SCAREDY MOUSE

can u believe it!!
though i said to leave everything till after the GC trip
the scaredy mouse in me actually cried myself to sleep last nite
hahaha
no guts!!
>.<

guess its just so lonely with no one to share the anxiety in me with.......
sigh
whatever

everyday is a brand new day with a brand new start!!
=))

off track

i received a sms from junior to on my off hdp
senior send a sms to "us" and told us tt she got to know tt we were gossiping behind her back
sigh
=(
nothing special
but i can feel tt she is hurt
frankly who does not gossip
=)

so whats the hoo ha rite?
its abt the notice for the off and also the cancellation of the courses
frankly speaking, i did not gave a damn to any of these 2 topics
but Q was very upset and all i did was "forget it lah. its ok de. dun be angry blah blah blah"
and to PC "forget it lah. why bother to argue over such small matter. leave it lah"
i dun know what happened or how the news leaked to her and at which version.......
frankly speaking, i did not talk much
being angry at tt pt of time i think, its understandable.
Q applied for leave long before the 1st april thingy. so she was upset
pc dun see the need to inform 5 days in advance to clear a 1/2 day off
but after tt, case closed. its over!!
so why did she suddenly brought it up??
the sms was send slightly after 12mn, i guessed she was really upset

wonder who leaked out the news to her?
definitely not me nor junior bah
coz frankly, these has got nothing to do with us
its not our courses, and frankly, i dun like to go for course
neither do i find anything wrong with the 5 days in advance notice

so discussed with junior, we will not reply her nor will be even want to bring it up on monday
unless she did
and even if she did, we will just diam diam
i mean, "NOT US" lor........
and the person who leaked the news to her better come forward and clarify lor
coz i am very sure i did not go ard talking abt it with others
its was just within our own unit
and even if there was such a case, i am very sure i am not the ONE lor

anyway, comes monday we will know
and i have already made my stand very clear le
no more hoo hoo haa haa with her and only work
unless she hoo hoo haa haa with me first
tts why u can actually see, now i dun hee hee haa haa so much during office hours le
just work work work

whatever
nothing is gg to scare the shit out of me for time being
only the medical report can
for the rest, to hell with it
not impt
really
back stab, "carry favour', "3 legged", gossiping........its every day life
who can stop it?
u cannot, so can't i
as long as ur own consciencous is clear
i think scare what rite?
so let's just say, come monday, so what......tts my attitude now
but comes monday, i also dun know whether am i alive or not, tts what i should be scare of.....and not this
*shake head*