WORST THAN WHAT I THOUGHT

ok, what i am gg to say here will only be between u and me
ya, U and ME
yayaya, U U U
ya U!!!
dun look left and right
its u lah
dun ever doubt urself
=)

i went to get my urine test report today
it was worst than what i expected
=(
its even worst than my 1st report
i took the report and left nevertheless
did not go get the doc to explain to me
why?
coz i am scared
anyway, as usual, me being the scarty cat, went up the net and surfed to get my answers and to be mentally prepared too

i have decided and so let it be
dun call and ask me
just LET ME BE!!!
whatever it is, wait till we come back from the GC trip first
just one more week and i can go on the trip le
i dun want it to spoil my mood and the trip
afterall, i have been waiting long long for this trip and then the swine flu, which did not stop me and then THIS!!

HERE, i promised
whatever it is wait till the trip
i think i have not experienced the pain tt often these few days so, let's say, we can still delayed the doc's explaination and medical assistance should it be necessary or required.

anyway, it might be nothing at all
and i am just scaring myself silly, tts all
red and white blood cells and some crystals found in urine tts all(very uncommon)
no big deal
could be kidney or due to strenous excercise
NO BIG DEAL!!
i can live with it for another few weeks before i re confirm what exactly it is with the experts
but for time being just LET ME BE ok

dun have to call me, dun need to do anything
just leave me alone
i am very scared now
but i also dun want to think abt it
whatever it is, its only b/w u and me
ya, just u and me

dear does not know yet. i did not want to bother him with such trival matter as he is preparing for his exams. (btw, think i got his exam dates wrong. muahaha.....what a gf hor!!)
my family does not know. unless something is confirmed
my colls too
only U and me!!!
=)

whatever its is, wait till after the trip.........
and god bless!!