FOOD FOR THOUGHT

just now during dinner i was asked abt the preparation
then i told them i decided not to have it this yr
and then i was told why not, all becoz i cannot get a venue??
of course the answer was "yes"
"oh dun do it on impulse, just becoz u cannot find a venue" but i really did not lor.
i spend one whole solid month looking thru forums, sending emails asking for menu and prices and even available dates, surfing the net, asking ppl, etc..one whole solid month.....

went to an extent tt i told upstairs if this is the right time to settle down, then i will find my venue, if not, then its ok i will wait
since i cannot get it, then i wait lor

i was then told "why u leave it upstairs? u should fight for ur rights"
seriously, i fought too much in the past le, what i get?
nothing
so why fight? just let nature takes its course
meant to be cannot run away de

"so u dun mind being single and alone in future? u dun mind tt one day he will leave the rs just like tt? then u will left with nothing"
"so be it" i answered. if he has to go, then go. i dun care. (ok, not tt i literally dun care, of course will be hurt, but frankly, if like what dear said before if 10yrs later, u will leave me, i rather u leave me now) if he not meant to be, then he is free to go."
seriously, like what i mentioned before, the day i lie 2 legs in the coffin, and the man still there weeping for me (provided my hubby no die before me la) then that man is THE ONE. and also hor i seriously do not believe tt when 2 ppl marry (i used to believe in tt), they will be together forever lor. if together forever, then happy for them. either party can still choose to leave the marriage de lor, if not why got divorce cases rite?

should i strike while the rod is hot??? seriously i also know must strike while its hot but i really cannot find the ideal venue. its the cny period, old man also commented tt will be difficult. tts why i also went to source for rest. but dun have ah, then how? if u know my style, when i want to do something, i will give it my all, no stones will be left unturned lor. but seriously, i cannot find one venue, then what u want me to do? sigh.... i even thought of just rom and tts it. no makan no nothing, damn simple lor
but then i got to think of old man and of course like what my gfs said, his mama.....having tt 2 tables is already trying to accomodate the mama le. i gave the son 3 options when i started to source for the venue. 2 tables, buffet for 30 pax or sit down dinner for many guests. coz i know if i tell the son, i wat also dun want the son will say ok and then the mama will be unhappy. afterall, i just want everybody to be happy on my happy day mah!! u think i want to see ppl unhappy on my happy day meh???

do u want to have kids or not? the answer now is "no"
maybe tts why no urgency to settle down
perhaps they r rite
but i think what J told me also makes some sense
stay single too long le, tts why prefer to stay like this

he is a good catch. u should settle down with him......wow!! first time i heard my friends said tt. coz the previous one no such comment
think then he must be good =))
i also know he is good, but tt does not mean must settle down NOW!
if he no good, i also won;t want him rite
just like i choose ppl, ppl will also choose me lor
but luckily i am really good myself
hehehe
>.<

frankly, sometimes he made me so mad tt i really consider myself lucky being single....
hehehe
dun know how to say
but i am sure tts how some of u will feel too or maybe even him
erm.... u know who u r, u stay in ur marriage no matter wat happened ok.....u two just got to work it out....no worries...no problems cannot be solved de.....whether is it his attitude, or ur attitude, his tone or ur tone, his thinking or ur thinking.....its now 2 become 1......so give and take....but dun always be the sucker who gives in....coz end up very tl de....really....