UPSET

really!!!
i was upset
over what?
over a harmless remarks made

we were having dinner
and u know me, i dun like to eat means i dun like to eat
no matter how u cook it, what way u cook it, how u hide it, i dun want to eat means i dun want to it
but as a basic courtesy, unless it looked really horrible to me, i will still take a bit
u know "yi si yi si"

so dear took some fish meat for me and i ate it
*beam beam*
fulfilled my own standard
quickly finished up my rice and about to leave the table
when "u never eat fish? try a bit lah. last time i also dun take one. but hor, try a bit, slowly will eat de"
then i just smiled coz inside my heart i know i did eat and dear knew it lor
then continued "dun know how to eat. cannot stand the smell rite? u know this method of cooking fish only our family know lor. outside cannot eat de. but hor, really, not many ppl knows how to eat it and can take the smell. but my daughters and son, my hubby and even myself love to eat lor"
and i just smiled and folded my paper and prepared to leave
then continued "dun know how to eat....blah blah blah'
and i left the table, feeling damn tl

ok, i know its small matter
really, i also think so
but hor, its not tt "I DUN KNOW HOW TO EAT" is more of "I DUN LIKE TO EAT FISH"
no matter how u cook it, I SIMPLY DUN LIKE TO EAT FISH
eg. u can roost a duck, braised a duck, deep fried a duck or even steam it if u want, i dun like to eat duck, means i dun like to eat. i will take one pc to show u "I HAVE EATEN" and tts it. dun push ur luck with me........
i can choose not to eat it totally ok.... i have my rights just like u have yours.

anyway, i do know fish is good for us
but i did eat lor, not tt i did not
fried fish noodles, fish balls, sharkfin soup, fish cake, i eat lor
but not fish, fish, u know.........

last time tt one also like this, this one same
why huh?
dun want to eat means dun want to eat, not tt i dun know how to eat

just like i dun take spicy food
not tt i dun like or i dun know how to eat
but i really cannot take too much
its gg to upset my tummy and i will be the one groaning in pain, running to the loo, seeing the doc, taking the medicines not U!!!

during the christmas party at esther's place, i also took a bit with my bee hoon lor
its the effort which she puts in to cook
must show appreciation..... =) (not trying to polish shoes ok) anyway i did test a bit before the guests arrived, its mild..........i like it!! but hor, if the potatoes bigger chunks will be FANTASTIC!!! =))

nobody understands
i am not trying to be difficult ok
i dun eat, but i never stop anyone from eating
u have ur choice so do i
dun have to make such remarks
i dun like it

anyway, i threw a temper at dear lor
he does not know why i threw a temper
he just told me "i am gg to ignore u"
fine!!
he did not defend me just now lor
he happily eating his fishes
ok, perhaps to him its a small thingy, but to me its big lor
afterall, i am being "accused" of DUN KNOW HOW TO EAT
its not as if this is the first time the mum cooks this dish
she cooked before, i also eat before lor
why must she said me
i just hate it

sooner or later, dear will go "hey! dun care her lah. dun eat then dun eat, starve her"
ok ok, dear might not say such things to me
but someone did said it, in front of all the relatives, in a restaurant
really tmd
how can!!
no defend me still want to rub salt to wound
pui

anyway, i was really upset
but am also sorry tt i threw my temper
sorry dear.......(if u can read this.....hehehe....too bad u dun >.<)
i dun mean it.... i know its not ur fault
but i just dun like the feeling......