NOT AN ENDING BUT A BEGINNING

Yes, i am gg to end another chapter of my life
yes..... whether i like it or not
6 yrs and still got to say bye bye to it, reluctantly, painfully, heart achingly
though he did not say "its over" but i think he will want it too

he had flared up many times before in the past, and each time i told myself i will not tolerate
but each time, i am still very patient in handling the situations
i will let him cool down first before i moved in to thrash out issues but still he won't listen till he wants to talk to u
but to me, as long as its not a BIG thing tt cannot be resolved i will still hang in there and fight on


but frankly each time its really mentally torturing for me
ignore ignore ignore
TOTALLY ignoring me
no matter what i do or say it will never ever please him and he will just choose not to response till he wants to


this time round, i think he really am angry
coz he actually commented tt i was "one week late"
and said tt since i was the one who started it then dun complain now and i should know his temper well
of course i know his temper, if not, why bother to stay so long in the rs, if not why do i need him to cool down before i can proceed to salvage the situation...well, does he bother? no! coz to him i was already "1 week late" and he wants to be angry

someone told me to let him cool down on his own first and when he is done being angry he will want to talk le
but i think i am really very very upset this time though it might be my fault
but really, does it mean he can flared up and give me the cold treatment?
i tried to thrash things out but he just simply ignored me
FINE

since he is so unhappy to be with me, and i am the cause of the unhappiness, then i will make him happy


ppl marry, i also want to marry
ppl preparing for wedding, i also preparing for ours
ppl finally get to marry, wa kao!! mine came to a halt
maybe.....just maybe....i am a jinx leh
marriage is never in any of my cards.....
why huh??
damn sad

well, i am so sorry to my friends who actually gave us ur best wishes and blessings!!
am disappointed to say no bells will ring till he wants to resolve the issue
i am also sad and disappointed
but till then....

dun worry abt me, i am a survior....u know it *wink*
upstairs will take care of everything
have faith

i thank you all for ur concern but pls dun ask me abt it as i dun wish to talk abt it
holding back my tears, putting up a brave front( u know how difficult it is to do so), so tt my parents and family and friends and colls will more or less "put heart"

so what can u do for ur friend?
well, intro me to eligible guys lor...... hehehe
duh!!! need i be more OBVIOUS???!!??
>.<

afterall, its not an ending but a beginning.....