WHY ALWAYS ME?

dun know why
I am still so lousy until I am losing my appetite
duh
WHY LIKE THIS!!
I also have no idea and reason for it why I am so upset
but the weight did not go down
DUH
hehehe

anyway tt day I was already "plotting" how to pass back the project to her le
afterall its was hers to begin with mah
and she said busy with the other one so she passed it out and I was told to assist in tidying up the estimate for her
so after tidying it up, rightfully should be back to her right
so I very evil I plotted to return it back to her for her follow up if any la

but then, sigh, she got into a car accident and was on mc
I felt very bad when I heard abt it
and then thought when have I become such an "evil" person"
sigh
just do lor
whats the big deal rite
why wan to return to her
afterall since its hers, she will get have to take back eventually

sigh
see ur friend me so evil
cant wait to return ppl's work to them, dun even want to help others

Y was telling not tt I want to return to her just tt I also have my own tons of work to do
and why is it tt I am always the one assigned to help others tide over but nobody is assigned to help me tide over mine and when my work is delayed, I am being blamed or questioned why delay

sigh
I also want to know why, ALWAYS ME
but then I think that's my life bah


so how now?
now I just continue to take on tt project lor
on top of my own
and I am sure boss wants me to continue follow thru the project
=D
how I know?
coz she came over and asked me on fri "r u doing the tender?"
and I went "erm, no. coz they haven give me the XXX"
"is the xxx chasing for the tech spec?"
"oh, I think he is still chasing"
and then I realized which tender she was referring to
she was referring to that project, the one she asked me to assist  on the estimate de, and she was not referring to MY own tender

so u see, so clear, she expected me to do it
though in the earlier email when she assigned me to assist to tidy up the estimate she just said the I will do the estimate the tender portion to be still done by the other staff but if busy then will see how to assign...

BUT then my own tender HOW!!
this is so so so so....I dun know what words to use le

I mean I can be positive abt it
I can take every job assigned as a challenge just to prove tt I can handle it
but then after accomplishing one after another and proved tt I am capable
isn't it a bit too much if u keep throwing jobs at me, this is what I called "taking it for granted"
no longer a challenge to me, it had now became a chore
and making me very unhappy and upset abt it