UPSET

last fri
finally i submitted my paper thru my SB to my BB
BB went thru and decided to get a third party to go thru the paper before i submit it offically

TP came and asked me why she was chosen?
i told her no idea asked BB lor
didn't SB went thru your paper?
yes, SB went thru then submit de
then why still want me to go thru
anyway when i opened the file, i dun know what u wrote. i got many ????
*diam diam*
i go ask SB
why go ask SB, go ask BB mah
no lah, i kapo...i go ask SB
later i come and asked u abt my ??? and then u got to explain to me again...
its ok de...as long as after i explained u understand then how many times i explained its still worth it
*beam beam*

and off TP went .........and she went ard telling the ppl tt my paper was terribly done and BB asked her to go thru the paper....blah blah blah
ok, seriously, this part, i also heard ppl said one...coz i was not present
and one of the coll came to my cubicle and asked me what happened?
and i was like "huh?"
then she asked me not to be upset and i told her i am not, why should i be?
then she told me tt TP was at her side just now and exclaiming tt my paper was terrible tts why BB roped her in.....

i just smiled at her
showed her the email which BB send and i asked her "frankly, do u sense anything inside the email which says tt my paper is terrible?"
and she said NO (not sure is she trying to be polite or what)
but to me, i really dun sense tt my paper was terrible.........

i was very upset
first instance, i wanted to go ask SB whether my paper was really tt terrible and why must tt coll of us go ard making such "nasty" remarks
i mean, it was my first paper, and to me, i think it a good job le...to be able to write like this....and ppl should be given a chance rite?
write a few more times, should be better rite? but i rather not do it anymore....lolz
but ok lah, take it as a challenge...why not...

but becoz of the last incident where i zoomed up to BB and told her i did not put tt statement in the report and it was XXX who insisted tt i must put that statement in coz it was TEMPLATE ...i decided i should hold my horses...be cool and cool down first

i told dear abt it...and he told me "i will not pity u. coz u always want to take it quietly and let ppl bully u and then sooner or later u will quit your job again and then complained"
i was again hurt by his remarks
he dun know the situation i am in and why i did not do it though i wanted to
and he just blasted his way
i told him "i dun need u or anybody to pity me. but why must she made such a remark?"
and he just kept rattling on and on abt i should just go and confront her

i read somewhere before
tt when a woman complains, she wants ppl to agree with her and stand by her
but when a man complains, he just wants a listening ear.....
is this true??
coz sometimes, i dun need ppl to agree with me or stand by me, i just want a listening ear...dun need any advise or comments...just a simple nod of the head, hm...er....yes...no.... u know

but i just got a lashing......sad plus sad = upset