PISSED ME MAX

that stupiak woman really gets on my nerves
and testing my patience

called and asked me how much is the tingkat
I asked her u want to pay?
she said no la. just want to know how much see worth it or not?

I asked her if not worth it then what is she gg to do abt it?
she gg to cook?
then she said no la. if not worth then we own self cook?
so I asked her who gg to cook? she or me?
then she said not her la. papa can cook
and I said so who is gg to market to get the food?
she or me?
and she said no la. papa can go
and this time I really fume le
is so easy to open her mouth and say but not providing me with SOUND solutions

I asked her do u think papa will go marketing? 
and then she said well mama can go
WTF!!!
dun she knows mama is how weak now?
okie for her to go out walk walk but not to go market and buy food and carry back
still dare to shout at me and said I know mama every morning go market buy breakfast
I told her mama every morning go out walk walk not to go buy breakfast

still dare to say tt such simple qn she asked me and I cant answer her back properly and want to argue with her
I just shouted back at her "IF U DUN STAY HERE, STOP THINKING U KNOW EVERYTHING. ITS ALWAYS SO EASY FOR U TO SAY. WHO DO?"
I seriously am very pissed off
can tell us not to let mama use the kitchen toilet in case she fell, but now can tell me mama can go marketing
really dun know what is in her pig's brain
just want to grab onto straws and float .. still want to argue...sigh

dun eat tingkat then we eat what
worth or not, its not impt
matter is we got food to eat
just like I told the old folks... temp only, once mama recover, mama can cook le, but now just bear with the food, good or not, just eat first
one word CONVENIENCE

who has been cooking?  its was mama....what did papa do?
nothing .. as usual just "ordering" mama ard... and open his big mouth say this and say tt
which pissed mama off so much
kept telling her if can cure can cure, cannot cure then its fated. got to accept
mama said its so stressful. said she already try not to think abt it. take it like normal. but he just kept talking abt it. not just to her but to whoever who called and asked abt her. and she hears until very fan and pek chey

I told her coz papa cares abt her and is worried. no choice de. so jus ignored.
she said she knows. but she just dun want to hear abt it
I think I can understand how she felt.. coz its the same thinking as me bah
just let it be... live norm... and get by it each day

anyway back to the pig brain....
then after tt, bring me go ard the world
told her just tell me straight to the point
then she said if we go straight to ncc, mama might not get pioneer rate but we can choose doc
but if we get referral letter to ncc, mama will get pioneer but cant choose the doc

so I told her, anyway CGH also cannot do the job, so might as well get the referral letter and go ncc immediately and can forget abt CGH le... dun need to go CGH and waste time afterall the operation also not gg to be done there...

then she yak yak yak abt not getting the doc we want. I told her whatever doc they assigned should be a good one. cant be referral then give a lousy doc
afterall, spread or no spread, still need to operate de
so just get the referral, go to ncc, whichever doc assign, JUST DO IT

then she still yak yak yak
asked me got friends in ncc or sgh... can thick skinned abit and ask for their help blah blah blah
and I got to repeat myself many times NO NO NO NO NO... before she finally gets into her pig brain
and then she said okie just want to tell u the two options.... and u go think about it. seriously think about it.  I call u again tomolo

OMG!!
which part of my decision not clear enough huh??

really wtf

sometimes I really feel bad tt I shout at her... but hor, not tt I want to de
she made me want to shout at her
its really very easy for her to say "no tingkat. not healthy."
swee.. one sentence only. but no give solution.  then what she expects us to do?
we got to eat right?? and I cannot rush back to cook.. cant expect the old folks to wait for me....
since I decide, I get tingkat
period. case closed
dun come and tell me this and tt when u cannot offered a constructive suggestion.
period.
and dun come and ask stupid qn abt how much and whether worth or not

dun add on to my stress and burden and misery
I need to work, compose myself at work.. I need to pretend tt all is fine and well... I need to look happy at home so tt mama will be okie... I am her pillar leh. I cannot breakdown.. I am not as strong as I looked like on the external.. inside all cui le....but need to hold everything together so please.....
sometimes just keep ur mouth shut and comments to yourself
I might appreciate it better
tsk tsk

anyway sorry if I hurt u
and u know I dun mean it