HURT SO MUCH

really, i also dun know what is happening
what have i done to deserve this!!!
afterall i was just "helping" coz she kept bugging me
and when trouble brews, she just dun own up

scene 1:
i was busy at work one fine day
she asked me "so whose project does this belong to?u or mine?"
and i replied "it started with mine. then urs slotted in. so just let it be lor"
and she went "no my friend. its 1 pt leh"
and i went "its ok lah. just 1 pt. u want, u can have it"
and she went "no lah, friend. must clarify"
i ignored her and continued to do my work.
really!!
its only 1 pt and what does tt 1 pt means to me?
NOTHING!!!
work is still work.
end of the day, when there are many projects coming in, u think they look at ur pts u accumulated so far? u have to do, means u have to do lor
but she just bug and bug and bug
which really pisses me off, esp i am busy at work
so i looked at her "so what u want me to do" look
and she said "asked Q"
so just to appease her, i went to ask Q
Q also has no idea and we happened to see boss so we went to ask him. coz the scoring system was "invented" by him and he was the one who assigned projects to us
so off we went, and his instruction, "gave it to the one who has a bigger share" and so it went to her
case closed
and she happy *beam beam*
since she is the chosen one, i told her, she got to do everything. i just do my own project and she does her. overall its still HER
she said she is fine with it
and she proceeded to do the LA even though i told her she can forward me the soft copy i can do it
she said its ok, she will do it
case closed....tts what i thought

scene 2:
today she while doing the LA, she asked me a few qn
and was brought to my attention tt i missed out a very impt section in the doc
and so she asked me"can ah"
and i went "i dun know. why dun u ask?"
and she went "no lah. why dun we just put it in?"
and i said " cannot. dun do it. not rite."
and then pc happened to come along and she said "ask him"
and so i said "ok u ask"
and blah blah blah she went
and he said "must put lah. but since dun have. forget it lor.why want to put it in now"
and then we discussed tt we will let senior know to keep her in the loop but we won't tell her we missed out the section but instead its though we missed it out but its covered in another section
and we all agreed le
but i told her today senior busy, gg on half day so we disturb her tomolo
but she went "no. must catch her later"
FINE!!
next moment, while i was not ard, she approached senior and went "this tender hor, done by her hor, never put in this leh. can meh? correct ah?"
wa kao!!! what is this!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
we agreed le lor, why is there a change in the script....
to me i was like "WTF" do u have to do tt??
pc heard her told senior J tt way, and he was shocked too!!
but he just diam diam
anyway, when i came back to my seat, i realised tt senior was not happy
so i quickly popped by her seat and she went "heard tt u missed out tt section. why like this? cannot u know. where is the standard? why u never do this? why u never check? cannot like this u know" blah blah blah
and i quickly went "ya i know, i am sorry, i missed it out. i overlooked it. but i have checked both sections and majority of the impt items are already in another section, so should not be an issue."
and then she sort of cool down le and went "ok. then let's see the doc before i comment any thing"
and i quickly went to take the file and then passed to her
and after checking, really heng ah!!
passed!!
but she told me not to be careless again and i promised her i will be more careful next time
when i was doing this tender, i was also doing 4 others lor. so what she wants me to do?
i have said it many time, "u want quantity u dun get quality from me", though she dun buy it, but i meant every word i said.
u chuck everything to me at one time, which one u want?
and during tt time i am not just doing tender lor, i also have 101 things to do just like everyone of them
anyway, i also thought case closed........but tt was what i thought

scene 3:
i went to the clinic to check out my urine test
came back, her face black again
and this time really black coz she was warning me its gg to be a good one
and then senior went "i heard from ur good friend, tt u and Q went to ask boss who should sign the la"
and i went "har?" *blank look* "never ask him lah"
and she went "never asked? then why ur good friend said u and Q went to ask? tell me. why u do tt? whats ur concern"
i looked at her and she just gave me a blank stare. signalled to me to handle it
and i signalled back "u go handle it. u asked me to go ask de"
but she dun care
senior was very mad
mad at me, why i went to look for boss instead of her first
how badly will it reflect on her as our head
sigh
i have never have had an ill intentions when i did tt lor
its becoz someone was bugging me for tt pt
and i know tt i could have just said it out, but then, dun u think its so stupiak
she kept harping on the "whats the concern? why must go see boss direct"
then she asked Q to join us
and i told her "no lah. dun ask Q lah. she dun know anything"
but she still asked her come and then she rattled and rattled
i tried to explain but she dun want to listen
mad to the hair on top of her head
she put it across to us bluntly tt boss is not our new boss now. our new boss is someone esle. so why must we still go to him.
told her tt we really overlooked tt. and forgot tt we are now reporting to someone else but she just dun want to hear us out
and it came to a pt tt i almost gave up and i went "ok. sorry, I overlooked it. but it was never done with any bad intentions when i approached boss"
she said she dun accept that reasoning and want to know whyi did what i did
esp since i started with the project, i should continued on why i want to go ask boss to transfer it to someone else.
wa kao!!
what u really want me to say
i looked at her and she just sit there, diam diam.
it all started becoz of her and now she diam diam
come on lor, i am not trying to prove anything here
i am not saying tt i am boss's pet or i can have my say if i want to
i dun call for the wind or the rain lor
i just want to do my work and get my paid monthly
the rest i am not interested in
so dun get my intentions all wrong
anyway it ended with her bursting all her frustrations, anger and whatever and she cried!!
ya, senior cried
i felt very bad........really
i apologied once again "sorry. i know u have the right to be angry with me. i do agreed with u. but there is never once an intention to back stab u with boss or did it with an ill intentions. really!
i was very sincere in saying tt, but how much it can go into her i dun know
and really, i dun really care le
coz to me "WHAT HAVE I DONE WRONG?"

i really tio sabo lor
and it hurts
it hurts so badly when it came from someone u trusted
dear was right, i am too naive
there is REALLY no such thing as REAL friend in office
i am so foolish tt now i want to cry

frankly speaking, i wanted to cry on the spot there and then when senior was rattling on and on and on
what have i done!!!
do i deserved such treatment
it hurts so bad lor

how could she do this to me?
why she said things so untactfully
i mean afterall she also knows senior's temper
so why rub it in
i really cannot take it
she acted as if she dun know anything
and i was the one who wanted to ask and pass the project over to her
but why should i do it???!!

after working few late nights together, 11 months here, this is how senior viewed me!!!
i am so upset
and to make matter worst, someone i treasured so much treat me this way
send me to the gallows
what does she gain from it?

i told her in future do whatever she wants just dun ask me to do it for her
i won't do anything or say anything for her in future

senior said she was hurt
i am too!!! =(
what can i do? she can vent her anger on me but me???? on what?
nb turtle

i said before, u want to play games by all means
but do not, DO NOT drag me in, dun take me as a pawn in ur games
coz i will be very upset
give me one more time such thing, i think tts it
game over here

first it was the 2 headed snake, then now her, one more...just one more and i am out of here
really, dun say i did not give chance
3 chances lor
all becoz of things tt i did not do
and i got a good one for NOTHING
i think its very unfair
and i dislike such treatment
=(

period

boy!! it really hurts alot