还是让你走

遇见你 那天起 思念总不停
让我发觉这世界充满着爱的甜密
我好想把我的爱全部交托给你
一生一世都不分离
情已变 回不去 没人来决定
我只好选择离开因为我不够任性
你让我变得好孤寂
还是让你走 走了请你不要再回头
放开你的手 让爱这种感觉最难受
到底我们的问题是谁的责任
有谁来作平衡
我感到一点点无奈的心疼
还是让你离走 分手两字很难说出口
放开你的手 是我给你最后的温柔
不要 说借口
不要 说借口
无法 挽留

have u guys ever experience this kind of feelings? at least once in a lifetime???
i mean, u think u have done everything to the best u think u could
but then, its never best for the other party.......and then the ending is always "bye bye"
be it with family, relatives, friends, coll or even your partner................

take eg, for the reunion dinner, after much deliberation, i decided to get the yu sheng from the green froggie.........of course after discussion with my dearest mum.....
one fine night the dad came and asked me abt the yu sheng and how muchie it cost me
i told him $X and he said "so expensive. why dun u get from YYY instead selling at $Z, so much cheaper. can order from YYY or not? u ordered already? blah blah blah" and i was like wtf, after all the trouble i went thru, is this all he can tell me. so as usual, me being the short and hot tempered one (but not as short and hot as the ox) raised my voice a little and went "ok. next time i won't buy anything. i gave u guys the money, and u guys go buy whatever u want" and dad being the "no save oil lamp" went "hey! i just asking why u must kick up a fuss? end of the day what u get? let u study so much, is this what u do? u think lah. u tell me, what do u get?" i TOTALLY ignored him.........ya!! what did i get? i just want to give the best and then this is what i get? do i deserved it?? wtf!!

what a joke!!! i just want to give the BEST!!
but the other party never knows.......sigh
end of the day, its "i dun like ur dad!!! i dun like your sister!!! i dun like your mum!! i dun like your friends, i dun like your relatives, i dun like your niece, why your sister cannot take care of her OWN daughter? why must u be the one? u mean u going to take care of her even if in future we gg to have have our own children?? then who will u be giving the BEST? her or our children?...blah blah blah.........the list goes on.........OH COME ON!! please give me a break!!! have u ever spare a thought for me???!!??? u think i like your dad, your mum? your relatives? your whatever???? its becoz i love u, tts why i love everything that belongs to YOU!! everything that are YOURS!!!!! i thought i give u everything, EVERYTHING ok....and end of the day, i got this craps!! do i have a choice? u think i can choose which wealthy family i can be born into? u think i can choose my own parents?? you think i can choose who i want to be???? oh please.........
i dun have a choice, so do u! so wake up!!!!! but i and u have a choice and thats it to make the best out of what we have!!!!!!

sigh......talk so much
who can really understand.........
so in the end, 还是让你走.........let it go.........sigh.........
or am i just plain stupid??? i thought i am giving the best but its not the best yet......can be better??

nah!! i think u can go eat shit and die.....dun appreciate it then so be it.....found someone who does....so many "i dun like" its as good as telling me u dun like me.......period.