MOOD SWINGS

sat we were in the room
and dear was studying and me playing my ds
my ds ran out of batt and i started to go disturb him (usual procedure....hehehe =) )
and then while playing (we were like wrestlers u know??), my thunder knee accidentially hit his eyes!!
and tts it!!
he flew into rage despite me apologising
sigh
then what i did?
i diam diam lor
what else can i do rite?

but i cried..........cried till i kun
why i cried, not becoz i am sad
but becoz of his temper
why is it tt when he did the same thing to me, i also no flew into rage
and though he no apologied, i also no angry with him
but for me, he will throw such a huge temper lor
told me to shut up not gg to talk to me coz he tl
i was so hurt lor
and so i cried.........

at tt instant, i actually asked myself, is this the man i loved so dearly
so love is not everything
pain is pain
love is love
when there is pain there is no love
when there is love there is no pain
sigh
whatever

anyway, after a while, i think he cooled down and must have thought tt he very bad to treat me this way (he did not know tt i cried. i never let him see me cry.) he tried to make up lor, but he did not say "sorry".
he tried to talk to me, but i was so mad tt i refused to properly answer him
and i just kept quiet
its a one way conservation
when he told me to go watch tv with him, i brushed his hands away
after awhile i think he also buay siong such treatment from me so he left me alone...........
and i asked myself, why am i feeling so lousy
and then i realised............

"auntie came visiting" hehehe
he caught me in the wrong timing lor.......mood swing leh
just realised tt recent months, i have terrible mood swings........why huh?
i also cannot explained. think must eat more choco........does it help??
hm...........
*ponder*