不再聯繫

也許還能在網上看到你的消息
也許我唱的歌還存在你的手機
也許我愛你埋在心底變成秘密
也許你想我的時候我也在想你
多少次我告訴自己
此情可待已成追憶
多少次我告誡自己
不再為你流淚到一敗塗地
我和你不再聯繫
希望你不要介意
要怪就怪當初沒在一起
而你對現在也比較滿意
所以我留下來也沒有道理
我和你斷了聯繫
不代表我不想你
走到哪裡還是會有惦記
而我也開始試著去忘記
抹去我們過去的放棄的所有交集

 

 

chanced upon this song.....

thought its nice....

 

reminds me of her....the silly her

sigh

tt day almost made me cry again

 

I saw her crying but did not say much

IM her to stop crying as the rest would be coming back to the office

she said "sorry I thought i can hide it from u"

"its ok. no worry. but just go dry ur tears and stop it"

told me the wife almost found out abt them........

my heart stopped beating for a split second

 

and i asked her so?

she said she was so worried for him

told her "dun be silly la. the day u two decided to play with fire, there is nothing to worry abt. and why should u be worrying for him? he should be the one worrying for himself. tts the rules of the game"

"I dun want to ruin his family'

"the day, u decided to get back together and that day u two decided to play with fire, everything is ruined. so why worry now?"

 

"truth hurts"

"I know. since when truth does not hurt"

"pains me so much tt he loves his wife more. and I love a man whom i am not supposed to love and not mine"

"u chose this path. what can u say now?"

"I know. but when the reality hits, its very pain"

 

 

SIGH

wat can I say?

nothing

i dun encourage and I never support

but what can i do?

maybe to u, my words are very hurtful...but do u not know tt my heart hurts too....

I may not be the 3rd party.... and dun wish to be one.... but I definitely know the pains of the wife...

 

there is a wedding, the groom and bride were so happy.... but the bride is not me....

what to do?

what can u do?

can't let it go?

coz the pasture is always greener on the other side?

the one u cannot have, is always the best?

 

told me she knew it was wrong but she just cant let it go

told her "its becoz u refused to admit its a wrong"

sigh

 

frankly, like I told her the exact same word

"dun know is u cry or I cry? maybe we should just cry together"