Tuesday, June 30, 2009

GG INTO DEPRESSION MODE

felt very lousy today
its all abt work

we sat down to have a heart to heart talk
started out well
then i decided to disappear for awhile to see whether will she really open her heart up
10 mins later i went back
black face
omg!
what happened

no more smile, no more nothing
just a black face
sigh

i guessed tts it!!!
she gave up
soon, soon i will too
sigh

so depressed
why huh
why ppl like this
i was telling myself now i dun feel it, maybe next yr, when i dun get the promotion then i will be able to understand better

starting to lose respect for somebody
no longer look up to her
she said she won't bring it up
she will pretend tt she dun know
but end of the talk, she actually brought it up
i mean........sigh

i already see her in a different light when she disclosed she said she did not put her up for promotion this yr which in fact she told me earlier tt she fought for her
and now this
i mean.......i mean..........
omg!!
i am really gg into depression stage le

DREAMSZ

sometime back, i dreamt of u know who
he came to know where i staying
and everyday will come visit me
i was staying with sister and her husband to be

so one day, i got fed up and hatched a plan
i decided to FLY AWAY
and after much discussion and planning
i decided tt i will pretend to send my sister and bil off and to the airport and from the airport board an aeroplane and bye bye

true enough
after my sister's wedding, tt jerk came visiting again
and i was so pek chey
i told him off and told him dun come anymore ok
but he just dun want to listen
very persistant
fine!!
anyway, i already planned to leave

so the very next morning
we all pretended to pack up and leave the house
of course, my sister will have 2 lugagges one for herself and 1 is mine

once we reached the airport
both sister and bil checked in
and me pretended to help my sister's butler check in at another counter
once all check in are done
my sister and bil decided to go to the cafe for a drink
and jerk went along with them
while i pretend to go toilet

but this toilet trip is a very long one
coz its the trip of no return
*swee*
dun know how long has passed, my sister and bil said tt they need to board the plane le
and they got up to leave
jerk asked them where am i
and they said dun know le and they also cannot wait le
got to go
and tts it
i woke up.........

sunday, i dreamt too
surprised tt i did not sleep a wink
but i did dreamed
maybe i did fell asleep for awhile bah

and the dream goes like this
everywhere i went, he was there
go left he was there
go right he appeared there
everywhere i went, he was there
sticky glue u know
he simply won't let me go...........
also dun know what happened later, coz i woke up
kua kua kua........

means what?

only 1 thing
i am STRESSED
i am DEPRESSED
what else rite?

Monday, June 29, 2009

SHE LIED

ok
dun know got lied or not lah
or maybe i mis interpreted
but but but
the message was conveyed wrongly to my girl

*pull hair*
so depressed
so upset

but perhaps it has got nothing to do with the mis communication or misunderstanding or mis interpretation or whatever

totally pissed off today
the queen in her acting mood
i am so so sick

some days i really wished tt i was blind and deaf
no see evil no hear evil
very sick
stomach flip
want to vomit

CONSIDERED IT DONE

ok
i have thoroughly scan thru and tidy up the application form
=)

ok
and i have attached everything to my email
=))

ok
i just clicked the SEND button
=)))

ok
wish me luck
=))))

ok
wait for the ring ring ring
=)))))

ok
cross my fingers
=))))))

yeah
god bless
u and me
>.<

WITH BEST WISHES

hehe
i think tt guy is back
back into her life..........
=)

hopefully this time round, everything will be fine
wish them all the best
=))

after a stormy weather, now should be smooth sailing le
hope they both know how to cherish the r/s

STILL DEPRESSED

i cried myself to sleep last nite
but apparently i did not manage to sleep at all
hahahaha

so i went to work with a bit of swollen eyes
and also being a zombie

luckily today was a busy day for me
so i did not have much time to think abt ANYTHING

but comes 6pm
when all activities died down, i got depressed again
so what did i do??

i went for a retail therapy
robinson was having expo sales
so i went to grab
grab what i also dun know
coz i got nothing to buy mah

in the end total damage $114.........
feeling betteR?
answer is NO
worse than ever

the weather is like me now
wet and gloomy
guessed it might not be a bad idea, coz after the stormy weather i will get to see the rainbow and if i am lucky, might get a pot of gold too!!!

Sunday, June 28, 2009

IS READY

i filled in the application form today
>.<
did it in between playing games and watching tv.......
lolz
i always like to multi task.......
cannot stand it sitting here whole day filling the application form
so i did it while playing game and running in and out of the room watching tv
coming in during advertisement to fill in the blanks...........

will scan thru the form and tidy it up tomolo
and then send it out via email tomolo

then after
wish me luck!!
ring ring ring

LOSER AT WORK

sister came home mins ago
and she was yakking with her daughter in the kitchen

loser went "hey! u better lower ur volume huh. dun u think u r irritating"
kua kua kua

see!!
told u!!
he is a F***ing BIG LOSER
he just dun get it
not saying tt he is irritating
just tt just now i was watching tv and mama's radio was blasting behind and he was making some unncessary noise in the dining area
he really wtf
just simply dun understand what's wrong with himself

not tt i dun allow him to make noise
he wants to make noise NOW i also dun care
do i bother?
do i give a damn?
i am not watching any shows now
he can made a din for all i care until the neighbours call the police i also dun care
he is just plain stubborn
sigh

but what to do?
he is my dad
my one and only dad........
something which i cannot change even till the day he mati or i mati

WHOSE FAULT

i couldn't believe my eyes when i saw the photo of the collasped building in the papers this morning

the norm is, the building normally will collaspe top down
so u get to see the rumbles stack on top of each others
this one is so special
special in the sense tt the WHOLE building fell down in ONE WHOLE PIECE
including the slender "sticks" tt stick into the ground
which is the foundations!!!

foundations good, building normally will stand firmly on the ground
but this one
i also dun know why
slender sticks still attached the building and basically was "uprooted" and fell laying on the ground ma chiam its sleeping like tt

hehehe
so funny
why like this?
i also dun know
whose fault?
engineer? AC? PE? QP? or contractor? or act of god?
hm.....the relevant authories will have to a thorough investigation before we know what exactly happened

ANOTHER LOSER

what happened when u tells someone tt u will do 1
but ended up not doing it and u did 2
and then when u r being questioned, u just said "ok. its my fault"

wtf!!
of course, ur fault lah
if u promised to do something and did not do it
u mean others have no rights to be angry or even asked u why u did not do as promised?
instead of apologising u still want to push the blame away
knn
and then insisted tt that someone is trying to find a quarrel?

omg!
what is this world becoming to........
*shake head*
*speechless*

BIG LOSER

had a very bad dinner experience just now
little one and i were having dinner and watching show in the dining area
mama in the back with her radio on
and my dad was like "being irritating" making some stupiak noise

so i told him "can u pls stop being irritating and stop tt noise? mama is listening to radio behind and i am trying to watch the show, and i cannot hear"
and he came with a remark "u ownself bad mood dun say ppl"
and then i told him "whats there got to do with bad mood? and who said i am in a bad mood?"
and he came back with " why must u shout?"
and i replied " i am not shouting. i am just telling u. pls stop being irritating. and u r being unreasonable"
and then next he pointed his MIDDLE finger at me and told me "u see ur face? and u tell me u r not in a mad mood? u raise ur voice. and u better stopped it"
and me being me, i also not "save oil lamp lor" i rebutted him with "pls dun use ur middle finger and point at at me. "

he bloody pork
bang the table and pointed his POINTED finger at me and told me to "U BETTER SHOUT UP"
he stood up and i was ready to let him slap me across the face
try laying a finger on me........ inside myself i dared him

come on!!
he is really SOMETHING WRONG UP there
not tt i dun repsect him
i respects my parents ok
afterall i cannot choose whose my parents should be
its all fated
and i accepted it
TRUE FACTS
( from the bottom of my heart)
and frankly, i did not shout or raise my voice
and what's wrong with my face? he gave it to me de
he and mum!
u think i can complained?
if i can, i would have gone for plastic surgery way back then.........
oh pls......he think he very handsome??
*faint*
=)

anyway, my mum intervened and told me to stop it
and i told my mum "he is unreasonable. he ASSUMED tt i am in a bad mood when the fact is he is making a din, and i cannot hear the tv.
and then my mum said "let him be lah. he always want to win de. then just keep quiet."
so i kept quiet lor
and then my mum kana from dad
he went "i think u also better keep quiet too. u siding with her. u think i dun know. u also think tt i am in the wrong rite?"
and my mum went "oh pls. she is just telling u. she also never shout or raise her voice. just becoz she said something u dun like to hear, u said she is shouting"
and he blasted my mum for always siding with us and he noticed it just tt he did not want to bring it up
and my mum told him off said tt he always like this de. want to win. ppl just comment something and if he dun like he will said ppl wrong ppl this and that. she said she was mopping the floor behind and she dun even think tt i was shouting or raising my voice.....blah blah blah

LOSERS being LOSERS
he actually made a very hurting remark
" i think u better get married and get out of this house. U and YOUR SISTER. better both get married and get out of this house. dun give me any more problems"
wtf
ccb
nb
tl
ll
ak
bk
f***ing hell
its so hurting!!!
so bloody hurting
though i know he is a LOSERs but its still hurting

i mean am i giving them or him any problem since my D??
i dun think so
except for maybe the embrassment or even the stress
but u think i am happy myself
=(

WHATEVER!!
loser!!

as usual, me being me
i replied him "this has nothing to do with marriage lor"
and i turned and continued to watch my tv
frankly speaking, if "I AM A PROBLEM" then just tell me lor, i can just shift out on my own
no big deal
but since got a house, wh0 wants to move out rite?
why waste the money....then in the first place dun asked me to come home lor.....dun tell me "the house door always open for u"
if so difficult, then dun say it...afterall why bother when u dun even mean it

he got mad and got up and left the table and proceed to the living room with his food and ate his dinner there!!

fine!!!
he can sit there quietly and eat his dinner watching whatever show he wants to
and i can watch my tv in peace

but i tell u lor
being head strong, i definitely will not forget this incident today
if, IF, ever, one day i do get marry
i am very sure i won't invite him
not angry words or being a loser too
but i think he dun deserve to come
after all, the only reason he wants to see me marry off is becoz "I AM GIVING HIM SO MUCH PROBLEMS"

PERIOD!!

你的承诺/ 我的回忆不是我的

chinese version

你答应我的我都记得
但是你却忘了你的承诺
不是说好彼此都不再联络
谁都别再犯错

是我的固执让你难过
但是分手却也无法选择
我走了以后你要好好生活
不要想我也别再哭了

canto version

当晚与你记住蒲公英
今晚偏偏想起风的清劲
回忆不再受制于我 我承认
回忆也许你的

当晚与你记住流水声
今晚站在大地自己倾听
难道送别你 回头总是虔诚
谁能怪我 总是太感性

Saturday, June 27, 2009

APPRECIATE NITE

went for co's appreciation nite dinner at suntec just now
i tell u lor
must have got a tight budget
NOTHING is nice

the programme sucks!!!
not much games
and the games suck too!!

the food!!
sigh
too salty
8 course dinner
and no SHARKFIN!!!
ok ok
i not hard up for sharkfin anyway

the sound system was like WTF
really CMI
i am gg deaf by the second lor
sigh

what appreciation?
dun see any

anyway, i was LATE
hahaha
left home at 7pm, reached the venue at almost 8pm
everybody has settled in lor
EVERYBODY
meaning the VIPs too

hahaha
so i guessed, i WAS the VIP!!!

should have not gone lor
stayed home and nua better
now i have the "buzzing" noise ringing in my ears
BOTH OF EARS lor

not worth it!!
pui

DEPRESSED

dear messaged me while on the way out just now
he won't be back tomolo
WAAAAAAAAaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!
sob sob
=(

he is still on waiting list for the monday flight home.......
WHY LIKE THIS................

gg into depression stage now..........

ENOUGH OR NOT

believe it or not
the whole day, tv was showing MJ's past MVs, MTVs, shows tt he appeared in, prize giving ceremonies, his reports, whatever, whatever
re run after re run
min after min
sec after sec
hour after hour
buay ta han.......
really!!!
=(

so when is it enough huh?

GROW GROW GROW

met with the girls last evening
ping looked skinny though 4 months plus
dun seemed to put on top much weight
good or bad i dun know
she said she kept vomitting
sigh
reminds me of tt ex coll in JCPL
she also thin thin one
thru out her preggie term, she only has a slight bump shown
dun say also nobody knows tt she is preggie lor
but baby popped out also healthy healthy lor
so i guess should be normal
as long as doc said baby growing well and is healthy, mama also healthy
all tt matters rite??!!??

remind me in future, DUN TAKE BUS......
almost want to be merlion last evening on way home......omg
should have took a cab........ =(
i came home and kun immediately after taking my bath......
cmi

HE'S GONE......

he's gone, he's gone
u know it, he's gone.........
he REALLY gone.......

=((
boo boo

the "black or white" is gone........
gone bad.........
sigh

50yrs old......
staging a comeback after all the boo boo
but before he can do it........
kua kua kua

bye bye michael jackson.......
they will miss u........*ahem* but not me.......
duh
>.<

HE'S GONE

Wednesday, June 24, 2009

QUITE TEMPTED

was in short few mins sms session with esther today
apparently i saw something which might interest her in the webby and so i started the 1st sms
and it turns out tt both of us saw the same post in the webby
*beam beam*
beauties with great minds think alike........what to do.... >.<

in short, she had already submitted her application
and i told her abt another post which interest me.........VERY MUCH
few mins of persuasion and i still at lost........

should i or should i not..........
*ponder*
hm.........

should not:-
1) dear asked me before "how long more u want to hop?"
2) dear said "everywhere the same"
3) i promised myself to stay thru my 2 yrs contract here
4) i really dun wish to hop anymore
5) when i was out of job, they offered me one
6) LOCATION!!!

should:-
1) ppl here sucks (not all sucks. but some SUCKS terribly)
2) work sucks!!!! (ppl dun follow procedures and end of the day come and ah ji ah choy)
why bother to set procedures when ppl dun follow
3) kana sabo
4) kana stab
5) $$$$$
6)dun want to miss the chance/opportunity
7) i just want to hop......... hehehe *buay ta han*

quite tempted to u know
told myself just send lah
no need money de
if have, then have
no have, also nothing to lose
but i am not tt hard up for a job now
coz still bearable
and why not give the opportunity to others who REALLY need the job than i do......
*so wei da*
and if its mine, next yr, may, the post might still be available.......cannot run away de........
but i also scare no more le.........
awwww..........
*pull hair*

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

WORTH IT, WORTH IS NOT

today got sneak preview of TRANSFORMERS lor
dear suggested gg to our usual cinema to watch it
i was very tempted to do so lor
but, today got boxercise
and i cannot miss it
coz i already short of 1 lesson to get tt $30 voucher lor
already i need to attend ONE gym one fine day
and if i miss this lesson, i will have to go 2 days of gym

arrgggghhhh
for TRANSFORMERS , not really worth it
>.<
my $30 voucher more worth it
afterall i slogged for 3 months le lor

so in the end, dear concluded and decided tt we shall only watch it next week
which is only when he comes back from his trip.........
awww...........sad
whats wrong with watching it on wed or thur huh??
*scratch head*
must be alot of things to do before he flies off........
better dun disturb him.......

last nite i watched his back when he did his work SERIOUSLY
i think he so handsome leh
hehehe
*fa chun* again.......
i really think and believes tt man seriously at work is a handsome man.......
*beam beam*

STILL NO WEDDING BELLS

we passed by a green froggie outlet last evening on our way to clementi
then i saw the coin bank which they are gicing away if u spend more than $20??

and i told dear "hey! come here eat with ur colls leh, then get tt coin bank. we will save money in it. once full we can......."
M: pop baby!!
D: get marry!!
chey!! looks like we not on same frequency

then i looked at him and he looked at me
D: wow! u mean u can dun get marry and pop baby first?
M: pls lor. now the trend is not to get marry. its to pop baby. u never read the story abt Ms I Leung and the HK richest tycoon' son meh? one 21 and the other 42. popped baby but no marriage lor. the ms leung said she wants to pop baby but not to get marry.
D: ya lor. i did not know this story. until i heard my colls chatting. maybe hor, want to DNA first then get marry
M: dun think so lor. he is the 1st grandson lor. GRANDSON ok. the ah gong so happy. and the ms leung was instructed no work for the next 10 yrs lor. got house got money. all she needs to do is to take care of the baby
D: u mean the sons nobody pop baby meh? this is the 1st one meh?
M: how i know? but apparently this is the 1st grandson lor. ah gong named the grandson lor. now she is the envy of all the women in HK lor. richest tycoon in HK leh. no joke lor
D: its a son lor. if its a daughter different story le. the girl also smart lah. dun get marry she can always claim tt the baby is hers.
M: u think the "lee family" will allow her to claim the baby like that meh?
then conversation abt ms I leung ended and i went:- "so hor. u quickly go buy tt coin bank ok. then we can start to save money le."
and tt cheeky old man went "ok. i go change $100 into 1cents."
M: dun think can fill the coin bank lor. and 1 cents still in use meh? nobody use le
D: tts the thing. dun want it to be filled
WA KAO!! diam diam. gave him a nasty look
D: ok. why not we save $1 instead
M: $1 also not enough lor. dun know save how long. anyway, u go buy first lah
D: dun want to buy. hahaha
WA KAO!!
just "Fu yan" me........mei li mao!!
T______T
duh

few days ago, dear and i were talking
then he mentioned tt the boss has a 2 yrs old daughter
and i went "huh? how old is ur boss?"
"42"
"wa kao!!! old man leh. 42 then have baby. how to run after her? lao gor gor liao lor"
and dear looked at me "old meh?"
and i went "ya. old"
and he went "but when i have my own children, i will also be ard tt age"
kua kua kua
so he is trying to tell me he wants to be father only when he is 42
but then, how old he wants to work until hor if his children still so young?
and frankly speaking, how to run after the kids?
i mean.........cannot imagine
*shake head*

so anyway, yesterday i continued the conversation
and asked him" btw, how old is ur boss's wife huh? must be young rite? if not how to run after the girl"
and dear said "dun know."
and i went "if his wife young young one, still ok lor. his wife can run after the kid. but if old one, same age as him, i think can forget it lah. both ur boss and wife will nudged each other to go run after child"
then dear went "so u telling me to get a young wife is it?"
and i went "ya. seriously. no joke. if not how? how to run? many things cannot do. i cannot imagine"
dun u agree???

anyway to cut long story short, i actually suggested him to get a filipino wife....hahaha
why?
becoz they can cook, do foot reflex, do massage, be a maid, give birth, be a nurse (and they are very good at it) multi task lah. basically.....why not good? good rite?
idea too rite.........
>.<
duh
told me "i will consider"
bah!!!

SAD FRIDAY, HAPPY SUNDAY

dear gg to fly off on fri
gg on business trip
dun ask me where
coz i also dun know hehehe
can't be bother

so sad tt he is flying away lor
where got mood to ask him where he gg
=((
gg to see some very impt structure
dread to see him fly........sigh
but what to do? its work

he be back either on sunday or monday
so i am FREE!!!!
muahahhahaa

sat got co's D&D
so sunday can nua to death if he is only coming back on monday
if he is coming back on sunday, then i will have to go pick him up from the airport.........
=))
if he is coming back on monday, i also can go pick him up
hahaha
>.<
either way also can pick him up
so happy
=)

NUA DAY

cleared my off in lieu for vesak day yesterday
supposing wanted to clear with dear
but hor, this time round, we cannot find a date which both of us are able to make it together
so in the end, he told me to take on any day which i want to

so i took on monday after the father's day celebration
brought mama and little one out to bugis
went to the new shopping centre

seriously, nothing to see
its very huge and has ample space
but hor, the shops nothing much to see lor
in my own humble opinion
=))
they should try to beef up the place
with what i have no idea
maybe food outlets??
no mac no kfc no bk no long john, no nothing
sigh
the food hor, all the abit high side de.
slightly higher than fast food
but hor, the crowd not right lor

bugis is young crowd lor
so u want to target young crowd, must have fast food outlets de
cannot run one
anyway, whatever, that's the mgt's problems how to lure the crowd, as for me, i have my own set of problems lor

anyway, i managed to go take the programme for the cruise
decided to go for the redang one
VIRGO travel free with one paying A
hehehe
=))
dear promised to go ( when i asked he immediately said ok)
but i need him to check his calendar before i book.........dun want to be disappointed lor
*beam beam*
decided to go on aug...........


met dear for dinner though
but before tt decided to meet up with esther
as dear said not to meet him too early and i have not met up with esther for a long time
need to catch up lor

i tell u lor
"horrible" seemed to recognise me leh
he "meowed" when he saw me leh
and when i sat on the chair, he came and rubbed himself on my leg
hehehe
esther said my jeans must have touched some dog or cats
but i told her "THIS IS NEW PACK OF JEANS LOR. got wash de. fresh from the drawer" hehehe
"horrible" simply loved me lor

i think he slimmed down alot
but esther said no leh
if have ample time (coz esther also meeting her hubby for dinner) i will surely go to the kitchen and feed "horrible" till esther gave me a good one
hehehe
>.<>.<)
then i asked dear "but ppl also like u rite?"
and he replied "nobody likes me. coz i always scold ppl and made a lot of noise"

hm........dun be sad dear, most impt i love u........
=))
steady bo.....

SABO TIME

some one bad mouthed some one
and someone got to know of it
without finding out herself, someone decided tt "THAT IS IT"
and a verdict was given upon someone

sigh.........
why huh?
i mean why bad mouthed someone?
*shake head*
move on mah......talk so much also no use de
really
no words to describe how i feel
coz hor, i "ba" liao
really
to me, as long as it does not harm me, or its not directed at me, i am fine with it
but hor, if its come "find tea" with me
then i tell u, tt's it
fight till the end..........

really sabo lor
dun come tell me "this is feedback. feedback is good. must treat it positively"
to me, sabo is sabo
backstab is backstab

GO WHERE??

overheard this conversation b/w 2 ladies on my way home just now
passed them while they were waiting for the lift at the void deck

L1: how come some floors have 2 buttons de. here only have 1 har?
L2: of course lah. this is the 1st floor wat. can only go up. so only 1 button mah
L1: but why other floors got 2 leh?
L2: other floors can go up and can come down. we already at 1st floor. can only go up mah. go down go where?
*kua kua kua*
but L1 did not gave up, she still insist why no 2 buttons...........
*shakehead*

do u know why??

Monday, June 22, 2009

WAKE UP CALL




today after the dim sum buffet
dear and i went ecp for fishing
we bought some love prawns as bait
and in the end we left with 7 prawns
and as we were not tt hungry, dear said we will cook the prawns with garlic as dinner
i am fine with the idea as long as he is happy
afterall, i am not hungry


along the way
he told me "either u take care of the prawns or u take care of the garlic"
and i went "but i dun know how to. u got to tell me"
and he went " u have to do something if not u dun eat"
and i was like huh? wtf. must tell me what to do mah. dun expect me to know what to do lor


anyway, when we got home, in the lift he reminded me again tt if i dun cook, i will have no dinner
then i told him, "but its always u cook, i wash up mah"
anyway, when we were in the kitchen, he told me to go take my bath first
while he dealt with the prawns
so off i went and after my bath, he told me to "remove the skin of the garlic"
i dun know how to do it. so i asked him
he taught me how to do it and within seconds, i removed all the skin lor
while i was doing tt, his auntie asked me "sy, do u know how to cook?"
and i went "no"
frankly speaking, who doesn't know how to cook? everybody does lor. its only a matter of nice or not? edible or not? got ppl want to eat or not lor.
and his auntie went "oh, poor boy. next time he has no food to eat"
and i went 'well, he just have to find his own food lor"
i mean, got hands, got legs, got mouth lor. sure can find food de lah
then his auntie continued with "well, u also need to eat rite?"
and i just diam diam lor
u know what i mean
i dun want to argue too much
as i said who doesn't know how to cook. its just a matter of nice or not, edible or not, got ppl want to eat or not lor........
anyway, case closed when dear replied "no worries, i will go my mistress house"
steady rite

next he told me i got to chop up the garlic to very fine pcs
so what i did?
my intention was to cut the garlic up first then chop them to finer pcs later
then he grumbled tt he needs it in smaller pcs lor
oh come on!! cannot wait awhile meh?
i also trying my best
anyway, after chopping up the garlic, i further chopped them into finer pcs
dear then used the chopper and continued from where i stopped
then he mixed the garlic with the sauce which he prepared earlier while i washed up the knives, the chopping board, the bowl and the spoon and whatever
then he said "u want maggi noodle u got to cook urself"
and i went "fine. dun need the noodle not tt hungry"
and he was persistant tt i have to cook my own noodle if i want "coz i am not gg to cook for u"
so i told him if i am hungry i can always cook my own noodle when i reached home later
and he said why i cannot cook at his place why must go home then cook. whats the difference?
and i told him no difference just tt i dun need the noodle now as i am not hungry
case closed when he replied "ok. i gg to bath now"
i was instructed to watch the fire while he bath
when he came out from the toilet he told me "hey! u want noodle? i can cook for u if u want"
and my answer remained as "no"
not tt i am stubborn or wat
but since in the first place, he did not want to cook, then why bother to cook now rite?
and i also dun need the noodle lor
within mins the prawns are cooked lor
we sat down and had the prawns for our dinner
frankly speaking, it was yummy
DELICIOUS!!
dearest mummy had cooked some rice earlier
so he said we can have rice instead of noodle
but frankly, i dun need the rice
anyway, it set me thinking
i dun think i will be a good wife in future..........really
seriously, i always thought tt i will be a good wife. a good house maker
but tonight made me realised tt i am not and guessed i will not......
though practise made perfect
but i know i will not........
perhaps dear should really go look out for one who can cooks, do housework and be a good house maker, help him "open flower spread the leaves".......think this person will not be me........
i am totally unqualified........
so terrible hor.....
suddenly my dream of being a full time housewife just burst rite infront of me
something which i dreamt of, think of and breathe of.......suddenly no longer belongs to me.........
perhaps being an ignorant person will really makes me a happy person.........
too bad i know too much, think too much
time to wake up

BABY BOOM

read one of the headlines in yahoo news just now
many couples planning to get marry during the economic downtown
but is it really good news??

i mean sure, many couples gg to get marry
but does tt mean it will solve the problem on the nos of babies tt singaporeans are producing???

economic downtown does not mean tt ppl will want to be preggie lor
i mean popping out a baby need lots of $$$
not just for their popping out, but their upbringing, eg. childcare, nanny, education, ecas, etc etc
no joke de lor

so getting marry during the economic downturn, in my own humble opinion, will not solve the problem on the need for baby boom.........
imagine, when the economic is good, why ppl dun pop babies
whats make u so sure tt downturn is a good time to pop??? and they will pop??
not like making poop lor. its pop babies......

SEE STARS

i read in the papers
tt this ang mo went to the tatoo shop to get tatoo on her face

she wanted 3 stars to be tatooed on her face and ended up with 56 big and small stars!!!!
omg!!!
frankly speaking, who in their right minds will want to tatoo on their face!!
i mean, imagine now 1/2 of her face is "tt's it!!!"
omfg!!!
and try to imagine further when she is old, and her face skin all wrinkled up and all, can u imagine how the stars will looked like then? i mean, can u still see tt they are stars or freckles?
or worst, if she has pimples or acnes on her face, wa kao!! the stars will only make the whole face looked complicated lor......
poor thing........
how to go for interviews or get a job!!!???!!??
imagine ur potential employers see ur star studded face........really will have second thoughts
but i guess will depend on what job u interviewing for.......

she is now suing the tatooist coz she claimed tt she did not agreed to have 56 stars on her face
but the tatooist claimed tt she agreed to have 56 stars on her face

well, now who is seeing stars!!!
T_______T

COMPATIBLE??



was telling honey tt i am trying to find a dress (not any normal dress ok. must be for multi occasion de) so tt dear has something in his closet to match me when we attend 2 wedding dinners later in the yr.........
and when i asked her "any problem b/w u and eric? got problem to find matching clothings as in "lover's clothings"
i think her reply very steady lor
she told me "dun need to. whatever we wear, ppl will said tt we are compatible"
omg!! steady rite.......
so old man and me looked compatible??
why i keep leaning to his side huh.........hm.........no wonder looked a bit odd

HAPPY FATHER's DAY




sharkfin soup with truffles and shredded abalone............


peking duck............






see, tiny weeny pc of peking duck..........good thing is they removed the fatty stuff under the skin for u le........healthy....



abalone with flowery mushroom.............



cold dish combination...... duck, char siew and the baby octopus......



another cold dish combination......yucks!! not to my liking....



the little one enjoying her abalone......yum yum but not the mushroom



salmon sashimi..........need to order 3 times before everyone is satisfied.........



cod fish.......ordered thrice.......apparently i did not eat any..... dun like fish....



sea cucumber



fried prawns with wasabi....very yummy!!! not spicy at all



siew mai......har gou did not managed to turn up well in the photos.... sigh...



monkey head mushroom......"gung po style"




monkey head mushroom with wasabi.........in the end, all liked the monkey head mushroom fried with sliced ginger.....

mini egg tarts with caramel on top....something unusual




chicken claws..........also ordered 3 times......shared among dad, mum and dear



now u see it.......



now u dun......reduced to bones.........


dessert time!!!!



mine!! honey dew with sago..........very powdery.... in my own humble opinion........not to my liking.........


total damage = $408 for 5 A and 1 child below 12........
asked dear which is nicer
the peach blossom or jiang nan chun
and he told me both the same except that here has the abalone and sharkfin
other than tt, its the same........
so to say, i am actually also paying for the abalone and sharkfin though they claimed its COMPLIMENTARY.........
=((
end of the day, as long as everybody is happy.......so be it......

HAPPY MOTHER's DAY

the buffet spread (right side)
the buffet spread (left side)




there goes the fondue....into my tummy.........

complimentary glass of wine.........(red or white). mothers got flower and also an umbrella.......sister said i should also be qualified for the flower and umbrella....( abit offended though but what the heck)

oysters!! very limited......they had to keep replenishing the oysters coz it came out like eg. 50 on the plate and then once all gone.....they will replaced with another plate of 50.....

the orea cheezecake which i find it so so nia.....starsbuck better anytime........ choco fondue with grape........

just realised tt i did not blogged abt dinner at THE GALLERY HOTEL during MOTHER'S DAY!!
it was actually sister's treat (i did not forked out a single cent)
hehehe
>.<
i just showed up and eat eat eat.........
=))
though the selection of the buffet were very limited
but for tt kind of price....(think its $2X...less than $30)....who can ask for more??

GROW GROW GROW

erm....from day 1, still nothing despite tender, loving, care.....
decided to try with a new pot...... pls grow..........

got something...... =)

still nothing...... =((

armour the kapo dog seeeing what we were busy in the room doing........
ta da!! we bought a trough......to "transplant" the one and only seedling......


at its new home..... =)) grow grow grow.........
this was a very very bad dated update lor
the seedling has since grown up!!
but alas, dear confirmed tt its not sunflower.........its chilli plant.........
sigh
what the heck!!

Friday, June 19, 2009

WHAT CAN I DO??

my girl called me today

she is supposed to be on leave (today is her 1st day of her 1 week leave)

i knew something was wrong when she asked me "sy r u convenient to talk now"

sigh

when i told her yes........it just opened the flood gate



apparently she was quite upset tt promotion by passed her

she said she is not vying for the promotion but more on the $$$

frankly speaking who isn't rite?

(at least i am)

she said her pay has been frozen for the past 3 yrs

and when she realised tt she did not get the promotion letter, she was very sad

esp when her peers came and asked her abt it and to make things worst, they have and she dun have



she felt tt she has done far more stuff than her peers

so why her peers have and she does not

she even claimed tt someone promised to push her up and apparent it was not the case



and to make me feel bad

she kept asking me "why why why?"

i mean, how could i know? i am also new here

and moreover her promotion not by me

*ahem*



i really dun know how to comfort ppl

so i told her to dun think so much and go enjoy her holiday

when she comes back then we talk futher

and let me find out on my side as i also dun know what happened

she told me how can she dun think abt it or be able to enjoy her holiday

when ppl ard her gotten the promotion except her



seriously speaking, i dun know how to break the news to her

true, she did alot of things

but compared to others, she does not have the initiative and she needs "pushing"

i do agreed sometimes she can made me vomit blood (esp when i am pressing for time)

but she can do her work IF given MORE TIME!!!!

so i did talked to senior before tt perhaps she should work ard her instead of expecting her to do something

know her strength and then build it up and her weakness too........

but senior's expectation is different

sigh........

there's nothing i can help her



i dun want to promise her anything

as i have no confidence tt i can fulfil it

afterall, how long would i be here......



but it just made me feel so sad tt my girl is sad........

=(

NATURAL HOT SPRING

just realised tt "onsen" means natural hot spring
used to have an ex coll by this name
does tt mean she is a natural hot spring.......
hm.....
*ponder*

Thursday, June 18, 2009

STIFF NECK

NB
kana stiff neck
not supposed de lor
i got an expensive pillow lor
must be boxercise class
arrggghhhhhhhh
cannot turn right, left, up and down
damn pain.........
bloody pork

nb turtle

SABO AGAIN!!

was gg thru the draft
then i heard "i followed sy's format" blah blah blah
followed by "i dun think this is good. should be like this?"
and then "yes. i also dun like this format. X also using sy's format. i told her to amend" blah blah blah
and then i started to boil inside le
next moment "this one i did not follow sy's format. i did this. is it ok?"
"yes. this is so much better. good u got initiative"
and then blood boils more!!!!

in the first place, that was NOT my format
i came on board, the project was given to me
and so i where got do??!!??
*blur*
so its NOT my format, i wished to reiterate

i mean i dun mind she said tt the project was mine but must emphasis tt was not done by me
but dun said until ma chiam its mine!!

sigh
anyway, whatever
i made a blunder yesterday
so it already reflected badly on me

but i told myself
NO MORE NEXT TIME
sabo once, is i dun know
sabo twice, is i asked for it lor
no more third time
>.<
duh

not gg to forward her anything
what also "i dun have"

WHY NO HAVE?

yesterday some of the staff were given an envelope
*beam beam*
of course, u friend, ME, dun have lor
but its ok
afterall i am newbie...

so as usual, ppl happy, ppl sad, ppl delighted, ppl angry
happy, sad and delighted can be understood
but why be angry
i mean why be angry that someone has the envelope and u dun have
unless the person dun deserved it
but if he does not then why he got it in the first place
boss is blind??

still feel tt whatever it is
must be graceful lor
why made a scene
i mean, in front of all other colls, THRASHED IT OUT WITH BOSS???!!??!!
made a din and fuss
omg!
*slap forehead*

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

UNFORGIVEN

sigh
made a blunder at work today
i really cannot forgive myself for tt
its looked like a simple and small mistake
but to me its very BIG

i mean after 13 yrs in this line and yet still make such a mistake
how can!!
felt so terrible after tt
i mean, i really cannot accept the fact tt i can made such a mistake

i was asked "what happened? why like this? did u check?"
i went "i did highlight but i think i am at fault too. i did not do a thorough check"
and i tell u, i meant every word i said

so what's so big deal rite
well, i gotten the name of the co wrong!!!
omg! omfg!!
and so what? name wrong nia mah
tts the problem lor.
name wrong how to proceed to the next step.........arrrgggghhhhhh!!!!!
si bei nb ccb lor
=(
i really cannot forgive myself.......

i was then asked "why like this? is it becoz too complacent"
kua kua kua
i always dun think i am VERY good
but i will try my best to do what is assigned to me........
this time round.......mistake learnt
but....but........but........how can i made such a mistake......

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

ON OR OFF??

the status is FB has changed.........
sigh
game over???

SI BEI SHAGGED

i am so the very shagged
have missed 2 lessons
and now i am si bei CMI

so will i join the next sem???!!!?
can i dun...........arrrggggggggghhhhhhhhhh

coz i did not clock in the 30pts for 3 months
i need to go for 2 extra gym lessons
if not, i lugi the $30 voucher!!

arggggggggggghhhhhhhh

WHY ME!!!
=((

Monday, June 15, 2009

MULTI OCCASSION DRESS

went window shopping today after work
wanted to get a dress
a multi occasion dress........

hehehe
u know me
very cheapo de
esp hor, how often do i get to dress up formally??

what's my hidden agenda?
its to get a dress for 3 different occasions
1) Co's d&D
2) al's wedding
3) zhuang's wedding

since all 3 occasions are formal de, its easy to find a formal dress
so its a matter of whether can find one dress to fits all occassions and then into the "cold palace" till one fine day >.<

i saw a green flowery dress at fountaina(not sure abt the spelling)
halter neck design
almost wanted to test it out
but then realised tt dear might not have a green top to match me
=(
so decided not to buy it unless bo pian

then i saw the black tonga dress which we saw at square2 the other night
think it might not be appropriate for the weddings
sigh
texted dear and he told me can still wear
told him abt the green flowery top, he actually replied me with "i have flowery top. hehehe"
*faint*
told him to show it to me on sat before i decide to buy it or not

have applied to take my off in lieu next monday
if its approved, i will bring the little one out with me on monday to bugis and cityhall
=))
she has better taste than me
she sure will find something for me
*beam beam*
and the d&d is on 27th......

NO HAVE

was informed early this month tt we will have 2 new coll
one early june the other late june
already coming to july lor
no news
kana cheated again
tmd!!
=(

GLUTTON

wanted to catch a movie on sat
went to newton for dinner then off to orchard cine
i tell u lor
so crowded and worst no movie to watch
sigh
all the available time slots are at 11 plus (early time slots one all sold out)
so what we gg to do from 7 plus to 11 plus
walk ard orchard road, i will die lor
so final decision was to go home..............

on our way out of the bldg, we saw many youngsters dressed up as manga characters and taking neo prints
i was like "wah!! like tt u also dare to leave ur house?"
i mean, they are really INTO the characters lor
full gear
nothing is spare ok
from the hair to the shoes
omg!!
youngsters today so UNBELIEVABLE!!
ok ok
dun want to be seen as a mountain turtle
but frankly, i very long no go orchard road le.........*shake head*

on way back, dear asked whether want to try our usual cinema
i said ok afterall still early
i tell u lor, we went in circles looking for a lot and could not find one lor
so in the end, i decided "its fated lah. dun watch movie le. we go novena walk walk blow air con"
and off we went

the moment, we reached there, i went to get bubble tea!!
hehehe
the usual stall
*beam beam*
dear's fruity smoothie sour plum was YUCKY!! ( dun attempt to try)
but mine traditional pearl milk tea was FABULOUS!!

anyway, we roamed ard aimlessly
and came across this shop where ppl book a little corner to play x box or wii
steady rite?
$5 per hour..... cheap cheap lor
they even organised for corp events, team building, whatever
even have packages for u to choose from
not bad for a small business.....
will such business last long? i dun know
but since there is a craze now, must ride on the tide.....

then we saw the green frog rest
dear said want to eat the fish head
so popped we went inside, sat down, ordered the green tea and the chawamushi from the waitress
and then while clicking the monitor, realised tt the fish head "OUT OF STOCK"
wa kao!!
then why are we there??
so no choice lor
dear said since ordered the chawamushi le, so must wait for it to come
dear decided to order the fried salmon
1/2 hr later, the dish came but no chawamushi
dear told me to ask for it, said the auntie must still be beating the egg
i told him could be the hen got constipation, still cannot lay the eggs
and i told him "if it did not come, dun eat lor"

we decided tt we will not come to this outlet anymore
really cmi
the food is lousy
dear said the manpuka(dun know how to spell) in TAMPINES 1 is so much better and also far more cheaper and they are generous with the fish head portion....
after dear finished his "yucky" order, we asked for the bill
the lady said "ur chawamushi?"
and dear said "we did not eat"
and i went "it did not come"
and she looked at us and then said "i go kitchen and take for u now"
and i told her "no need le. i dun want it"
she very good lor, she still insisted tt she go take for me
and i just told her bluntly "i really dun want it any more"
she said ok and apologised
frankly speaking, "sorry green frog. we not patronising this outlet again.... so is the one at suntec.... we only gg to marina square one"
total damaged $5.......lol
should have asked for compensation lor. FOC.....anyway, whatever
lousy place

after a lousy meal, we roamed ard square2
went to this meat shop at the top level
i tell u lor
1/2 an alaska crab selling at $160 lor
told dear to buy and we go home eat he told me "u got money rite? u buy"
*chey*

shops started to close ard 9 plus
so with nothing much to see
we left square 2 and head home
the moment, we reached home, dear played his pc game and watched his online taiwan ou xiang qu (the one which starred zai zai) and i was like as usual, fell asleep
hrs later, dear woke me up "hey! time for supper"
and off we went to the coffee shop near his place for a bowl of fishball noodle .........
hehehe

wonder why we kept eating on sat...hm.........*ponder*

JIANG NAN CHUN

i made a reservation for this coming sun for buffet dim sum at JIANG NAN CHUN - 4 seasons hotel
so happened its FATHER's DAY
and so happened someone was bugging to have dim sum (ya. AGAIN!!!)

adult - $63+++
kids (below 12) - $37+++
i am gg to go "pok" again
but if its nice, its definitely worth it!!

so happened tt JNC is having abalone dim dum buffet for the month of june
and i thought the whole menu has abalone lor ( and the little one sure likes it de)
upon clarification, only 1 abalone per person with flowery mushroom, 2 pcs of peking duck and one bowl of sharkfin soup (complimentary) and the rest u choose from the menu unlimited servings. 100 over items. and of course free flow of juices and chinese tea
worth the price? i dun know yet. let u know after this coming sunday.....

but i do think sure got some standard de
recommended by KS. so how low standard can it be for someone so choosy and fussy like him..
>.<

but dad wanted something else
he wants to go to a coffee shop in geylang to have his dim sum
anyway, he has till 19th to tell me (he still haven tell me) coz the guy told me if i want to cancel the reservation, i can do so on 19th.

i asked the guy "sorry, but since its father's day, do u have anything for fathers?"
and he went " huh? sorry madam, we dun have"
"oh, i went. i am just asking. coz last month we went elsewhere for mother's day and all the mothers were given a stalk of rose and free umbrella. but its ok. fathers won't want flowers rite"
and he was very smart lor he went "oh madam. currently we dun have such promotion but who knows on father's day, the rest might come out with something. we never know"
*arm chio*
u think i 3 yrs old kid meh? sure no have de lor
what u want to give? pen? wallet? voucher?

SHA BU SHA BU

D: what u want to eat for dinner?
M: now then asked, just now i asked u, u said go home mama will be cooking, so i no think. now u think
D: u better tell me what u want to eat lor. if i decide, u will regret
(actually i knew tt he will want to eat the fish head steamboat lor)
M: ok lah. i let u decide so i won't regret de. u decide lor
D: sure huh? once i decide u dun regret
M: ok lah
D: then we go eat the fish head steamboat which we saw last evening
M: ok

while driving there, dear asked me "what if its crowded?" (coz yesterday when we drove passed, it was very crowded)
i replied " then we go eat other things lor"
"eat what?"
"like the mutton soup? last resort we eat mac"
"ok"

and off we go
the fish head steamboat has a long q
so dear said forget it
then we decided to go to the mutton soup shop
couldn't find a parking
after gg in circles, we managed to find a lot 3 lanes down the road

and i tell u, this mutton soup shop
very nice
of course, the moment u step into the shop, u can smell the mutton lor
very strong smell
but after u drink the soup, i tell u lor
NICE
SUPERB!!
yum yum
and its good for ur skin....(tts what the guy told us)

and hor.... hehehe
i had my 1st sha bu sha bu lor
lolz
but in mutton style........
no camera so no photos to show
but dear said not to worry coz "WE SHALL BE BACK"

we ordered the set for 2. cost us $38
comes with 3 types of veg, 1 sha bu sha bu, 6 tou fu, 4 fresh meat wanton, tung hoon, the mutton dun know what, and the mixed internal organs, and dessert.......and i tell u lor, they not stingy de, they very generous with their portion
dear dun want the mixed internal stuff and they actually allowed us to change to the mutton dun know what.... should have exchanged it for the sha bu sha bu instead..... yum yum
we did not finished the food though..... hahaha
coz we finished the soup.....>.<
so full
full of water

dear said next week will bring his papa there
then the 3 of us will be able to finish the set for 2
and then his papa can go to work and we go watch our movie...
its a date!!

Friday, June 12, 2009

DUN KNOW AND WANT DUN CARE

today someone was very upset at work
but since i have decided tt i will bo chap everything tt happened outside of my cubicle and not at my level, i decided to diam diam and not "action"
BUT i did asked A 3rd party what exactly happened
then after i found out what happened, i just diam diam sit in my cubicle and continue to do my work till time to go home

seriously, its a small matter
why blown out of proportion i have no idea
one cried and the other got angry
*speechless*
and i also dun know to care

i dun want to be caught "illegal gathering" and kana again
once is enough
but as i said, if it happened again, i will make sure tt the mother fucker comes out and clarify the accusation face to face with me
really!!
no more ms nice when ppl take advantage of u
pui
sorry mother fucker, but no more gossiping days for u
u better shut the fuck up!!!
LOSER!!

really
i dun understand what do u gain by gossiping abt others or accused others
i mean do u get promoted?
what does it bring u?? GLORY??
bosses will love u more??
i mean wtf lor
ever wonder how the "yuan wang" party will feel?
sigh
i really dun know and i dun want to be involved in such nonsenses
ppl go to work and its for WORK
not to create trouble, problem and pick a fight
just dun understand why some cannot understand such simple logic

*shake head*
i am totally speechless
really
anyway, today inccident, i also dun know who is at fault
who right who wrong i dun know and i also dun want to know
just leave me out of this mess
and trouble dun come looking for me, EVER!
period

STUPIAK BELIEVER

ever asked urself this qn "are u a believer or are u a "finder"?

i think i am a finder
i will go find out myself before i condemn something/someone
ppl can say all they want or do but i dun gave a damn until i see it for myself with my OWN VERY EYES or OWN VERY EARS

i realised tt not all are like me
there are ppl who actually CHOOSE to believes what others tell them
despite having "eyes" and yet unable to see the TRUTH

frankly speaking, its none of my business
if u r such a person, i think ur life will be so miserable
really, no joke
losers!!!
duh
>.<
coz u will be so superstitious and over sensitive.........

dun agree??
imagine this :-

A: hey! i saw a grp of ppl gathering hor one fine day and whispering abt u leh
B: is it?
A: ya lor. but i did not hear what they were discussing lah. but sounded very angry like tt
B: is it?
and then deep down inside B, something is building up le and started to let the imagination runs wild and then concluded tt "a grp of ppl" were talking behind his back
without checking or clarifying with "a grp of ppl" B already concluded tt "a grp of ppl" were dis satisfy with him and he thinks he knew who "a grp of ppl" were and confronted them

B: hey! u all hor, W, X, Y and Z, i know u guys have been talking behind my back
"a grp of ppl": *blur look* what r u talking abt?
B: dun think i dun know lor. but if u are unhappy with me just tell me lah. straight in my face no need to talk behind my back de rite?
"a grp of ppl" : we did not lor. why u like this say? or whats make u think so?
B: some one told me tt u guys were talking abt me behind my back and were very angry. so just tell me why angry with me. i am just stating facts lor. not tt i set my own rules. i eliminated the rest coz i feel tt they will not do it
"a grp of ppl" ": dun know who told u but we did not. can even ask tt person to come out and clarify lor." *wtf! so its only based on own prediction and assumption. damn tl*
*sensing tt he might be wrong*
B: its ok lah. since u guys said u did not do it. then lets move on....

so r u B or "a grp of ppl" or .....
worst!! u r "A" the chee by fucker!!
pui....... * show middle finger*

dun u agreed tt B's life will be so miserable if he always CHOOSE to believes and not find out the truth himself??
really brainless i would have to say
like tt how to be happy, everyday also thinking tt ppl is gg against him and have something against him...
besides tt, u not only make life miserable for yourself but others too

Thursday, June 11, 2009

WHAT A COINCIDENCE

today while on the way home, dun know why, i decided to "why not text dear and see whether he recovered from his bad sore throat or not"
and the moment i send out the sms, i recieved 2 texts back!!

can u believe it!!
we actually texted each other at the same time!!!
muahahaha
so steady hor

i find it so romantic leh
hehe
*arm chio*
really
dun know abt u, but i do felt this way
hehe

shows tt he got think of me leh.....

but poor dear
he did not recovered from his bad sore throat in fact he had fever too!!
omg!!!
tts bad....but does tt mean no fishing over the weekends??
hm... *wonder*

HOW MUCH IS YOUR LOVE WORTH??

imagine:-

B: if u loves me then move to TUAS and stay with me.
G: if u REALLY loves me then fork out additional $250K and buy that unit in Orchard Road.
B: If u dun want to move to TUAS then so be it. It's over! its TUAS or Nothing
G: if u dun want to buy tt unit in Orchard Road, then i guessed it over!!
kua kua kua!!

is that how ppl measured their love for each other today??
based on whether u willing to be relocate? based on $$$$??

frankly speaking, can we really measure love in terms of $$$$ and relocation???

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

NEED INSTRUCTION MANUAL

dun know what happened
but i overheard sister's conversation with her friend that "we broke up"

omg!! omg!!
what happened!!
sigh
sister no say, so i also no ask
if she wants to say, then i listen lor

not sure is it she asking for too much or its just over
maybe its the cooling down phase
so both really needs to think abt it

9 months ago, before they got back from shanghai, both talking abt marriage
along the way, buy ring, buy house, buy car, do this, do tt, blah blah blah
and then 9 months later "broke up"
oi
wake up!!
what's is this?

definitely not a game
its a lifetime event
why like this?
really
*speechless*

wonder is there any instruction manual out there on "how to make a r/s works?"
hm........
frankly speaking, why bother to get marry........
enlightenment........
i used to think its a happily ever after ending........but now.....why bother

SHOULD I?

remember i mentioned tt i realised tt many of my sec school mates ( not those whom i always hang out with) are stationed overseas
they dun mind uprooting or maybe temp be stationed there
before calling it quits and come back for good

i am toying and thinking of venturing out
ya, i know
i dun like changes so why i even bother to think abt it

anyway, just think no need money de mah
and then YC told me he has lobangs in Beijing if i am interested............

should i???
*ponder*

SICK

dear is sick
sigh
on 2 days mc........
steady lor
fri go back to show face and end of the week le
>.<
and i am still slogging my life away becoz of some corp excercise
sigh
=(

i personally felt tt the whole excercise is not well planned
all cheong cheong cheong
just to meet dateline
but they never think abt the ppl doing the REAL work
not just use mouth to yak yak yak
sigh

who will understand my misery........... i am also sick
sick of work
hehehe
*evil grin*

Tuesday, June 9, 2009

NO MORE TCM....argh

knocked off at ard 7 today
rushed to see the tcm
tmd its closed!!!
walked ard the interchange to look for another shop
(coz in my memory there seemed to have a few tcm ard)
bloody pork.....
dun have lor
and i lazy to walk to the other end

in the end, took my dinner and then buy the photo album and came back
on the bus then realised tt i forgot to buy hangers!!
arrggghhhh
*pull hair*
bloody pork!!
so absent minded recently......cmi
always cannot remember things........

Monday, June 8, 2009

SO ABSENT MINDED

was told by my facial expert tt i should not be using the foam type of facial wash
coz too dry for me as my skin is already dry
(lack of water)

but becoz the cleaning milk which i bought from the lady no more le
so i went to get one off the rack
but hor, me being the blur sotong, forgotten abt this pc of advise
and went to buy a foam type one lor

and suddenly pop pop pop, many tiny dots popped out on my face
argrggghh
so angry
i went for facial last thur
and realised tt she did not helped me extract the tiny dots
so i smsed her as me being the sotong one forgot to ask her coz i was rushing to go home and meet dear later

anyway, since i suddenly remember abt it
i decided to sms her
and i finally gotten my answer
mystery solved
so tomolo after work, besides gg to see a tcm, i also need to get a cleansing milk lotion for my face
and was told if i diligently washed it, my face will be free from the tiny dots before i know it
=))

now my duty is to wash my face diligently and to moisturise my face.... must let it have many many moisture.......
and hopefully before my next visit, the tiny dots are all gone.......
p.s. nothing to do with my pillow case.........>.<

TCM

i had a bad sleep last evening
despite the lao sai medicine i took, the pain is still here
buay ta han
i sleep and wake up and sleep and wake up
cmi lor

decided to go see the TCM le
no choice
western tell me its the sai, but i just cannot believe it
even dear thinks tt its the sai thingy
sigh

last nite made me decided tt i will go see the TCM
after the class tomorrow, i think will pop by to see
closes at 9pm
think should be able to make it
at least see already more put heart
=)

should have gone to see the tmc doc today after work
since i left on the dot
i thought tt i come back early to sort out the GC's photos
who knows the photo album not enough.....should have check earlier then can go buy a new album
left with not much pages.... arghhh
waste my time again....
=(
but at least i came home early to rest
coz tomolo got a fierce battle to fight

FIXED

its fixed!!
mum helped me fixed the hook back
cozt me $28

do u know tt the broken hook has a resale value too?
muahaha
resale for $10
therefore the repair instead of $38 is $28......
=)

FUMING

dun understand how would u feel if after discussing someone decided to act on his own!!
i mean, after discussion and agreed to go along this line when the final product pops out, its another one....

i was so angry tt i rattled on and on and on to junior
refused to talk to tt bugger
lolz
ok ok
i small gas
but really, if he has his own ways then why bother to discuss with me and then when we agreed on something why do another
might as well he just do his own way lor and he answered for it

we worked as a team not individual lor
if he wants to claim credit then so be it
he goes ahead but dun drag me in
i mean, what is this lor

few smses later issue resolved
i was small gas lah, but i really cannot ta han such behaviour
i only never tell him "if u have ur own idea then why bother to discuss with me"
frankly speaking, if u choose to discuss means u respect each other rite then dun last min choot pattern lor

and when i was trying to explain why i reacted in such a way
he actually replied me "then i chopped off my head lah"
omg!!
u think i bother, u think the bosses bother
come on lor
so childish.......
i am not trying to be difficult or what
wait till he worked directly under somebody then he will be trained like me too
always qn one step ahead......

steady, swee
senior smsed me to clarify
see lor
told u
not tt easy de
any shit tt goes out from us have to be screened and then verified tt its accurate
we are answerable for EVERY SINGLE SHIT
just dun understand why some ppl just dun understand or get it
why just want to make life difficult for others
if being ms nice and kana taken advtanage of, then sorry, no more ms nice......
>.<
u asked for it

Saturday, June 6, 2009

BROKE

the hook on my gold bracelet broke while i was trying on a new top
arggghhhhhh
*pull hair*

something is gg to happen........
damn it

i am not superstitious or wat lor
really
coz got one fine day, the clip on my watch broke and it fell onto the floor and i stepped on the watch lor (bye bye watch) =((
on the same day, i fell down
bloody hell.....

so this time, what is gg to happen???
*waiting*

Friday, June 5, 2009

NOT READY? SO WHEN READY

just wondering when the guys proposed have they ever thought tt the proposal will not be accepted?
i mean what if the reply is "NO" or "i am not ready yet" or "why huh? like this no good meh?" or "i dun want to settle down now"
then how huh?
kua kua kua.....
*cry*

i mean it takes a lot of courage to pop tt qn rite?
of course, u will have thought carefully before u proposed
but hor, how will u know tt the other party will accept? is ready?

i heard a story tt day
not sure did the guy pop the qn or just want to test test
but the girl actually replied "i am not ready to settle down now"
and i was like "huh? waiting for what?"
frankly speaking, the guy is not a bad catch lah
though she did has a few flies flying ard her and the flies knew abt the bf too
also dun know why want to step one leg in.........sigh
but she cannot be still weighing her pros and cons now rite?
i mean she wants to weigh, the guy too can do tt......

anyway, whatever
i am not in any position to comment
just "huh?"
>.<
duh

so actually hor
when tt kind od situation happened, how will the guy react or feel huh??

TO DOC TO DOC....

went to see the doc on tue
did a xray
able to take the results immediately
so back to the poly clinic
and tada.........i got the results

she said the x ray showed tt my kidneys are fine
no stones
but it showed SAI!!

omg!! can u believe it!!!
SAI in x ray!!
*slap forehead*

ok ok
so no stones, kidneys are fine
no worries le
but why the pain

the doc claimed its the sai which caused the back pain
wa kao!!!
think i cukoo or what

anyway, she gave me some medicine to soften the stools
coz she suspected tt i had CONSTIPATION!!
omg!!
how could it be???!!?
constipation for 3 months or so and i did not complain or go see a doc or take the lao sai medicine on my own??? cannot be lor

told her i cannot accept it
but she told me since the x ray showed no stones and only sai
so it must be the sai lor
but but but, i went aust i poo poo everyday
but i still felt the pain so how can be the sai
omg!!

anyway, u know what i did?
since she claimed is the sai rite
so i took the lao sai medicine lor
let it all lao out and see how
but i do believe i will still experience the pain lor

why dun take the medicine doc gave?
coz it only soften the stools lor. take so long
i just want to prove tt the doc is wrong lor
i took the lao sai medicine in the morning
went to toilet twice le
but not sure will it help
but once all flushed out, i think the sai cannot be the reason for my pain lor

we shall all wait and see tonight
let u know tomorrow
>.<

if this also does not work
the next step i will take is to see a chinese physician le
and then after tt still no can help
then i will just let it be........
and pray hard tt it will go off by itself one fine day..............