STILL IN DEPRESSION

i was busy at work the moment i went into office
becoz i guessed i was still feeling extremely low and lousy
i normally will greet her
but this morning, i did not
i guessed she knew something not rite
so she did not come jio jio me
(or am is it just me?)

anyway, i dun feel like talking or entertaining anyone
really
for what?
decided i am not a clown neither am i an entertainer lor
so quietly in my cubicle i sat and clear as many letters as i can
afterall, its the DEAD LINE

i played the mambo cd
dun have the knob where i can control the volume
so actually the lowest i could go, everybody ard me could hear
but they did not say anything
sigh
they just let me played my music and let me be
hehehe

maybe, just maybe, i should just behave like this for some time
am thinking of shifting my lappy so tt i can set up the table lamp which office got for us as our "last gift" as a gahmen
but idiot told me then ppl will see what i am doing
which to me is fine, afterall, me busy at work lor
T______T

the only problem is i cannot watch my back
coz when ppl comes in, they see me but i dun
and currently i get to see all

anyway, i got home
dad was in the living room watching the tv
i steal a glance at him and wa kao!! he did not even bother lor
so i called him lor "daddy"
and he was silent for few mins before he said "so late har"
and i went "ya lor work"
and i went to the kitchen after he took me not to lock the door as sister not back yet

so "dao gay" hor
if i dun call him, i think he will ignore me
actually i should be the one ignoring him lor
really
duh
>.<
loser