HAVE FUN, NO FUN

I met a new grp of friends from the sdn
I tell u
really nothing to do find things do
inside this grp got so many clans de
this one like this, this one like tt
tt one dun like this, tt one likes tt
and then ho say lor
so complicated de
until I seriously dun even bother to care what the fuck is happening
coz seriously NONE OF MY FUKING BUSINESS

in and out the chatroom they come and go
think this is what
how old le
oh come on!!
okok, I am one of the oldest la
hahaha
most are below 30
so I tink they must be thinking this is very fun

and of course the old men wants the syt la
but syt dun like old men mah
I just felt tt the men dun get it lor
then later want to complain tt the girls in Singapore goes for look and money
OH PLEASE LOR
when u r younger, u dun go for look and money meh
come on lor
u also gg for look now wat
still want to say others

anyway like what I have been thinking
since the event had ended yesterday, I exited from the chatroom telling them tt till the next event... we shall not meet again till then.......
hahaha

seriously
I tell u hor
headache leh this grp

esp when they have clans
u dun know which side to stand with
coz all u want is to join in the fun and enjoy
but not to join in and have shit together
sigh

WHO IS THE BULLY?

saw this funny scene yesterday

four kids were playing
Big Brother, Sister, brother and a mei mei

so brother bullied mei mei
and sister saw
sister whacked brother and brother whack sister
and whacking game started between the two
big brother saw and separated sister and brother
and then suddenly brother cried
mei mei saw brother cried, whacked sister and then complained to everybody tt sister whack brother and caused him to cry

kua kua kua

and all these drama happened becoz brother bullied mei mei
but mei mei still stood up for him in the end

moral of story?
dun be a kapo!
hahaha
DUH

WHY ALWAYS ME?

dun know why
I am still so lousy until I am losing my appetite
duh
WHY LIKE THIS!!
I also have no idea and reason for it why I am so upset
but the weight did not go down
DUH
hehehe

anyway tt day I was already "plotting" how to pass back the project to her le
afterall its was hers to begin with mah
and she said busy with the other one so she passed it out and I was told to assist in tidying up the estimate for her
so after tidying it up, rightfully should be back to her right
so I very evil I plotted to return it back to her for her follow up if any la

but then, sigh, she got into a car accident and was on mc
I felt very bad when I heard abt it
and then thought when have I become such an "evil" person"
sigh
just do lor
whats the big deal rite
why wan to return to her
afterall since its hers, she will get have to take back eventually

sigh
see ur friend me so evil
cant wait to return ppl's work to them, dun even want to help others

Y was telling not tt I want to return to her just tt I also have my own tons of work to do
and why is it tt I am always the one assigned to help others tide over but nobody is assigned to help me tide over mine and when my work is delayed, I am being blamed or questioned why delay

sigh
I also want to know why, ALWAYS ME
but then I think that's my life bah


so how now?
now I just continue to take on tt project lor
on top of my own
and I am sure boss wants me to continue follow thru the project
=D
how I know?
coz she came over and asked me on fri "r u doing the tender?"
and I went "erm, no. coz they haven give me the XXX"
"is the xxx chasing for the tech spec?"
"oh, I think he is still chasing"
and then I realized which tender she was referring to
she was referring to that project, the one she asked me to assist  on the estimate de, and she was not referring to MY own tender

so u see, so clear, she expected me to do it
though in the earlier email when she assigned me to assist to tidy up the estimate she just said the I will do the estimate the tender portion to be still done by the other staff but if busy then will see how to assign...

BUT then my own tender HOW!!
this is so so so so....I dun know what words to use le

I mean I can be positive abt it
I can take every job assigned as a challenge just to prove tt I can handle it
but then after accomplishing one after another and proved tt I am capable
isn't it a bit too much if u keep throwing jobs at me, this is what I called "taking it for granted"
no longer a challenge to me, it had now became a chore
and making me very unhappy and upset abt it

ARRIVAL OF THE PRINCESS

welcome the arrival of "ZAI MEI" on 040914
*wooo woooo wooo*
*clap hands*

zai zai's mei mei is called "zai mei" lor
hehehe
zhuang said de, not me..
=D
but its sound logical ah
keke

I think she is 1 week earlier than expected
we were just out having Swenson and then next moment she is out here to see us all!!

I think she must be so eager to see who are the aunties and the jie jie and gor gor making so much din tt nite during dinner and she cant wait to see us!!

till ur MAN YUE celebration bah, zai mei!!!

welcome
=D

STILL SO LOUSY

its the 2nd time she made me cried
sigh
but before I outburst
I told myself to stop
"not worth it"

but I regretted not crying last nite
coz today at work, I also no idea why I still feel very lousy abt what happened yesterday
and its like any moment I will burst out in tears

even today when she came over to tell me tt the amended paper is good to go
I still dun know how to smile
actually from the moment I opened my eyes till the day ended today at work, I never once smile
I just feel so so so lousy

come to think of it
I think ever since she "barked" at me yesterday AM, a smile has never appeared on my face since then

dun know why
this time I cannot let it go
why?

I just feel so lousy

only think to look forward to is my holiday
when will the day come............

I AM SO INNOCENT, PLEASE ...

today I got a meeting at 1030am
before I went for the meeting I told my neighbor " if by lunch time I am not back, u guys go ahead without me. dun wait for me"
"ok" she replied and off I went

instruction clear bo?
I thought very clear
to wait or not to wait
NO WAIT rite?

well... but for whatever reason it became my bloody fault

my meeting did not end at noon so of course I wont feel bad or very anxious to get out of the meeting to go lunch with them
then my neighbor messaged me and said "I will wait for u for lunch not hungry"
then I said "okok"

meeting ended. I went back to my cubicle
told neighbour I dun feel like eating
then we decided to tabao porridge

few mins after we got back
Y came up and said "ai yo u all are here? I thought u will come down for lunch"
and then next moment "pang pang pang" someone banging her desk
and I was like what happened?

and then Y went on abt the story during lunch time
chope three tables.
then end up two tables were full and the third table only C was sitting there
after she finished her meal nobody went to sit at tt third table and after scolding W, she stormed away
why she scolded W?
well coz when she came back with her food, she saw W sitting alone at tt table and then she sat down so tt he can go buy his food
but when W came back with his food, he did not go back to tt table, but instead went to sit at one of the three tables
then u will ask what abt the rest of the ppl rite?

well, also dun know why the rest hor, all sit at the other two tables but nobody wants to sit at the third table with C
so anyway, when Y went back with her food, how come only two tables? what happened to the third one?
afraid tt we will be joining them, and there is not seats for us
Y quickly eat her food and came up and the rest is history

and end up W joking said its my fault
, coz I did not go down and join them

BUT I was like
SO INNOCENT!!

I mean my instruction was very clear
tio bo?
"go ahead dun wait for me"
if neighbor did not pass the message properly, is it my fault??
ok, even if my neighbor did pass the message properly, AND it was Y who wants to chope the seats for us, is it my fault??

WHAT THE FUCK!
whatever is it, its my bloody fault
even C thought its my fault
and Y too!!

seriously
DUH

LOUSY MONDAY

supposed to be a happy day today
I took leave to go for buffet with E for our birthday celebration

for the past few yrs, we normally celebrate after work
but this yr, I decided what the heck, just take half day lor

I was very happy until she came and "barked" at me
frankly I do think it was my fault
but then again, despite me telling them tt its her comment
and they for whatever shit reason did not amend it accordingly
I will just forward it to her for her further comments
why must I hold it in my court and then "delay" the whole paper approval process

she came and "barked" tt I should not have just forward it to her for her comments since the paper was not in order
but to me, it was, since I said le, they dun want to listen, then u go tell them lor

anyway I know le
next time, I just keep her in the loop and comment tt the paper is still not in order
and its for her to follow up if she wants to and also for them to follow up with her if they dun want to

anyway she spoilt my mood and ruined my half day
duh
but E went with me for an express mani after the buffet at TODAI
and I do felt happier

but frankly
after all I did for the team, and this is what I get
???!!??
put down everything just to do one thing which end up not necessary
put my own stuff aside to tidy up someone else's estimate and also ecas
end up everybody looked good, meet their deadlines and all
and I looked so stupiak with my own work not cleared
and now a "barking" from her
I just take it tt today bad day for her bah
and she has no one to vent her frustration on except me...coz who else can let her "bark" like tt except me lor....
and also its my fault la.....I truly believe

I think I would just go....."SHOULD" I mean
if she really thinks I am shit, then let someone better to take over and do a better job than me then
no big deal
I am ok with it

so cut long story short
I am gg to CLICK