BURST PIPE

i actually broke down and cried in office today
tsk tsk
all becoz the radio was playing "duan dian"

waaaaaa!!
and the tears just flow and flow

actually, YY was asking me "what happened?"
and i told her dun ask le
then she continued with "its only temporary rite?"
and i told her dun ask le
then the radio played the song and tts it!!

burst pipe!!

luckily it was near lunch time
she quickly popped over and zoomed me off for lunch
sigh

should not have done tt
i mean cry in office
so unprofessional

my neighbour got shocked!! why was i crying out of the blue....
i dun mean to scare him, but i just couldn't control myself
duh

i will be fine, i know i can!!!
give me some time
the topic still touchy...

i am very thankful for my friends who told me tt "dun worry. he dun know how to appreciate u. he will surely regret it! u will find someone X1000000 more better than him"
i know u guys are doing it just to make me feel better and less painful

but seriously, 6 yrs leh...not say put down and can put down le
unless there is no love
oh! no more!!!! no more iloveu!!!
sigh

erm....actually, i got to defend for him here abit la
he is really a very nice person......and frankly, he is definitely X10000000 more better than the previous one
i cannot be eye sight no good one mah rite?
derrick is well liked by my family, friends and relatives....he fulfilled all tt i want in my significant other half.....just tt perhaps i am not the one whom he will want to settle down eventually

i admit the 1st one was lousy, but this one is excellent lor. will i find another excellent one?? wait and see bah
on the topic on whether he got appreciate or not, i think have la. like what honey said, the guy will not waste time for a person he no likes for 6 yrs...for what???
but frankly, accompanying him for fishing every weekends is not something so damn bloody big tt he must appreciate me rite?
he sometmes also went fishing on his own, dun need me ah
its me who wants to tag along
afterall, i always want to spend quality time with him......i just like being by his side, regardless of what he is doing.....dun u all agree???? u will want to be with ur loved one regardless of what he is doing...u just want to be with him....

to think i was so naive to think tt "hm..its april fool day today...everything will be fine if he calls and said "happy april fool. i was pulling ur leg"
wa kao!!
pull ur stupiak leg lor
hehehe
i was so stupiak, already said to live in the reality than in the fantasy world..coz he won;t be back...but i still choose to live in my own world...wake up bah.....i have to be cruel to myself in order to pick myself up and move on

well, like i said, if one day, should he decided to come back, i will definitely share the news with u all *beam beam*
but he won;t be back lor, so let's just face the reality now.....if he ever comes back, its a bonus......*beam beam*

i also want thank u all, who tried to make arangement to meet up with me, have dinner, go out for movie, go out do this and do tt
but frankly, ask urself how long can u guys accompany me?? how long can u guys stand a broken record and see me cry cry cry?? who wants to witness the day i stop crying???
u also have ur owm committement rite?
i cannot be so selfish and ask for ur 100% attention lor...though i really really want to meet up with u all...but sooner or later, i still got to stand up on my own and face it myself, bravely...
i got to get on with my own life....on my own...of course with ur support too la....
how can i ever do it on my own rite?
as long as i know tt u guys are there for me, no matter what, i will hang in there and hopefully one day, i will get out of the dark tunnel and see the LIGHT

unless u wanna intro some good guys to me, if not, dun bother date me out bah *evil*......i will come out when i am ready....though i also dun know when....

let's just do everything one baby step at a time....let's get over the crying portion then we talk abt moving on to the next step