FEELING LOUSY

am i a lousy yee yee???
sigh
i think so

just now i came home
and mum was coaching the little one
but dun know why the little one like "fa pi qi" and showing attitude to mum
i "ren"
frankly speaking, last time , (MY TIME LAH), where got dare do this
then my mum dun know the answer so i took over
and then she also "ai mai ai mai" like tt
so i got mad and shouted at her to "stop your nonsense"

my sister quickly scambble out from the room and asked "what is happenening? why is yee yee shouting so loudly? crazy is it?"
then i went "ur daughter showed attitude when mummy is trying to coach her"
and she went "cannot like this. said sorry to po po"
and the little one just refused to open her mouth
after much prompting from sister, she finally opened and said "sorry po po"
inside my heart, i am thinking "if u dun mean it then dun say lor" u can really tell from her everything tt she is so so unwilling to say

anyway, sister then took over the role of the teacher
and gave her daughter the spelling and dictation
and i of course went for my bath and my mum watched her tv
inside the bathroom, i heard my sister told her "why u crying?"
omg!! the little one cried!!!
and then i felt so lousy
must have been a lousy yee yee
really
period.
=(

frankly speaking, i am angry with my sister
she is at home
but wtf is she doing?
surfing the net, talking on the phone, night out, chilling out, shopping, etc
not once she spend quality time with her child
maybe have, but only when she suddenly feels like it..........
she only think abt HER......self centred
she chose to pop the child out, so she should be responsible for her and not others, but if she cannot then let her papa have her........
and being the mum, she should be responsible for her girl NOT my mum
she just came out from the room and took over the spelling and be the angel when i shouted at her girl........
come on lor!!
what the F is this!!
pui pui pui
or am i being kapo........i should not have bother.........but i cannot stand it when her girl treated my mum like this
slamming her pencil case, her books and flipped the worksheet here and there
do we owe her anything?
no, i dun think so..........
but then again, she also has no choice, she cannot choose whose family to be borned in and to who

then i kana from my sister
she told me tt i should not be shouting at her girl coz her girl got pride
frankly speaking, who doesn't
but does my mum deserved such treatment??
told me she is still young
oh come on lor!!
now young dun teach, old liao how to teach
so i told her "if u want to have a spoil brat as ur child then go ahead. and u should be the one coaching her not mum. "
and she jolly happily replied me "she also never come ask me abt her homework"
and i went "ya. u go think, from young to now, when have u ever coach her with her homework? still want to come and tell me she no come ask u?"
and then she just diam diam

come on lor, we said facts not black and white and then try to make it grey.........
if she thinks her girl dun deserved such treatment (which i also think she does not deserved) then she be fully responsible for her......coz i also felt tt my mum dun deserved such treatment and its time for her to take over, afterall she was not here for her from pri 1 to 3......kindergartern too.......

in my own humble opinion, if i dun have quality time for my children next time
i rather not .....
not tt i am siao or what
but really, why let the innocent suffered........

anyway, i am feeling so lousy just now..........but now i am damn tl