CONTROL CONTROL.....TAKE DEEP BREATHE

count to 10!!!!!!!!!
arggghhhhh...........
*pull hair*
really buay ta han
i screamed at ppl today

i really need to control myself
i really cannot work under pressure or under stress
i will scream!!!!!!!!!!

take deep deep breathe!!!!
count to 10 before i open my mouth and spit fire
sigh

i know its not their fault but it really irritates me
what can i do?
i showed my anger and displeasures lor

i was rushing for things
and then suddenly out from no where, he popped out and said "1 min"
hello? 1 sec i also won't entertain u lor
u know what i mean?
u rush things i got to wait, i rush things, u no need to wait?
what is this lor
what theory!!??

then some time later, someone shouted across the room for me
i shouted back "now cannot. no time. sorry"
and i totally ignored her
i know its rude
but when u r busy, u also did not entertain me lor
so why should i now?

and it all started becoz of the fri deadline
i already told the officer tt its urgent so he needs to settle the issue as i need to issue the agreement letter
told him to sms his boss to keep him in the loop, told me tt his boss in the camp so cannot read sms
omg!! i am very sure at nite can on hdp and check one lor
anyway, i already told him the urgency of the thingy and to get back to me once he has the replies
for 2 days he sat on it
and i happened to see him just now so i asked him and he got the cheek to ask me to proceed
wa kao!! can proceed why dun tell me earlier
someone just dun know the urgency of things!!
duh
>.<

so what happened next?
i dun need to explain lor
i need to rush out the letter and its already end of the day
i was trying to print the letter out on letter head
and i tell u lor
another woo ha
anyway, whatever.........
the rest is history

i think i cannot work like this
very unhealthy
esp i keep "scolding", "screaming" and "raising" my voice at ppl, innocent ppl.........
arggghhhhh........

control control
take deep breathe
count to 10
before i open my mouth............