterall mama loved her so muchie
from baby to JC leh... waiting to go Uni

sigh
i guess slowly bah
i will be better

this year grandma said mai celebrate her birthday coz very close to mama's 100 day
but i am sure mama wants all to be happy and well
and not to be sad

i keep telling myself
mama's time here is up so she just left earlier but we will meet one day too, when i time is up here
but i just cannot ...................its very easy to say
but i am just so so so sad
i really missed her terribly

when i remembered tt dream the other day
i really am very sad
i know she needs to go le and cant come see me anymore
but but but
i sure cannot
i cant let it go...........

well
i just wish mama is at a happier place
where she no pain no whatever
okie maybe not wish, i know she is

LOVE U MAMA
i really miss u