NEED A BREAK

why is it tt I am sad huh?
can't explained
I cried two nights ago....
not until "die father die mother" kind though

I think its the pent up whatever shit inside me....
I was WA-ing with Y and while dl-ing to her what had happened during the day, the tears just flow down
she told me to "hang in there. not worth to throw becoz of her. finished the task to show tt u can do it"
I know where she coming from... when I was MUCH younger, I would do tt... coz cannot admit lose mah
but hor, now different story....
working under one cukoo already very poor thing, and now TWO
how to work?
will never get any work done to their satisfactory level le
coz nothing will ever X infinity please them
and whatever I do, to them is not good enough

just take the incident where she said tt she is currently tied up with some shit, so she will not comment on the paper until she sees mine
so ok lor, I went to do it, but unhappily, why?
use the backside also can think right?
if she is busy and has no time to comment, what makes her so sure tt after I commented, she will have time to comment???
TELL ME
or she just read thru, no major problem, then she will send it out the engineer... TADA!! her work... claimed credit for it
PUI!!

anyway I just do lor
afterall its work mah
nothing personal
though I did wonder how the hell she will have time to go thru it

true enough
last evening, the engineer send email and asked for the commented paper
for whatever reason, maybe my email was not impt, so she did not see my commented version
and she send me an email asking me for the commented paper and cc the other cukoo
I WAS FUMING!!
all the way to the ends of the hair

TO PROVE WHAT!!
u tell me
by doing this, what r u trying to prove?
tt u r doing work? and I did not do?
well, sorry lor, coz when I send out the commented paper, I kept the two cukoo in the loop
so steady rite?
only show what?
showed tt u did not even bother to go thru ur emails first and assumed tt I did not do lor
anyway, I did not win leh
coz I am sure the other cukoo will say something abt me AGAIN and then the cukoo will said the paper I commented was rubbish and she has to comment it again, eg, DO IT HERSELF

and I tell u
to show tt I did a thorough job, I even set the "track changes" ON lor
but I am very sure they will said "give me a clean version next time"
but give u the clean one, then how can u see what I have PAINFULLY did?
tio bo?

anyway, if u want to tell me tt, becoz she was busy with the shit so no time to go thru the email
well, if tts the case I can understand and let it go
but before tt, I also vetted another paper and then I send it out to her for her comments and cc my engineer
she hor, immediately replied and cc to cukoo "pls keep cukoo in the loop for all matters for the next two months"

U TELL ME!!! AGAIN!!
for what?
to prove what?
to tell cukoo, tt u are so busy with shit and then more shit from me???
WHAT R U TRYING TO PROVE?
and hor, in the place first, u did not even announced tt all stuff to keep cukoo in the loop for the next
months lor.... then why now "blame" me like tt....
WTF

so mystery solved!!
she did see her emails de
then why she did not see the email which I send the day before leh???

and seriously, if u r busy
SO AM I!!
and SO ARE EVERYBODY
just in case it never occurred to u tt though we do not have the shit tt u r doing, but we also have our own work
so what the fuck made u so special, tt I have to tolerate such nonsense

ok, can understand ur shit is very huge and big
takes up a lot of ur time
but tt eca given to u was in dec 13..... from then to now, u cannot do???
and then last min throw to me? and I have to "eat" it, coz I am very free to do it?
then what abt my own eca or work?
can wait? coz not as impt as urs???

just becoz birds of the same feather flock together
does not mean tt u can go tell cukoo tt u r busy and next moment "SY U DO"
WTF
seriously...
DUH

if tts the case, then if I ever throws... then how?
u also got to ll, suck thumb and take it back and do rite?
if not how? another sucker will get it?

then can u pls go tell big boss tt u r very tight up with SHIT now so dun give u anymore ECAs
u just do shit can le
so tt the eca can be given to someone else
and will not be re-assigned to me


I think I seriously need a break.... and maybe a pig out session or a shopping therapy!!
sounds good....
=D