PRETTY UPSET

this morning kana bua at work by the senior J
am damn bloody upset and affected by it
though i know she did not mean it
as she was very angry and upset

she was very angry tt someone did not reply her emails or answered her calls
and then the project officer further made her angry
and then she said she wants to call the someone and scold her
so i told her "hey! u so angry now. why not wait till u cool down, recollect your thoughts then call and give her a good one"
can see tt she was unhappy when i said tt
so its actually a signal for me to diam diam lor

then the boss popped by and she took the opportunity to complain to him
and u know me
as usual must add in here and there
so when the boss said he will called the girl's boss and give her a pc of her mind how can her staff be like this
i went "ya. give her a good one. senior j is angry now"
and then boss continued with "blah blah blah. kill it blah blah blah"
and i went "ya, kill it"
and she went "hey sy! can u stop adding fuel to the fire? if u think u up to it, u can have my role"
omg!!
why she like this?
she kept thinking tt no. 2 has an agenda to "groom" me
but come on lor, both junior j and i thinks tt its becoz she is busy so want to lighten her load, u think i hard up for tt post meh?
oh come on lor!! those who knows me, dun need me to explain too much
duh
>.<

though after lunch she was much better
and started to talk and joke
but i am definitely in no mood to entertain her any more
really, what have i done to deserve it?
i definitely did not add any fuel to anything lor
i just meant well. but she thinks otherwise

am very grateful and lucky and thankful tt dear met me for dinner
i think its becoz i won;t be seeing him over the weekend, so he deliberately took time off from his work to meet me
=)
thanks dear!! love u !! muack!!

but i think i am really very affected by what happened and couldn't sleep
its haunting me!!

and to make me feel better
dear said we gg aust this coming june!!
he is gg to make a booking with his flyer pts!!
looking forward to the trip with him
anywhere i go also can......... =)

told him i am pretty upset and started to hate the work place
he told me its like this de
must get used to it
cannot think things so simple de
then i told him if everything also must think until so chim then whats the pt. i dun like
he told me its not up to me to like or no like
ppl haven sit on her throne steadily. the stability is not tt, i will always be a threat to her regardless on the yrs of working exp i have
but really, come on lor, i am sure tts not no. 2 intention.
his intentions is to help her lessen her current work load as she is always complaining abt doing 1o1 things and she is nobody to dl things to others
so no. 2 helped her dl but now she sees otherwise

argggghhhhhh
help me!
dun want to lose a job!!! esp at this pt of time