CRY CRY CRY

someone suggested to me to go shopping
buy things tt i like and i will be happy end of the day
i know i will be happy but the stuff which i eventually bought home, is it what i want?

many yrs ago, i think just tt
spend $300 over and end up with many bags of clothings which i dun need
sigh
and worst, the colour is in BROWN!!!
ya, the clothings which i bought are all in the shades of brown
faint can
i am not at tt age to wear brown yet lor
and then i decided no more shopping when i am not in good mood except to eat
and eat i did
and put on the pounds and then sianz.........
decided no more eating when in no good mood

so now tt i am in no good mood again what should i do??
watch tv?
sleep?
listen to songs?
sing songs?
shopping?
go out and walk walk?

i did just all tt.......hehehe....
watch tv will cry
sleep also will cry
listen to songs also will cry
bath also cry
wash face also cry
do what also will cry
so would u suggest to go out??
better not

so did u guess correctly??? now all i do is cry
sigh
so useless rite?
not the usual me
disappointed in me???

i really need to find some activites to keep myself occupy so tt the mind won't run wild
frankly, i got to count my blessings tt i can still work, eat, sleep, drink, poo and shit...wahahahaha
Y still joked with me "as long as no constipation u will be fine" *faint can*
at least, weekdays, during the day time, i am occupied...i just need to handle when night comes....nothing to keep myself occupy

but hor, if really analysed the whole thing
weekdays i also dun meet or talk to him de, so nothing new...can still make it
its the weekends, tt i need to find things to do........sigh
but hor, frankly, weekends were spent for fishing and movie.....so also no do much ah
sigh....need to find something to replace fishing and movie....

its not tt i have no interests, ok la, i really have not much interests....hehehe
i just want to do whatever my loved one want to do...to be part of his life mah....

but hor, its not the activities la, its the person tt i am missing.....
not easy to say put down then put down de....take time....
if no love le, then easier to put down....tt shows tt i love him more than he loves me
wahahahha *arm chio*

anyway, once the well is dried up i will be just fine....i hope
then i can go shopping le....change my wardrobe....to BRIGHTER COLOURS FOR A BRIGHTER FUTURE!!!

GAMBANTE!!!!