NO THANK YOU?

its just a simple "Thank You"
whats wrong?
I mean this is basic courtesy right?
and esp more impt as we are in overseas, its portrayed to others the image of our country

so what did I do wrong when I said thank you to the guy who returned me my change after I bought the mee sua from him? or from the uncle when he passed me the shorts I bought?
I totally have no idea whats wrong did I do tt she has to scream and shout at me and then gave me a lecture tt "its their job. why u need to say thank you to them? if really wan to say, just nod ur head lor"

OH my god!!!
ya, like tt also want to argue with me lor
I told her in service line, or whatever line, its their job, fair enough, I agreed, but a simple thank you can make their day, then why not? wat do we have to lose?  and ok maybe can nod head, but open the mouth to say thank you wont die lor
and she rattled on and on tt its their job and I should stop doing it
I told her "its basic courtesy"
and she said if I am happy saying thank you then why am I angry now
I told her I am mad coz she kept saying me when she knows tt I have to say thank you
and she said "if u want to keep saying, then I also can say my things. why only u can say and I cannot?" and gave me a smirk look
"FAIR" I told her. then u continue to say bah coz I will still continue to say "thank you"
and next moment, I said it again and she rattled on and I shut down. just let her rattle on and on
hahaha

frankly if u dun see what I am seeing, then sorry lor...coz u r not wrong neither am I
so stop forcing ur idea/ thoughts on others

I mean if the teacher is paid to teach the students.. then they also did their part le lor, dun expect ur child to score distinction lor.. coz the teacher role is to teach and they just teach lor.. ur child can excel or not...that ur business... so stop blaming the teachers

or maybe, u gave birth to ur children
so they can ask u for money for this and for tt
u have to give them
coz why?
coz ITS UR FUCKING JOB!!
they did not choose to be born.. u "forcefully" give birth to them
so u have to provide them with ANYTHING and EVERYTHING they request for
coz its UR JOB
so dun expect ur children to say THANK YOU to u or be gratitude to u
coz its ur job

or the cleaners at the hawker or foodcourt
I know its their job to clean after we leave
but dun u agreed sometimes ppl just dun know why can eat until dirty the whole table kind
its very yucky to clean the table at our own house after a meal lor
imagine what the cleaners have to do
ya, I agreed part of their job, its their job
they are paid to do
so we dun need to say thank you
but we can show our appreciation rite?
with a simple "THANK YOU"
whats wrong?
and I tell u, a simple "thank you" can make their day lor
and u also feel good urself

I think her reasonings is so stupiak
if no need basic courtesy, then I tell u, why gahmen needs to have campaign and promotion. why have singa the lion for fuck??

her and her stupiak reasons
anyway like I said we see things differently
she might be right, we dun owe them anything, its their job so no need to say thank you
but I tell u, sometimes a simple THANK YOU can really make me very happy and forget abt all the unhappiness....

and then when we r walking on the road, I told her "be careful"
she scolded me too
"why ask me to be careful? I have the right of the way. she coming from behind me. she should watch out for me"
OMG!!
I really can scream at her lor
whats wrong?
what's wrong with me saying tt
warning her
so wat if she has the right of the way, then how?
if tio knock down by the car and then sway sway u mati then so what if u have right of the way... the driver will go to jail be fine or what?
then u leh? u r gone forever lor
or worst if u r cripple or what
u think the person gg to take care of ur for life?
PLEASE dun lie to urself lor.... U R ONLY GG TO BE A BURDEN TO OTHERS
and since on holiday, then have a light and happy mood mah
why always be on guard to want to fight with ppl just becoz u have the right of way

take for ex, we were gg up the escalator
then this lady just walked into her
 I told her "be careful" coz I saw the lady not looking at where she is gg
then sis scolded me"what  be careful? its she be careful lor. why me? she is coming from behind me, I am in the front, she be careful not me"
but I tell u hor
I simply dun care her la
coz I know if I did not say 'be careful" when things happened, I will feel guilty or bad tt I did not do anything to try to STOP IT
I mean I know we will be careful on our own but we cannot guarantee others also like us so careful de mah
then sis got angry coz the lady "bang" into her mah, so she said the lady lor
but I tell u, the lady was "deaf" lor. and she just walked away
hahaha
steady rite
so u go be angry lor
angry all u  want
others also no care

and for me, since I already pre warned u
and u want to be angry then u tio "bang" then I already did my part
so I happy u angry is ur own fucking business

frankly, I think her idea and thinking all something wrong de

whats wrong with me saying thank you or be careful
do let me know if u think sis is right and I am wrong

NOT IN MY SHOES

if u r not in my shoes, I dun think u have any rights to say me
I mean, in what position do u think u know everything??
u r not even me

we were on our way to the train station and sis asked me "r u seeing anybody now?"
"no" I went
"u not young anymore u know 40 soon... u must hurry up"
"dun have then dun have lor. what can I do?"
"did u tell ur friends tt u r actively looking and asked them to help u? r u joining any events? r u gg out to meet ppl? u must do all these u know? u cannot always like happy happy like tt, ur friends may think tt u r happy being single and therefore did not intro u potential guys?  u see la! everytime ask u to come out, u dun want. I have many guy friends I can intro u"

I tell u, my flame shot up
all the way to the end of my hair

I shouted back at her
ya, in the middle of the road
frankly IF U NOT IN MY SHOES, THEN U FUCKING HELL SHUT UP!! I DUN NEED ANY OF UR "CONSTRUCTIVE" OPINIONS....

of course, I did not say tt to my sis la
I went "ya I attended. everything which I can join, I joined. but never meet ppl. then what u want me to do? even if I really did meet, when the person realized tt I am D, they all ran away. u mean what happy happy in front of my friends? u want me to cry in front of them? have then have, dun have then dun have lor. what can I do? just wait lor"

"who said???!!!  I have many friends who also like u, they also can find a partner... u see, me also can find loo and I got a child somemore ok..... blah blah blah.. and she rattled on.. and my blood boils

and I raised my voice and shouted back .....
" u r not me. u dun know. I already tried. ppl dun want then what can I do? u want me to kneel down and beg them to give me a chance?  do u know how hurtful I am each time it did not work out? u think I very happy is it?  u r just lucky tt u found one who can accept u with a kid.  ur friends are lucky tt they met some one who dun mind their past. but so far the ppl I met mind, then what can I do? u tell me what can I do?  I already dun want to talk abt this thing, u think very happy to say is it? I just hee hee haa haa everyday I also worrying for myself. I dun want daddy and mummy to worry. they already old le, I also want to quickly settle down and let them put heart.  but dun have means dun have, what can I do? but in ur case, I saw hope. just tt the person have not appear..then wait lor. what u want me to do?  I dun want u to intro... I dun like ppl who smokes and drinks.. I cannot accept. and most of ur friends are in this category, so I dun want.  u think I dun want to go out late, drink, sit there, talk? but I just want to sleep. 9 to 10pm and I start to doze off le, u think I dun know. but this is not me, then for what... u just know how to say. have u really go care how I feel? talk talk talk.. only know how to talk"

hahaa
ya in the middle of the road, I was just blasting off at her
I mean u r not even me, u dun even know what I gone thru, or rather what I did or do
and u just simply and happily said I did not do this, I must do tt, u know this and u dun know tt
OH COME ON!
dun bullshit me

its always very easy to say, coz it did not happened to u
but if u r the one in the circle, I am very sure tt u wont say what u told me lor

then she shot back abt how can I say her friends are drinkers and smokers
she has friends who r not in this category
and I was like "OH YEAH" *rolled eyes*
no drinkers no smokers will go out to the pub and drink and listen to music?
u think what drink milk?
DUH
then she said since I know abt my problem, then I should try to go out and enjoy this kind of night life!!
OMFG!!
why should I? when I know I cannot?
seriously!!
u tell me lor, is it say for the sake of arguing with me?


sis was lucky, bill's three siblings all divorced de
with kids and no kids also have
so for him to accept VERY EASY
you know what I mean?
and for his family esp the old folks to accept, also NO PROBLEM
tts why I said sis was lucky tt she found him

but I am not lucky to find ppl like tt
first teacher... then after date 1... bye bye
then the photocopier one.... though we messaged and then went out once... also bye bye
then the doctor...went out more than thrice.... messaged each other.... end of the day he told me he wants to be alone after 1 month plus
of course along the way got others la.. maybe just messaged and then gone.. coz no feel.......or even go out le but end up also no feel
then the "retired" uncle and then the blind date

u think gg out with ppl, trying to make things work, is fun meh?
sigh
first three dates, can means can, cannot means cannot
I dun have time to drag and wait and see wat will happen
strike while the rod is hot
and I know what I want, so dun need to tell me this one good tt one no good
what u want might not be what I want

I am not a social butterfly
I dun fly here fly there and always merry and happy, sing song talk cock one
I know who r the ppl I am ok with and who are those tt can remained as friends only
I also know if we dun work out, its ok, be friends then they might have cousins or friends whom can intro
BUT U THINK THE PPL WILL WANT TO INTRO THEIR FRIENDS OR RELATIVES TO A "STRANGER" MEH?
OH COME ON!!!
be realistic la.....the moment they think u r not the one, or u uninterested, they will move on lor
u think still be ur friend.. come on lor!!
seriously *shake head*

there may be ppl out there who r like this.. but I HAVE YET TO MEET ANY so far lor
exchanged numbers le, then message, then cannot, will be forever good bye
u think they will call and say "hey I got a friend/relative, I wan to intro u"
oh please, wake up ur idea

tts why I said, u r not me, u dun know what I have been gg thru all these years
esp the part when she said "why? u still missed jerk?"
I was like "wtf! what miss?  dun have means dun have. miss what miss"
"then why dun have"
HELLO!!
I also want to know why
I also know I am not ugly.. I am pleasant looking
I also know tt those rich and handsome one wont even bother to steal a glance of me .... I also not looking for such ppl
dun say them, I also cannot be bother to even open my eyelid to look at at them lor
but ppl cannot accept my status then HOW!!!!!

I also adjusted my criteria along the way
age, educ, blah blah blah
but certain I cannot adjust or rather cannot give in then how?
I know I cannot compromise it
then no pt forcing it, coz forcing no happiness mah

frankly, if u dun have anything to say, I rather u shut up and dun pretend tt u know everything
unless u are me, if not, u dun know anything

then she still want to say abt my dressing
said I did not wear nicely
I shot her back "this is holiday what's wrong with my dressing?"
"look like ah tiong" she went
and I fumed like mad
" I am here for a holiday. I dun need to dress up for others to see, as long as I am comfortable can le. if want to dress up then why bother to come for holiday? stay home better lor"
and she still want to challenge me "u see, on the road, ppl only look at me, they dun even want to look at u lor. how to attract a potential bf like tt"
"they want to see u , its their problem. dun want to see me so be it. u like ppl to see u then u let the see lor. I dun need ppl to see me"
and she rattled on and on and on

frankly hor...I would have an endless argument with her lor but for what?
her first para already fixed her mindset tt I did not do anything to look for THE ONE
her next few papa already fixed her mindset tt THERE IS NO PROBLEM. IT'S JUST ME WHO IS NOT TRYING HARD
and finally her next few sentences already fixed her mindset tt her sis no medicine to save le.
so no point arguing..... coz her mindset is inflexible
she thinks tt life is a bed of roses.... want to find sure have de....
but the time not ripe how to find also no use lor
esp master already said "no more le" then why work so hard..... just work hard...and wait lor
have then have, no have then so be it
why always raise the hopes and end up the disappointment is so much more

AM BACK

i am back!!
hahahaha
missed me bo?
anyway I dun miss anything


this time, this trip was fun and more relax as compared to the jap trip
=D
but both trips I also enjoyed myself

its really like eat walk and eat walk, look see look see
sis did not shop like she used to
this time round really only look see look see and eat eat eat

I dun really like the look see look see part.. but eat eat eat was
ZHAN!!
haha

CLICKED

I clicked le
=D/ =(

I was so upset today
I just clicked

actually I planned to click today anyway before I go for the short trip
after I end work today and come back home and click
but she made me so upset.. I just did it

I already tried my best to do as much as I can before I go on leave
but hor someone dun want to hurry up then why I bother
I dun just sit there lor
I got chase for them to hurry up and also rush them to come out with the pc of shit
still came up to me and asked me "where is the pc of shit"
I explained tt I have done my part le and now waiting for them
she insisted tt I have to chase them for it and gave me the u owe me a billion dollars look

HELLO?
which part of me tt u no see me chasing
I mean come on lor.. is it my fucking bloody fault tt the PIC is not gan cheong over his own tender?

I can rush and I can cheong the work out
but please appreciate my hard work and effort
and dun take me for granted
my nice-ness does not mean u can bark at me as and when u like

I think my limit is being tested and has been stretched
if I am the only person u can bark at in the office
then sorry, the time left  for u to bark is getting lesser
and hor, u can take back all the shit and do it urselves
for all I care
u can take ur time to do or dun do or just throw it away , burn it or pass to someone else
SERIOUSLY, FOR ALL I CARE

afterall I clicked le

hmph

wish me luck
the hdp will ring
ring ring ring

HUAT AH

ring and also get the job!
bless me

let me go enjoy my trip first

dun miss me ... coz I won't be missing u!
*muack muack*

CRASH DIET

told mama tt I want to eat lesser rice for the past few days as I will be gg to TP and will be like eating and drinking like siao cha bo mah

tts what I planned la. eat lesser rice than usual but still get the dishes...
and u know what?

end up , 2 days in a row.. mama made SALAD for me
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
=(((

luckily tue and fri I decided to eat out.. hahaha
so got some meat...
happy like mad!!

and on thur.. all I got some ONE HARD BOILED EGG!!!!! and a bowl of carrot with raddish soup

WHY LIKE TT!!!!

did I slim down??!!!?? (if u r wondering)
NO I DID NOT

kua kua kua

but mentally I will take it tt I did slim down so tt I will just eat and drink on tue onwards

HUAT AH!!!

ON THE MARK....

all packed and ready to go!!!

on my mark....

also did my mani and pedi le
wahahaha
I even activated the stripe
just need to change money tomolo and I am on my way le

get set...

and of course the last min addition into the toiletries bag.... the TOOTH BRUSH
waahaaha

so excited
hopefully tomolo at work, all will be fine.
smooth smooth at work from 830am to 6pm......
=D

PANG KANG!!!!
GO!!!!!!!

hope the oil and the weather would all be fine!!
=D
eat, shop, see, walk

COUNTING DOWN

two more working days
and sis and I are on our way to TP

2nd time for her and 1st for me
hope we will enjoy ourselves
ok not gg to say for her
BUT definitely for myself

have not start parking
maybe tomolo nite bah
or maybe later after watching my drama

hopefully soon soon for the next two working days
can complete my work on hand
for the new work, I am sorry, one week later when I am back then I will touch it
need to plan my schedule mah
tio bo?

first come first serve
I like u I serve u first
easy do, also serve first
my work, of course have to serve first

HOPE I ENJOY MYSELF
HAVE FUN
A SAFE JOURNEY AND FLIGHT
=D