WHY ALWAYS ME....

sigh
why always me huh?
so sad
=((

the day which the 2 celebrities gotten marry to each other
i was out shopping in jurong pt with dear
his hdp's sms alert tone came
and he later told me "my friend crazy de. smsed to tell me tt XXX and XXX's wedding so romantic"
immediately i knew it was a girl
coz which guy will send a sms to another guy to say such thing unless they are gay lor........ (sorry. no offence)
anyway, i kept quiet abt it
coz what's the big deal rite
maybe, perhaps just friend nia

anyway, u know me
i will not let the matter go "scot free" like tt without making my clearing my doubts
so while watching the F4 korean version on sat
i joking told dear "hey!! smsed tt GF of yours and tell her tt the U channel show now so romantic lor blah blah blah"
and he looked at me and said "siao huh? where romantic? that day i smsed her back and said whose wedding not romantic lor. and u want me to sms her? she will say i siao back lor"
kua kua kua
proven!! its a girl...........
*BINGO*

then last evening, while he kun-ing, the sms alert tone came
bloody pork so late le who huh
but i just diam diam
and i took the opportunity to ask him today lor
and he told me "someone send good nite message to me lor"
not sure he joking or not but i damn unhappy lor
sorry lor, i not "da fang" de...i very "small fang"
but i just want to send my message across
can't remember what exactly i replied him
but his reply to me was "i also never reply her. i cannot stop ppl if they want to message me rite"
FINE!! both can play the game lor
u be 1st, i can be the 15th of the month
but i dun scooped to such low level lor, why downgrade myself

anyway, few yrs back, something similar happened
not sure if any of u remember
someone likes him and expressed her feelings to him
he was honest to tell me abt it
and i was also being honest and frank with him tt i dun like it
just tell the girl tt only can be friends and nothing more, esp he has a gf le
he said he cannot stop ppl from liking him
damn tl lor
what kind of reply
of course he cannot stop but at least can tell ppl tt he is taken rite? UNAVAILABLE
tt simple rite?
cannot say is it?
cannot say then what am i to him?
i remembered we did not settled the thing there and then
i told him he can do whatever he wants
none of my business
but if one day i cannot take it and i exploded, so be it
he chose it
i dun want a timebomb by my side
and he went to "discuss" with another male friend who happened to agree with me
and i tell u lor, he did not directly told her abt me, he hinted........
sigh
ok, whatever
he tried......
at least he listened to what i had to said
and this time round, i dun know whether the other party knows abt me
or i was not in the pic at all........
and i also dun know how did dear handle it
but he better remember what happened last time lor

frankly, i am smarter now lor
i can take it de
if the other one is so much better than go ahead
so be it
i dun need to fight lor
just dun understand what have i done in my previous life tt i always kana such thing in my present life!!!
sigh
can i have a better life in my future life!!!!