WHAT'S WRONG?

on my way home after the yoga class on thur
i smelled something "fishy"
i looked ard and hoped tt i did not step on S H I T
luckily i did not lor

dun know why, i just know tt something must have stuck inside my nose so i mentally told myself to clean my nose when i got home

true enough,
a BIG SOLID BLOODY S H I T popped out when i cleared my nose
damn it!!
its really getting worst

maybe its the bak kwa!!
should be hor
have been eating tons of them since CNY
but this bleeding thingy started way before the cny and its getting from bad to worse and from worse to worst

anyway, i blew my nose straightaway after i got tt "bloody" thingy out from my nose
and bloody pork!!! more blood lor
showed mama, she said its heaty go drink more cold water
and i happily went to the fridge to get my favorite drink, coke!!
hehehe
=))
drown on can in and am a happy girl
*beam beam*

i am not trying to be optismistic here
but really, what can i do?
i dun want to be told tt i have nose cancer or what cancer and i dun have much days to live

i may be strong at some things, but deep inside me still a weakling.........
who's not afraid of death??
even if one day u will know, u will be by HIS side, but u sure u not afraid??
well, ok, whatever
i might be sensitive here
i might be in pink of health and just scaring the shit out of myself

but whatever is it.....i still will monitor and see how it goes
if i need to go for a further check up, i still will go
at least must make sure i dun scare myself silly rite........

=))

anyway, fri, sat was fine
and then just now, while dear was studying for his exams
i took an afternoon nap
when i woke up, nose block again
so i cleared it
bloody hell!!
bleed again
i dare not show to dear, coz guess he will scold me
but he also smart lor, he turned and saw the stained tissue
and told me "go and drink water now"
hehehe
bo pian, got to go drink water if not he sure damn tl with me de
not tt i dun want to drink water but does it really helps??

what is exactly wrong with me?
who can enlightened me?