FINALLY I DID IT

I took the plunge
and did it

haha
if u think I threw letter
well, though I want to.. but sorry I cant

so what did I do??

well...

 Before treatment... applied the numbing cream

 

 

after treatment.... seemed okie... like nothing happened

 

Day 2... the spots got darker and I went OMFG!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

sorry no day 3.. coz I simply cannot bear to look at myself la...lolz 

 

today is Day 4... grew even darker and also some spots before the treatment not visible.. but now apparently they are appearing...…….

so have u guessed it correctly??
yappie.. I went for laser treatment to remove the pigmentations on the face
sibei dun like for quite sometime
but I was very skeptical
and then since it was my birthday month
I decided to take the plunge and just do it!!

huat ah!!

12 sessions.... and this is my first
lets see after how many sessions then I can see the results I want
and is it all worth it
I guess it would be!!
=D

did I go to work
of course I did
in this condition
yeah!! in this condition
if I said I was not conscious about it, confirmed bluff de
but what can I do right?
since decided to do it, then dun bother too much le

of course I also applied some concealer and pile on the foundation
but its still visible
but well, lets just wait and see for the results bah

TO CRY OR TO LAUGH

1st tio "rejected" coz I am non Christian
FINE!!!

then now, coz I am a non vegetarian
SERIOUSLY!!!

WHATEVER

STORM BREWING?

thought something will happened
but hor
seriously what would happen leh
want to happen, would have happened long time ago lor
why wait till now, till someone BLOW the whistle

so ok ya
she had bee very quiet for the past few days
I thought she was told to "LIE LOW" dun create or do any more unnecessary things while he will go handle the matter

so okie he called for a mass meeting with the payment ppl
and oh wow!! all ready to whack die her
I was like HUH?? why must do until like this?
just say it nicely lor
just state the facts not like anybody is fabricating stories ah

if its me, well, I got my little red book to back me up
lolz
though when I tried to read back, I really dun know what I have wrote
coz I guess when I was writing I just want to vent it all out

SO anyway like what I expected
everything someone said, he had something to counter back
so I was like HUH? then talk for what when u r not even receptive of the feedback given
then who would want to say anymore in the future?  then dun come and say "I dun know coz nobody tells me"
coz who wants tell u when u only want to counter attack back??

will she change?
nah.. I doubt so
how to change the character? the pattern?  in born de
unless something drastic happened, like he telling her "if another staff leaves, i dun care is it becoz of u, u better watch out" then i am sure she would sit up and buck up and then control all her nonsense.
but if nothing would happened after the mass meeting, then hor, to her its like " well i am correct. boss no scold me? and nothing happened to me. and hence i can be BOLDER and i am gg to make u all pay back"
yayaya, i know la
sounds so exaggerated
but ya something along this line la
NOTHING WOULD HAPPENED
its just a motion to pacify everybody tt " yayaya, i am listening. i am here to listen, come tell me"

so if big boss said come i also want to talk to every unit under her, should i or should i not brew the storm bigger???

48 Vs 48

equal number of gender
and yet I dun get a single matchie

tell me
tell me
tell me

who can tell me simi dai ji leh??

sigh

RANTING

very long no rant about goldfish le
recently I realised tt I have been ranting a lot
dun know why
she like key siao again
and it is really the tmd

its like practically EVERYDAY rant and rant about her leh
I think its either my patience with her is running thin... or she really am too much la
but since I had already survived for 3 years plus.. I guess the above 2 reasons would be the many reasons for my recent unhappiness

and to make matter worst
mdm threw letter the day before
and even with the talk they had
she can tell mdm tt she is esp strict with the younger staff
OMFG
please wake up ur idea la
if tts the case, why so many unhappiness among the ppl under her regardless of age leh
siao one
I think she hor, got problem

anyway she really disappoint me this time, BIG TIME
ppl leaving the team one after another
making me so depressed and upset
first TM, then sotong, then tnp and now mdm
soon will be me lor
esp she is simply getting more and more difficult to please and I simply dun intend or rather I no mood to entertain her anymore


I wont list down all the incidents tt I am pissed off
coz I cannot remember all (heehee) and also cox I am still depressed and upset about mdm's throwing of the letter and I so wanted to cry and then I suddenly missed my mama
and then I cried again......sigh

take the most recent case
someone A came and asked me what is the basis of my estimate
very direct and simple and straightforward right?
so I answered lor
nothing wrong right??
and before tt I think A got asked tnp where she also replied the earlier queries posted to her

BUT next moment, goldfish send us both an email and asked "I saw the emails flying may I know wat is ur involvement?"
tnp did not reply
but I was like what is this? cannot even answer A for a straightforward qn?  need to go thru her?  then how to work leh if everything needs to go thru, I mean.. siao right
then go instruct all tt any queries need to go thru her and not directly to her staff
siao right??
okie, if u think I am wrong I should not have answer directly then let me know then I will be like the last incident, I avoid my big boss at all cost... not gg to talk to him or be seen talking to him, esp if she is ard

so what did I reply?
I told her the estimate was prepared by us. A just asked for the basis. and I clarified with her lor
involvement strictly speaking is ZERO!! just I am just clarifying
really tmd
small matter and she made it like a mountain leh

frankly many things I already send over to her
she is supposed to clear, but they r all sitting in her inbox
coz she forever what fucking reasons she want to give, its my fault for not reminding her, for chasing her or asking her
u tell me lor
verbally tell, email informed, print out put on table.. what other methods can u think of? txt her??
well, all I have do did done
and then end up she and her fucking reasons lor.. and I am the one causing the delay

so she asked me to check with legal how to do something
email send on 1st mar, reminded on 1st apr, both emails she was in the loop
I even called up the dept and asked "hello? how huh? who gg to reply?"
I did all I can except to go over and physically ask
and she bloody fucking hell asked me for the outcome
HELLO
I dun care u too busy to read ur emails or too many meetings or what
tts ur job
and ur own fucking problem
u remind ur ownself
u not president, perm sec, CEO or director or whatever
perhaps they do have ppl to remind them but I am sure they know their own work
and who r u lor?
dun push the blame to others
I was so angry leh, tt when MC came and discussed with me, I told him " what can I do? go over and  bang the table and ask the legal WHY U DUN WANT ANSWER MY EMAIL???!!"
seriously leh
u r in the email loop, if I have done what I can do, and still no answer, then as a boss, shouldn't u be the next one in line to go ask for the outcome with the legal ppl?
really tmd

think I free ah
like her
we all also have 101 things to do
we also prioritise our work
and chasing emails definitely not my top priority...…..

then she asked us to do some research
I told her " nothing in the contract provisions SPECIFICALLY tackle the issue on XXX"
simple right? can understand la
then when DB presented his, she asked me "SY, u mean the new contract dun have these provisions which DB presented?"
and I said "have. I also have. what I said was there is no contract provision SPECIFICALLY for XXX mah."
and she said " means have la"
and I was like HUH? my ang mo cannot be understand meh???
she is just trying to be find fault right???
u tell me u tell me

anyway there are other incidents
but I really cant be bother le
what can I do?
at my age really not easy to look for another job
but to be under her and be torture by her nonsense I think I rather be happy then to be upset and depressed and waste my time on such ppl

now tt mdm had throw her letter
I am just do disappointed and sad lor
why goldfish dun see tt she is the problem tt everybody under her wants to leave
and good lor
as recently she kept saying "close down the unit"
so demoralising right
I mean of course I heck care her and her nonsense la
but imagine others hear le what would ppl think

and a boss, I think suan le la
just close it down bah

and to end this ranting
I just want to say "ppl do, upstairs see. karma will come.  u just wait"

TOTALLY PISSED ME OFF

this AM when I opened my email
and there sitting in my inbox big boss email to me to do some collation
of course for cc to goldfish and 2 other bhs

since she said want to meet in the PM,  I asked can we also discuss that piece of shit
she said u go proposed then see me
walao eh
okie lor

then who knows, it turned out tt she was gg to discuss with mc and J on how to collate the data not knowing tt its the same piece of shit
and when she realised tt its the same
she told MC " okie. mc dun need to do le. she is doing " and was gg to leave the room
and I was immediately fire all up to the max level

WTF
what is this?
whether who does the piece of shit, still its our unit work right?
and what does she mean "SY's work we dun need to do?"
before she realised tt its the piece of shit tt was assigned to me by big boss, she had in mind to have 2 ppl to do the work
then why when its me, she said u go do... OMO
at least be kind enough to say let J and u work together

tmd right
KNNCCB

I think this time I really am pissed off max
first tnp
and then her

this time I did not go see big boss lor
I stayed away from him as far as I can since tt incident
I knew she had to talk to me sooner or later de
coz like I said I know I still got the upper hand
so I tried ways and means to talk to her or rather i pretend tt nothing happen and act normal and talk normal
anyway why he assigned to me, dun asked me
but he is the big boss, he can also assigned work to me right
I mean
duhz

she is so much like tt bitch in the earlier aeroplane industry
really KL lor

so she asked me so what u intend to do tell me
so I told her since every week got this spreadsheet so I want to...
before I can even finished she cut me off and said even this piece of spreadsheet also nobody wants to update lor.
and then I said okie then get from the officers
and u know what she told me
is tt the only way? can we dun go disturb the officers?  if the spreadsheet they also dun want to update u think they will give u?
I mean HELLO!!! if dun ask them then ask UPSTAIRS ah??

then fine, I said okie, then lets go get the files from the payment officers and flip lor
and she asked is tt the only way
I said well, then ask the consultants lor
and she shot me back, "u think the consultants very free? they already closed the accounts with us, whats make u think they will entertain us to give us the info?"

and then I was like U WIN LIAO then u tell me lor
and then she said tomolo u go look from the payment file
and I replied u mean on Monday?
and she said ya Monday
find a few then we see how we can collate

and MC was nice enough to explain tt its not gg to be easy
and she went " I dun know I dun  know. I really dun know u know mc, but let SY goes thru the payment files and see what she can retrieve. I am sure big boss will ask have we checked our own data"

I tell u lor
if she so tl tt big boss assigned work to me what can I do
she can jolly well go tell big boss not to do tt lor
if she tl tt I got the P, then what can I say?
afterall, I wont get another P as long as I am still in this org
this P was like a miracle lor
given to me out of pity
so why as a boss she not happy tt her staff got P
seriously, DUHZ

anyway i was told tt the P only 1
tnp and me only 1 can get the P
and since she asked for transfer so the P was given to me instead
so u see
how upset and heart broken i was
but i told myself just SHOW ME THE MONEY the rest i dun care
and if i am not good, they can still jolly well give it to her
why me then?

I tell u
though I like this here
but she is just making matters worst for me to stay on
everybody asked me how can I survive for 3 years here under her
I every time still say tt she is actually very nice and knows her work well
I did not say for fun de, I really meant it
its just her fucking attitude and thinking
I m sorry

I may not be as good as her
but I will do things to my best of my ability
and it might not be good enough for her, but at least its good enough for myself.
and i know she very li hai one.. so okie lor… u come and do it urself
=D  i dun want to do le
afterall, i wont get P any more as long as i stayed her
so just do normal work lor and hor spend the time to find a hubby better....
afterall job not for life.. life partner is for life

anyway since 3 years here,  and also just gotten P
I think maybe time to look for my alternative route....

god bless!!
HUAT AH

ENOUGH IS NOT ENOUGH?

as I said, well I just get the job done and get over it
so this AM, I went into office and then I drafted the email to be send out to all about the presentation

and then tnp said can changed the timing to 930 as need to set up and she starts work at 9am
I replied its okie if all is okie
then she said we need to set up the chairs too, so we need to take from another meeting rooms and so how many chairs to take
I replied tt the other rooms are all occupied so unless got spare chairs if not, don't think we can take
and since I already said the room I secured was a small one hence will be squeezy lor
and so I said maybe the staff need to take their own stools down
and then the tnp replied in tt case, lets postpone to the next day

SWEE RIGHT!!
never do anything
but just want to FIND FAULTING PROBLEM

so I cheong over to goldfish and told her " I had enough!! I am not gg to reply her. and let her do what she wants"
so goldfish took over and asked if there are bigger rooms for earlier dates
(but since tnp said this week she is busy with her tender and preferred 2 weeks later and we still need to amend the slides. so I proposed a later date after checking all bosses calendar.)
and hor, goldfish told her okie, then SY u present and tnp u present XX

and immediately tnp replied tt she was the one who suggested jointly present and she underlined the spend one day of her cny to do up the slides and hence she wants to see thru it
then goldfish replied oh is it? I only remember tt u asked me to nominate ONE pax to present but okie can u two joint present but u still present the XX urself

*clap hands*
seriously
tsk tsk
really tmd de right
nothing to do find things do
and made me do so many things for nothing
and go thru mountains and oceans for just one small presentation.

so anyway then I send email again n informed tt if u want earlier dates and bigger rooms can
but the only common dates for all bosses are only on X and Y and on these days, who and who wont be around so 22nd is the best date. and we also need to clear the slides

goldfish replied why need to clear thought they went thru before?
and I jus diam diam lor
coz tnp was the one who said need to clear the slides mah
so I waited for her to reply
but she chose to be silence and then sit at her desk and smile and laugh
dun know wtf she thinking or laughing or smiling about
siao one
can be yuan zhang liao
but all I want to say is, she is like so sinister leh
better dun get close to her

just wish me luck tt I can quickly finish this up with her
duhz

and hor, aba told me tt tnp wants to go see big boss and request to stay on instead of asking for transfer
I was like ALAMAK!!
she thinks what
suka suka go, suka suka want to stay
really leh
I told aba to encourage her to go over and shine over at tt side
coz if she choose to stay....she will forever not get her P coz tts it le
big boss not as easy as u think lor
hope she not tt stupiak and so naïve

but according to him, she said if she goes over, she might not get P coz the competition over there is tough
I just diam diam lor
in the first place she just want out
then let her go out liao, she then now come and think about the future....
then sorry lor
seriously, though I am sad to see her go but since she not happy here (dun forget she requested twice to be transferred out) and she chose the path to go over there then she be happier there lor
then dun stay here le
enough is enough
can never be not enough de

entertain one already take a lot of effort and time
entertain 3... omg.. please....